Day 215 - Catching and Removing the Virus

The only way to extricate the virus/parasite of fear which subverts me, takes away my responsibility, and consumes me, is to stand within and as myself - undivided, constant, self-directed, here in each and every breath.  As long as not all of my breaths are self-directed, I am divided, I am not standing here in every moment as one with all of myself, and the program is still being given permission to run.

A monumental task it would appear, as to do this would mean giving up all that I ever thought I was and believed myself to be.  To abandon that which I have always trusted as my mind, and trust my physical body in each and every moment and situation I am in - This going against all the programming how we have been trained to trust our minds as knowledge and information.  Trained to trust all the judgments of what is right and what is wrong... what is good and what is bad - To the extent that our bodies seem to send us mixed signals because we have allowed the programming to control us for so long.   We don't believe we can change, yet we created it all, and we are allowing it.

The system/program is granted access to Self through permissions, where the program possesses all the attributes of authenticity based on past accepted and allowed protocols.  If the program is questioned, it immediately executes within itself three or more consecutive justification sub-programs so as to affirm itself, and thereby Self recalls/defines/classifies it's unique and specific identity.  These justification sub-programs are the thought-triggers for specific feeling/emotional reactions so that Self can use the liaison of the justification as a point of separation and thus blame.  This, so that Self may feel 'free' to indulge in self-interest, as the pursuit of happiness/bliss program executes within self in the belief that Self is separate.

More energetic-thought-programs are then executed with the sole purpose of producing the chemical reaction in the body which in turn produce the euphoric states such as what is referred to as 'love'.  Self then claims to be in a state of preoccupation, and thus believes Self to be justified through identification/blame and so can avoid taking responsibility for Self as who Self really is.

Self then conforms Self according to the design of the program in a repeating cycle of which Self believes Self to be 'unaware' of any problem, (this is just the way it is...) as the program does not calculate consequence into the equation - because if physical consequence were actually taken into consideration, the program would never be granted permission to execute itself, as consequence is suffering and death.  

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Day 195 - By Whose Authority?

I woke up this morning from last nights sleep, grabbed some breakfast and sat down at my computer.  It was right then that I had the thought "you're not free to do what you want - you have to push your resistances" which resulted in a negative energy experience/feeling, because I did not want to push the resistance or deal with it at the moment.  So In that moment I chose to watch some videos... when what I should have done is address the energetic experience I felt, but rather I chose to simply put the thought out of my head. What I was doing was giving in - sacrificing my self-responsibility as my directive principle of myself in the comforting hope/desire to avoid/escape the negative energy experience I felt.

What I realize looking back at the experience is that - because I have allowed such points of self-denial in the past - within an instant of this single thought, my mind had conjured and executed from my memory, a program based on my past experiences and beliefs of 'who I was' as (being subject to and therefore less than) knowledge of my past (in case any is unaware, knowledge in the form of energetically charged streams of information which is simply a limited and defined misinterpretation of myself and my existence from a separation standpoint in fear of self, believing it to be inherently evil - but we all know evil in the greater context is in polarity to good and therefore another false opinion based on separation, and therefore unacceptable - lol).

In that moment, I accepted and allowed that program to 'authenticate' itself through my permission, therefore through my authorization as my acceptance and allowance.  I subscribed and signed myself over to the belief that it is 'who I am' - as less than/subject to the knowledge and information.  So I subjected/diminished myself to the authority of that belief program as me having to struggle with this constant and nagging negative energetic experience of myself.  I believed myself to be too weak to stop the program - partly because my own energy was being resourced to run and execute the program - I created the idea that it (facing the energetic reaction) was a 'big deal' which it is not really - and I am fully capable of stopping and changing the program because I am the one who created it - I am the author, I wrote the book and therefore I can change the ending or re-write the entire book if I like lol.  

This comes back to my commitment.

Realizing that while in the physical I have the power to change in each moment.  Now that I recognize how it works and the consequence it creates for myself and others, I simply refuse to allow it to control me by addressing it when I see energetic movements within myself.  I make the connection to who I actually am as the directive principle of myself, not subject to anything, but standing Equal in taking responsibility for myself now, and in the future to create a world that is best for all.

