Day 222 - Fear, Desire, and Consequence

I saw a video of a man playing guitar on the street.    The strangest things can at times show us something profound within ourselves – the key is that we must have placed ourselves in a position to be able to see it.  If we have allowed ourselves to be blinded to our true self (by emotions, feelings, and ideas such as - guilt, shame, judgment, blame, regret, and anger etc.) we will not see who we really are when opportunities present themselves here... we will not have profound realizations, and we will not grow to our fullest potential, because we are literally constricted, choked, and smothered out by the belief that these emotions, feelings, and ideas are “Who We Are”.


This 'Belief' then creates a Fear, the Fear that if we were to give up our feelings/emotions/ideas about ourselves, we would be completely miserable, and so just want to die!!  So because we fear losing our belief of “Who We Are” - We try to hide that realization from ourselves by creating, accepting, and allowing another Belief in/as the Justification that “We are Powerless to Change!... But really, it's a simple case of Fear, based solely on a past indoctrination, upbringing, and memories which are all formulated, biased, passed-down, second-hand opinions and therefore merely recycled false-assumptions.  


The fear then goes unchallenged, because this is apparently the 'Very Scary' and 'Untouchable' God of the mind, which is simply the system as knowledge and information.  This system wants you to remain enslaved to fear forever, because if you are enslaved to fear, you are enslaved to the system.


Out of these false assumptions and beliefs, we then develop a desire, which is actually an advanced state of fear, where we have so earnestly sought an escape from all the negative feelings of abuse, suppression, and self-denial, that we think an energetic high as a personal experience will make us feel better and everything will be OK again!?  Not So.  We actually amplify and create more fear (as desire) in order that we may give ourselves more excitement within the mind as energetic delusions and temporary highs – which only serve to create more consequence in waiting.


Nonetheless, we remain addicted to our energetic mind-games.  We nurture the desire to feel better about ourselves at the expense of others.  This despite the consequence, which we cannot grasp as the extreme limitation of the mind as consciousness.  We claim to not understand how it works... another clever justification to the extent that we actually create the idea that we can simply turn a blind eye to all the suffering in the world and believe that we are separate from it,... “So glad I will never have to face that situation/problem”.  “Its in a different area of the world, so I can just forget about it and pretend that it is not really happening”... “Everyone over there deserves it anyway”.  


That is the lie.  The reality is that we can change, and we all have the power to direct ourselves and change into what is Best for All.  Most simply prefer to use any given random excuse to justify why they do not wish to change.  For example, the other day I heard the following excuse when I suggested to someone that they could support Equality. “I/We can't”... “It's too big”.  Will that excuse fly when you die and face yourself?  You didn't want to be honest with yourself because... it's too big?  What would assist one more would be to say “I don't want to change because I don't want to give up my comforts and self-enjoyments”, that way perhaps would make it easier to see your own selfishness, and then perhaps assist yourself to change, to give as you would like to receive.

The only real joy is in Self Honesty.




Investigate the Desteni I Process

Day 195 - By Whose Authority?

I woke up this morning from last nights sleep, grabbed some breakfast and sat down at my computer.  It was right then that I had the thought "you're not free to do what you want - you have to push your resistances" which resulted in a negative energy experience/feeling, because I did not want to push the resistance or deal with it at the moment.  So In that moment I chose to watch some videos... when what I should have done is address the energetic experience I felt, but rather I chose to simply put the thought out of my head. What I was doing was giving in - sacrificing my self-responsibility as my directive principle of myself in the comforting hope/desire to avoid/escape the negative energy experience I felt.

What I realize looking back at the experience is that - because I have allowed such points of self-denial in the past - within an instant of this single thought, my mind had conjured and executed from my memory, a program based on my past experiences and beliefs of 'who I was' as (being subject to and therefore less than) knowledge of my past (in case any is unaware, knowledge in the form of energetically charged streams of information which is simply a limited and defined misinterpretation of myself and my existence from a separation standpoint in fear of self, believing it to be inherently evil - but we all know evil in the greater context is in polarity to good and therefore another false opinion based on separation, and therefore unacceptable - lol).

In that moment, I accepted and allowed that program to 'authenticate' itself through my permission, therefore through my authorization as my acceptance and allowance.  I subscribed and signed myself over to the belief that it is 'who I am' - as less than/subject to the knowledge and information.  So I subjected/diminished myself to the authority of that belief program as me having to struggle with this constant and nagging negative energetic experience of myself.  I believed myself to be too weak to stop the program - partly because my own energy was being resourced to run and execute the program - I created the idea that it (facing the energetic reaction) was a 'big deal' which it is not really - and I am fully capable of stopping and changing the program because I am the one who created it - I am the author, I wrote the book and therefore I can change the ending or re-write the entire book if I like lol.  

This comes back to my commitment.

Realizing that while in the physical I have the power to change in each moment.  Now that I recognize how it works and the consequence it creates for myself and others, I simply refuse to allow it to control me by addressing it when I see energetic movements within myself.  I make the connection to who I actually am as the directive principle of myself, not subject to anything, but standing Equal in taking responsibility for myself now, and in the future to create a world that is best for all.