With this point, I realized that I was trying to avoid the negative experience because I had defined pushing resistances as 'boring' and/or 'draining', when in fact NOT pushing resistances is the actual drain.  I can change the negatively charged definition of 'pushing resistances' I have created for myself and so redefine and realize pushing resistances as the 'live show' of me facing myself and creating myself as self-honest as Life... and learning to trust myself in the process.  Pushing resistances is literally creating heaven on earth as the accumulated outcome of moment by moment transcendence of each fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define pushing resistances within myself as work/slavery/drudgery/negative/boring/tiring as I realize that pushing resistances is me becoming Life for real, and that is the best and most awesome most rewarding experience as it is teaching myself to be absolutely honest with myself which is the best I can possibly be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my authority of myself as Life to a knowledge based program.

I commit myself to take back my authority as Life, in that there is zero tolerance and no program shall be permitted access to execute or run in place of my self-direction as what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to directly facing all energetic experiences first thing in the morning as they come up so that I can stop the program before it takes control and traps my mind into a belief of myself.

I commit myself to investigate all things which go on within myself so that all things may be tested to see which is good for myself and all and which is not - so that I may recognize myself and realize my ability to forgive myself and change myself in each moment to create myself as self-honest and Equal in all ways.

I commit myself to realize that I can absolutely do this without question - because I see/realize/understand how it works and how the addiction to energy destroys and where that leads us all.


It's interesting that the mind tends to value the present moment over the future - 'I want to feel better now' type of thing - thinking and believing I am giving 'sufficient' value to the future here, when actually I am giving it significantly less value within the mental perception that it is not here now, therefore not a guarantee, so I should live for the moment.  I have considered my future 'less important' because it is not within my direct experience here now. This is a problem because (as it exists now) the future is inevitable and as such a direct result of what and who we accept and allow ourselves to be in the present moment.  We sacrifice the future here rather than standing Equal to it - so that we may have that warm cozy feeling of hiding under the electric blanket.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sacrifice the future here for a more cozy present here now.  I realize that taking value from the future is diminishing my own value here now, and in the future here, because I am not standing in Equality with myself and taking responsibility for myself in all dimensions.

I commit myself to give myself Equal value for here now and for the future here and now that is inevitable.

Day 151 – Android

I Watched the movie Prometheus tonight.  I here reflect on the character that played the robot/android.  I see how this character conducted himself to a strict regimen, taking speaking lessons upon waking up, and efficiently, at the same time eating breakfast.  This character expressed no feelings or emotions, as it had no capacity to do so given its internal programming, feeling and emotion was irrelevant and not necessary.  The function of the robot was to support the mission, and support human beings.

It is interesting, because this process (journey to life) would be interpreted by my mind as me ‘becoming a robot’ to no longer be subject to feelings and emotional programming. At the same time living within the primary function/principle of supporting all life in Equality.  

This fear, where my mind creates the idea that if I were to give up my mind as the program, I would become a robot, is deception.  The opposite is actually true – I already am a robot - if I am controlled by programs (thoughts/beliefs/opinions etc.) which trigger feelings and emotions which control me and cause me to act in self-interest and irresponsibility to life. 

So my responsibility, is not to stop all my feelings and emotions, but to stop judging them and being controlled by them.  In doing so, I learn to direct myself (and my feelings and emotions) in what is best for everyone, and my feelings and emotions are re-aligned, to no longer be based in self-interest, but are expressed in self-honesty and consideration for others – thus extended outward to include everything and everyone in existence, so that life can be supported, as without life, there would be no expression in or of existence.

I realize I have the power and responsibility to change and re-program myself using self-forgiveness as the tool of self-realization and self-correction.  In that, I am able to make the decision to live what is best for all, as Equality… equalizing myself with what is here, as my physical body, so I myself can be supported as an Equal, and all abuse of life can stop. 

So the point is to stop being a robot slave.

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Day 112–Astrological Alignment

I have found astrology quite supportive in pointing out different aspects of my individual programmed design, although I have found that not every prescribed definition outlined is pronounced within my behaviour.  I have made myself aware of the inherent systems of my birth sign, in the attempt to transcend what ‘traits’ imposed a limitation on myself, and so attempt to use my traits or ‘talents’ to focus and align myself in ways that support me aligning myself with Equality, and living what is best for all. 

However due to the nature of the system as a whole, my personal systems, and various aspects of my current situation, I have for the most part, been unable to be substantially effective in positively focusing and aligning these traits to the best of my abilities.   

According to my astrological sign (Aries - program) I am predisposed to the following traits…

Adventurous and energetic
Pioneering and courageous
Enthusiastic and confident
Dynamic and quick-witted

On the dark side...

Selfish and quick-tempered

Impulsive and impatient

Foolhardy and daredevil

It’s interesting, the ‘dark side’ traits are obvious points that require work –  specifically selfishness, which I have been working on over the past little while. (Obviously selfishness does not support what is best for all.)
The positive traits, once aligned with equality, could effectively be used for the benefit of all.     
I realize that I must transcend (the limitations and definitions of) all of the astrological signs, however starting with my own sign seems like a good starting point.

During my brief research into Alchemy and Kabbalah, reading some books and so on, I recall some interesting perspectives with regards to the balancing and alignment of myself – to myself - from the mind system’s starting point of self-interest and energy of course, (becoming my own god in the imaginary land in my mind).

One book in particular outlined a series of imaginations where I would see myself within my own kingdom, with a central tower, where each level was a part of myself.

One portion of the imaginations I found particularly interesting was on the ground level of the tower, I would sit at a large round table with the selected members of my council. Each member was of a different astrological sign, so as to compliment me of course (haha) and so to grant me a balanced perspective in dealing with matters of interest or concern within my magical kingdom in my mind.

I see this (practical Astrology, no imagination required) as a good starting point in assisting myself through transcending all of the designated and limited characterizations outlined within the astrological chart, so that I can understand and realize different aspects of myself through changing myself, and in so approach challenges with the ultimate goal of transcending all limitation and fear of self, so that best for all can be realized within myself, here.

Taking responsibility for myself as all is the greatest relief.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as selfish, and in so shrivel up into the shell of my mind rather than change and expand myself in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow myself to be directed and controlled by anger, as the energetic response to frustration, as my mind not getting what it selfishly wants immediately.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to impulsive, in that I have allowed myself to be directed and controlled by external impulses, rather than be the starting point of myself, as directing myself and living in the best interest of all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to impatient.  I realize that patience essential to my process so that I can learn to slow myself down and not jump to conclusions based on ideas, frustration or anger in selfish desire to get more for me, because I fear for my own survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the foolhardy and daredevil characters in vain attempt for personal glory and or excitement, risking life and limb.  I realize that this type of behavior does not serve the interest of all, but is also selfish and thus foolish in nature. 


I commit myself to realize that aligning myself to Equality as what is best for all is the only way that I can transcend all of my selfish desires and so find true self-enjoyment and fulfillment with myself and my world.

Day 83 - Limitation

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that limitation only exists because we have all individually and collectively allowed it to exist, as the system of the mind of judgments, ideas, perceptions, beliefs, control and power.  All because we fear ourselves, and feed an illusion of limitation by way of self-denial and self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within the limitations of my mind, where I only consider myself in self-interest and fear, as the boundaries of what I have been taught, programmed and punished to believe.  I realize that I am responsible for accepting and allowing myself to believe the limitations of the system, despite the programming that took place, because I have contributed in creating the current abusive system in past lives that I do not remember.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to such an extent that I have diminished myself to a point where I do not even realize how much I have diminished myself and what I have actually sacrificed - as myself as life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fight for my limitations within arguing and defending my limited point of view as my opinion, in ignorance and denial of myself as who I actually am as Equal to all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to such an extent that I actually believe that bullying, punishment, suppression, oppression and existing within the starting point of fear is OK with me - in my personal opinion.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the only reason limitation exists is because I have created it through my irresponsibility to myself as Life. I realize that this occurs through me accepting and allowing a system of inequality to rule over me, and dictate how I should act, how I should express myself, what I should say, how I should say it, what I should wear, where I can or cannot go, and what I should be like - all promoted as freedom, when in fact it is absolute enslavement.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize how I am contributing to my own limitations through thinking that I am happy enough, and everything is going to be alright in the end.  I realize that this is the deception, and that me accepting and allowing myself to follow the deception as a sheep - I have become the deceiver of myself and others.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize the fact that my existence as all is far worse than I can comprehend through my limited senses of sight, smell, taste, touch and hearing.  In that I realize that it is my responsibility to understand the deception that is going on beyond the borders of my senses, because if I do nothing, and just let it slide, inevitable destructive and horrific consequences will be faced by all, including myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that denying responsibility creates serious consequences of abuse of Life and self-diminishment, and if I continue to deny responsibility to Life as all as myself, I will suddenly be subject to consequences and instantly become powerless to change or correct myself for the life I lived in ignorance and spite.