With this point, I realized that I was trying to avoid the negative experience because I had defined pushing resistances as 'boring' and/or 'draining', when in fact NOT pushing resistances is the actual drain.  I can change the negatively charged definition of 'pushing resistances' I have created for myself and so redefine and realize pushing resistances as the 'live show' of me facing myself and creating myself as self-honest as Life... and learning to trust myself in the process.  Pushing resistances is literally creating heaven on earth as the accumulated outcome of moment by moment transcendence of each fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define pushing resistances within myself as work/slavery/drudgery/negative/boring/tiring as I realize that pushing resistances is me becoming Life for real, and that is the best and most awesome most rewarding experience as it is teaching myself to be absolutely honest with myself which is the best I can possibly be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my authority of myself as Life to a knowledge based program.

I commit myself to take back my authority as Life, in that there is zero tolerance and no program shall be permitted access to execute or run in place of my self-direction as what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to directly facing all energetic experiences first thing in the morning as they come up so that I can stop the program before it takes control and traps my mind into a belief of myself.

I commit myself to investigate all things which go on within myself so that all things may be tested to see which is good for myself and all and which is not - so that I may recognize myself and realize my ability to forgive myself and change myself in each moment to create myself as self-honest and Equal in all ways.

I commit myself to realize that I can absolutely do this without question - because I see/realize/understand how it works and how the addiction to energy destroys and where that leads us all.


It's interesting that the mind tends to value the present moment over the future - 'I want to feel better now' type of thing - thinking and believing I am giving 'sufficient' value to the future here, when actually I am giving it significantly less value within the mental perception that it is not here now, therefore not a guarantee, so I should live for the moment.  I have considered my future 'less important' because it is not within my direct experience here now. This is a problem because (as it exists now) the future is inevitable and as such a direct result of what and who we accept and allow ourselves to be in the present moment.  We sacrifice the future here rather than standing Equal to it - so that we may have that warm cozy feeling of hiding under the electric blanket.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sacrifice the future here for a more cozy present here now.  I realize that taking value from the future is diminishing my own value here now, and in the future here, because I am not standing in Equality with myself and taking responsibility for myself in all dimensions.

I commit myself to give myself Equal value for here now and for the future here and now that is inevitable.

Day 190 - Using the Mind as a Tool

Consciousness, or the mind, is what we have created through our separation and the 'little misunderstanding' of who we are. So consciousness is what must be used to correct ourselves... not in how we have traditionally used it - to wish for things in self-interest or make believe we are better than one another - but rather to change ourselves to support the realization of Equality, within and without.

Not long ago, I would say to myself that I would not touch the law of attraction with a ten foot pole. Within this, I was aware that I did not fully understand – within the context of my own process and systems - how the mind was controlling me, and so I was hesitant of using/abusing the mind too extensively through inconsideration and/or not doing it 'properly'. I assumed I would be creating a form of consequential hell for myself because I had not yet fully dealt with all of my priority issues. 

Even though I understood a great deal, it became apparent through my inability to direct every breath, that there was likely things which I did not fully understand yet, or perhaps only understood as knowledge and information. I chose to focus too heavily on stopping my mind, and so was not using my mind as a tool, as effectively as I could have been.

I was well aware of the fact that consciousness could be, and was being used by many people as a means of achieving money and success, and I defined that as irresponsible – which it is when used only in self-interest. Little did I recognize how I too was already using it – in allowing thoughts of limitation, thus diminishing myself. therefore I did not trust myself, and so projected this distrust onto the physical. I created a relationship to the words 'law of attraction' giving the phrase as negative energetic charge, and so within that I was partially blaming the mind as evil. Interestingly, I have noticed that the mind often makes out the physical to be the cause of dysfunction through backchat.

Meanwhile, I believed I was doing something 'good' because I was in the process of stopping my mind, and so created a polarized dissonance within myself through allowing a series of self-sabotaging beliefs and justifications, as the 'bad'. I felt guilty, and awful about myself because I knew I was not 'in control', I was still controlled by addictions, not realizing exactly how I was creating the cycles of self-abuse. This was compounded by the fact that I feared giving up my addictions.

Since then, I have grown more confident in my understanding of how the entire system works, I can trust myself more to use the mind as a tool in order to support myself to change and align myself to live the solution – as what is best for all. To give an example. It is necessary for me to get organized so that I can become more efficient and so expand myself. So when I see myself entertaining limited beliefs and thus straying into idleness of my mind, I can recognize the pattern and support myself to change it through changing the negative thought patterns into creative, self-directive, positive commitments and actions which have no negative polarity or connotation for myself or others.

The Informer

 Day 77

To say that I 'gossip' is informal, derogatory, and inappropriate.  As the Informer, it is my job to inform you, so that you are aware of my secret information I prudently pass to you, so that you may be informed of the knowledge and power I possess.  I offer it as my gift to you, so that you too may possess yourself with my power.