I commit myself to consider that which is beyond the limited ideas of what I have been taught to believe.  In so I commit myself to realize that if I stand with the group that supports Life as Equality, limitation of the mind will diminish in time, and what will be left is unconditional self-expression, as me expressing, giving and sharing myself with all in self-honesty - rather than living a lie.

I commit myself to face my fears so that I do not accept and allow fear to rule my existence.

I commit myself to stop blaming others and relying on others to take responsibility for me

I commit myself to rather than fight for my limited and borrowed opinions and perspectives, trust myself to understand how I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself through following the opinions of others.

I commit myself to - within common sense - push myself beyond the limitations of what I have been taught to believe I am, and so face my fear of myself so that I can get to know who I really am for real as a physical being Equal to all.

I commit myself to take responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed to exist in my world and reality, and in so, look into myself in self-honesty so I can change myself and align myself with the Life honoring principle of that which is Best for All.

I commit myself to supporting the only solution to the current abusive money system - which is Equal Money for All.

I commit myself to undertake the Journey to Life in blogging and sharing myself and my self-realizations so that all will be supported in giving ourselves to life through self-forgiveness.


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The Con of The Education System - Day 59

Take math for an example.  Many people claim that math is difficult.  Why?  All math ever is - is 1+1=2.  It is never more complicated than that. Math, (and all education based on knowledge for that matter) is a system of letters, numbers, and symbols, when combined in different ways and placed together, gives us values - as knowledge and information.  It is simply a matter of following the STEPS and RULES of the system, and, given enough time, you will get the 'correct'/desired answer.

So all one has to do to be good at math, is to MEMORIZE the steps and rules.  It's interesting that our education system judges people on their ability to understand knowledge and information in a predetermined fashion.  Rather than allow people to express for themselves unconditionally, we are graded on how well we can MEMORIZE the steps and rules, and regurgitate what we are force-fed by the education system. 

Why is memory - and the use of memory, through repetition and emulation - then given such high value in the education system?  It is because memory, is used as a tool to force us into submission and enslavement.  The more memory you use, the more knowledge you store in your brain (and body), thus you are attributed more value in the eyes of the system.

Memory is not physical, but energy, based on the past, which keeps us repeating cycles of the past in a continual, infinite loop.  In keeping us enslaved to cycles of the past, we remain trapped in the illusion - believing that all the answers are found in our memories.  But memories are actually the DENIAL of what is here as ourselves as physical beings.  Memories are how we have separated ourselves as - ENERGY vs PHYSICAL.  The energy of memories, CONSUMES the physical, and is the manifestation of fear of facing the totality of ourselves here, in each new moment. Memory is used in direct contradiction to common sense in living what is best for all.

This is just one of the many ways the education system functions to subdue and control humanity.  Another contributing factor to the problem is lack of individual responsibility, as people seeing themselves as separate from their reality.

How are people fooled into thinking and believing they are separate from their world and reality?

The answer to that is, they are trained to think that way - first by their parents, followed by the education system.
 
People calculate in their minds what will grant themselves the most fulfillment in their life experience, based on the indoctrination of competition by parents within a child's early years. Rather than experiencing and expressing Life for themselves, children are conditioned/tought/programmed and punished, into an imposed IDEA of how life is supposed to be. 

Parents train children in their own fears and limitations of mind, in that, early on in a child's life, many things are strictly forbidden for children.  This inherently creates a strong desire within a child's mind to understand, and experience those things that were forbidden to them, because within this oppression by parents, the child inevitably feels EXCLUDED and 'less than' the parent.  There are also many other emotions and consequences of this parental oppression - such as anger, fear, resentment, rebellion, distrust etc.  All culminating in the child's enslavement to such emotions and ideas of who they are and what life is.

What is interesting is that, by the time a child enters into the education system, they are immediately judged and given VALUES, as grades, marks, or scores, which translate to further inequality, separation, suppression and consequential emotions.  A child then begins to value his/herself 'higher' or 'lower' than ones fellow classmates, and so, competition is fueled through the release of suppressed emotions, reactions, and desire for validation, which is all traced back to the parental oppression in the formative years.

We must then ask ourselves the following;


Question;
1.  Why does society give higher value to those who have higher education - When the starting point for these valuations is CLEARLY to based in competition (as fear), and limited ideas (as memories)?

Answer:
Because society - as the system - as all of the minds (egos) of humanity, seeks to replicate itself, through our collective negligence to take responsibility for life, we have all allowed a system of abuse.


Question;
2.  Why does the education system NOT consider ALL factors of life, but merely a small, limited fraction?

Answer;
The factors which are used are predetermined within the context of the preeminence of society, and therefore based on COMPETITION.  So the education system is not educating children how to live their lives and express themselves, but rather PROGRAMMING children how to function as organic robots within society - as a system.


Question;
3.  Why are students graded, and what are the factors for grading?

Answer;
Grades in the education system are based on three primary factors.

a. One's perceived ability to learn knowledge and information, and solve problems.

b. Ones DESIRE to acquire and assimilate knowledge and information 

c. The SPEED at which one is able to solve the problems.

I have explained how the use of stored knowledge and information is a tool of leverage, and therefore spitefully used to gain power over others as opposed to seeing eachother as physical equals.  One's desire can be attributed to competition.  It is fascinating how speed is a factor - which is also a typical component of competition. 



Question;
4.  What are the attributes of competition?

Answer;
a.  FEAR (energy based and non physical) - As fear of survival

b. GREED (energy based and non physical) - As lust for power and control.



Question;
How then are grades judged, and determined, and what are the factors involved in grading students?

Answer;
If a student is fearful of getting bad grades, this fear could likely cause one to work hard, (assuming they do not give up or drop out) then one may achieve good grades through the motivation of fear.  So we can see here from this example, that the education system can actually REWARD FEAR!  In doing so, it rewards the use of ENERGY to charge the illusion in spite of the physical being.

One may claim that a person is 'naturally talented' in a given subject.  Interestingly though, this argument falls on its face, as the education system does not investigate or consider the starting point of how a student became 'naturally good' or adept in a given subject. 

- Did he/she desire to be seen as better than others?  If so, then that is ego/mind/energy based, as seeing oneself as 'better than' the physical, and thus spiteful.

- Did he/she see the subject as an opportunity to get revenge on others, through leveraging education to get a high value/grade, and thus use this valuation to justify living a life of greed and self interest?  If so, then that is ego/mind/energy based, as seeing oneself as 'better than' the physical, and thus spiteful.

- Did the student simply want to help all of humanity?  If so, then what a great tragedy that this student is still subject to a system of control and bureaucracy, and therefore will not be able to use his/her 'talents' to their full capacity.



How can society and the education system pass out judgements as grades and valuations, without considering the STARTING POINT of why a person is, or is not, adept at a certain subject?  Why is it that society and the education system actually rewards SPITEFULNESS?  The system would defend itself by saying 'there is no way to know a persons intentions'.

That defense is unacceptable, and can only have one possible reason - the system itself, as all of humanity collectively - is irresponsible and spiteful.  That is why society and the education system rewards spite - because it is itself, spiteful by the illusion of free choice.  All choices have consequences that affect everyone.  Therefore Free choice does not support life, but supports SELF-INTEREST and abuse of Life!  Free choice supports FEAR as ENERGY and manipulation.  Free choice is not true freedom, but rather the opposite - complete ENSLAVEMENT to the system.

The only way to solve the oppression by society, the education system and the problems in our world is to stop free choice.  Each person must take self responsibility to support Equality of Life, so that all Life can be honored Equally, and each person can contribute to life in whatever way they are able.  If we do not value all Life as Equal, then we are deceiving ourselves, and there is no way we can stop the inevitable destruction of ourselves and our planet.  We need to all work together, to serve life in doing what is best for all! That is the only way... there is no other way.  Join Desteni, and take self-responsibility to change yourself, so that we can all stand together to change our world into a place worth living. 

Williams 7yr Journey to Life - Day 56 - Time Traveling

Within my process I've become acutely aware of the ups and downs.  One day there is a feeling of up, the next its down, with even shorter intervals at times.  The most seemingly benign things can trigger ups and downs.  Something someone says, or I see a picture or something else will prompt a thought to come up, and I will reflect on it from a future perspective - as a projection, in comparing myself to someone or something - and I then create an idea of the 'best case scenario', or the 'worst case scenario'.

Thus jumping from one time dimension to another, in fear of 'what may or may not happen' in the future - all based on my past programmed thoughts and ideas.

What I really need to do is write things out immediately when they come up, that way I can trap my feelings in one dimension - here - so that I can see it and deconstruct it without the thought and feeling 'fleeing' away, only to come back at another time if it is not dealt with in the moment.

One trigger today was a picture of myself.  A thought came up that I am getting old, and so that triggered regret that I have not accomplished that which I would have liked to accomplish yet in this life - as transcending all points of self-dishonesty and standing Equal to all, here, in and as my physical body.

Another trigger further compounded the first, where I had a reaction to a perspective and judged myself as 'not being honest enough with myself yet.  This then triggered discouragement which triggered frustration, which triggered tiredness, which triggered neglect. 

Within these triggered points there also opened up other points.  I am still not living up to my expectations, and or the projected image of myself. I am desiring to be perfect in my process, yet this desire is a deception, because I am using it as a crutch, as a graven image which gives me a good feeling about myself, which I use to encourage myself - in polarity - in which case I inevitably fall into the opposite polarity of discouragement.

So it is time to drop the image so I can sort out what is here, step by step, breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project an image of myself in my mind into the future based on my past so that I may manipulate myself into giving myself a good feeling and in so attempt to encourage myself within the polarity game of encouragement/discouragement.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value and compare myself to the image I have constructed of myself within my mind as an idea, where I actually deny what is here and use this future projection as a point and means to blame others as 'not being as good as me', and in so compromise my self-honesty and create further consequences for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself through the image of myself I have created in my mind in fear of what others will think of me.  This also in fear of consequences that will play out instead of me being here and facing myself within writing so that I can trap and see the points in written format without them fleeing away in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the best case/worst case scenario in my mind and so react to those mind scenarios which create further cycles and time-loops within my process of self-realization.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hesitate to write out points for myself as soon as I am able, so that I may see how I am hiding from myself, and so creating more cycles within which I am not being honest with myself and dealing with what is here as me, in and as the physical, moment by moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/desire to be liked or be seen as special where I have created ideas and images of myself in my mind so that I may have good feelings about myself without investigating and understanding what the outflow effect of these ideas and images will be. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/desire to be a hero in my mind where I am thinking I can, and trying to do everything by myself and so putting myself through unnecessary stress and anxiety. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to prepare myself for what points that I must face within my day and week in a structured and disciplined manner.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take the first option that comes to mind - as opposed to having patience to explore what other opportunities are available - without unnecessarily aversion to making a decision.

I commit myself to structuring, organizing and prioritizing my days and weeks so that I may prepare myself for the points that I know I have to face within my daily participation, and so be ready to address them and deal with them appropriately in the moment.

I commit myself to physical walking of my process within breath, so that I am constantly dealing with what is here in and as my physical process.

I commit myself to face points that come up as soon as I am able so that I can deal with them before more points are triggered, and so i can stop the cycle before it starts.

I commit myself keeping my process simple through effective writing and establishing myself within and as self-trust. 



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Day 46 - Before Its Too Late

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by money, where my feelings are determined by the number in my bank account.  I realize we live in a system that is not Equal or fair in any way, but destructive in nature and that it came to be through my acceptances and allowances.  Therefore there is no choice in the matter, I must stand up for life and change myself so that I can change the system to stop the abuse of life and create a new system that supports life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think only of myself, where I lived in the belief that the rest of the world was not my responsibility and the belief that I did not create this mess, when in fact I did create this mess through my acceptances and allowances and participating in a system based on greed and self interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to blame others such as politicians, stock market traders, bankers and those that attain money easily through leverage tactics and deliberate harm such as drug dealers and criminal activities groups.  I realize that I am no better than any of these people because I myself allowed the system to function through my direct participation, and therefore I am equally guilty for the demise of life as anyone.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a system which tolerates abuse of life in infinite ways through the promotion of capitalism, consumerism, war, slavery and all types of cruelty and disregard for life.

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a system based on fear where three quarters of the world are struggling to survive because money and resources to make money is extremely difficult if not impossible to attain. I realize that this type of capitalistic system promotes fear as the primary driving force for life and thus many are so driven by fear they will stop at nothing to obtain money, even killing and torturing other human beings and animals.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the deliberate murder of those who are unfortunately are out of the loop, unable to attain resources that are necessary to survive such as medicine, health care, food, water and shelter.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a system where people are so fearful that it is necessary to have a police force, military, and weapons that can destroy the whole planet. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a system that breeds clones that mimic eachother out of fear of facing themselves.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a system where parents punish their children into submission and submit them to an education system that programs them to be good slaves to the system rather than allowing them to express themselves as life as what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a system of religion where people are so fearful of an imaginary god that they don't even realize they are funneling money into the system which perpetuates false beliefs and false people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a system where money is given more value than Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a system where profit and greed are promoted through the media in a propaganda war against Life to keep the masses blind to the fact that they are living in a system of enslavement, functioning as organic robot slaves to money, profit and greed.

I commit myself to stand for life in appling myself in self-honesty to stop the mind system of consciosness that is conning all of humanity into self-delusion and self-destruction.

I commit myself to expose all the abusive ways the system is being sustained through selfishness and inconsideration for everyone as a whole.

I commit myself to realize and see and understand what is really going on in my world and reality so that I can do what is necessary to be done, as standing with the group that stands for what is best for all.

I commit myself to align myself with the physical in stopping participation in the mind as that which is based on energy and pictures/thoughts/feelings/emotions/perceptions/beliefs/ideas and opinions which do not support life.

Day 36 - Exponential Potential

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to miss opportunities in my life where I could have assisted someone to understanding Equality and coming to self-realizations because I did not make an effort to express myself out of fear and/or self-interest.  I realize that there is tremendous potential in every moment if I am here as breath living what is best for all.  I also realize the exponential factors involved in that what can potentially happen through a simple act of selfless support, where resonant outflows can produce multiple self-realizations culminating in more pressure on the entire system to stop abuse of life, and change to a system that is best for all - The Equal Money System. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit my potential through limiting myself in and as my mind. I see that at times I could do more for Equality, but I do not because I am still subject to the mind as limitation through past programming.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the mind of past programming rather than stop myself in the moment, clear myself through breath, and change myself within the moment freeing myself from the limitations of the past.  I realize that the past assists me to see how I went wrong so I can correct myself, but the past in itself is gone with no value other than that.  Memories do not serve life here in any way other than to assist with changing me here and now so that I can delete all memories of the past, as it only existed in the starting point of abuse and self-denial.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my trust and belief in someone  rather than trust myself as what I know to be true to myself as - what is best for all is ALWAYS the absolute best - it can get no better than that.  Anyone telling me that I need to do this, or I need to do that, so that I can improve my image, or be faster, or be better, or look better  - is deceived - in trying to manipulate me into the polarity game of winner/loser which is NEVER best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being in a cult. I realize that this is a ridiculous fear because I realize the whole world is full of cults/cultures - which all they really are are organizations and corporations of people who serve a common purpose - to abuse life.  I realize there is only ONE cult that has the guts to stand in support of ALL LIFE.  I love being in that cult, because Desteni is the BEST ******* CULT IN THE HISTORY OF THE UNIVERSE!!! 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and squirm my way out of facing my fears through changing the subject or excuses and justifications, or occupying my mind with trivial things - PRETENDING I'M NOT AWARE OF MYSELF HERE - rather than face my fears and dishonesty directly in the EXACT moment that I am aware of them.  I realize that if I do not face my fears in the moment I see them, I will time-loop in a cycle of dishonesty and so miss my opportunity to transcend my fear and compound harmful consequences upon myself and others.

I commit myself to showing myself what points I need to face and apply self forgiveness for in each moment of each breath, so that I may stop self deception and change myself to develop self-honesty, integrity, and dignity to stand for Life as Equality as what is best for all in all ways. 

I commit myself to summon all my courage as I develop self-trust in walking with the group that stands for Life, to remove petty fears that stand in the way of my ETERNAL life within and as the physical expression of Life.

I commit myself to allow/open myself to realize the unlimited potential of what is possible when a group stands in absolute agreement - with one common goal and one common purpose - and when that purpose is to support ALL LIFE, then NOTHING is impossible for that group.