As Master Informer, I hereby grant you, the informant, the powers of spite and corruption, so that we, in con-tract agreement together, may manipulate knowledge and information for our combined benefit, in spite of the truth.  Herein we, by our own declaration of authority and authenticity, as the owners and rulers of this power of knowledge and information, may pass judgement over others, as we have stated our authority as Masters of knowledge and information here in writing.

As the Informer, I command that you, the Informant wield this power at will - which is my will... and please do not question my authority. If you do, I will inform others about you, and you will be punished, ostracized, and labeled shameful - as all fear my authority and power, and so they will hasten to do my bidding.  Without my knowledge and power, yours will become corrupt and void, because I will reiterate my authority over you in writing, and use it to control and harm you by force. 

As the Informer, I expect you to inform others so that they too may form ideas, and opinions, on the knowledge and information I provide to you. 

As the Informer, I promise to grant you more and more power, if you obey me, and seek more of me, and lead others to me, so that I, we, may subdue them also.  That is your reward.

As the Informer, I have the power to withhold information and knowledge from you when I feel it necessary, so that I may keep you in fear of not knowing, fearing the unknown, in fear of being UN-informed.  Without my knowledge and information, you will become powerless.

As the Informer, I promise to tell you of all that you need to know, so that you may become an in-tell-agent as me, and feel as powerful as a God... with the power to destroy life.

As the Informer, I command you to bow your ear to me and pay attention, I will be your Source of information.  If you obey my commands, I will speak sweetly about you, kind words to compliment you, so that you may know my knowledge, and Worship my information.  If you do not obey my knowledge, I will make you beg for more of my information, as my information is power, energy, and your Salvation.  If your begging pleases me, then perhaps I will grant you access to more and more of my secret information, as your personal ticket to information heaven.

As the Informer, I will tell you the informant, more of my secrets, even my top-secret, classified information, so that you may become an Informer as myself.  Know that you are very important to me, as I require something of you in exchange for me imparting billions of ones and zero's of my information into your being.

As the Informer, I will entertain and seduce you with all my emotional programs of Love and Hate, I will fill you with emotional memories of the past, yours free, to access at any time you wish.  I will be your dealer, and you my insatiable, slave-addict.

As the Informer, I hereby grant you new Titles, Designations, Definitions, Personalities, Value systems, Characters, and every Imaginable Justification you can conceive.  You will become like myself - free of all responsibility, untouchable, and eventually you will attain the power of invisibility.

As the Master Informer, I command that you must always be subject to me.  In agreeing to this, I will pro-miss to protect you, I pro-miss to free you from judgment, shame, and consequence.  Remember that it pleases me that you wallow in all my endless feelings and emotions.  Is it not your primary desire to be happy?  Surely it would please you to know that I hold the key to all your personal dreams and happiness. It is my desire that you be filled with my happiness and joy programs.  Care for me, and I will happily take all worry and caring from you, and I will make you wealthy.

Sign Here: ___________________


Please see my next post: Self Forgiveness on The Informer

The Con of The Education System - Day 59

Take math for an example.  Many people claim that math is difficult.  Why?  All math ever is - is 1+1=2.  It is never more complicated than that. Math, (and all education based on knowledge for that matter) is a system of letters, numbers, and symbols, when combined in different ways and placed together, gives us values - as knowledge and information.  It is simply a matter of following the STEPS and RULES of the system, and, given enough time, you will get the 'correct'/desired answer.

So all one has to do to be good at math, is to MEMORIZE the steps and rules.  It's interesting that our education system judges people on their ability to understand knowledge and information in a predetermined fashion.  Rather than allow people to express for themselves unconditionally, we are graded on how well we can MEMORIZE the steps and rules, and regurgitate what we are force-fed by the education system. 

Why is memory - and the use of memory, through repetition and emulation - then given such high value in the education system?  It is because memory, is used as a tool to force us into submission and enslavement.  The more memory you use, the more knowledge you store in your brain (and body), thus you are attributed more value in the eyes of the system.

Memory is not physical, but energy, based on the past, which keeps us repeating cycles of the past in a continual, infinite loop.  In keeping us enslaved to cycles of the past, we remain trapped in the illusion - believing that all the answers are found in our memories.  But memories are actually the DENIAL of what is here as ourselves as physical beings.  Memories are how we have separated ourselves as - ENERGY vs PHYSICAL.  The energy of memories, CONSUMES the physical, and is the manifestation of fear of facing the totality of ourselves here, in each new moment. Memory is used in direct contradiction to common sense in living what is best for all.

This is just one of the many ways the education system functions to subdue and control humanity.  Another contributing factor to the problem is lack of individual responsibility, as people seeing themselves as separate from their reality.

How are people fooled into thinking and believing they are separate from their world and reality?

The answer to that is, they are trained to think that way - first by their parents, followed by the education system.
 
People calculate in their minds what will grant themselves the most fulfillment in their life experience, based on the indoctrination of competition by parents within a child's early years. Rather than experiencing and expressing Life for themselves, children are conditioned/tought/programmed and punished, into an imposed IDEA of how life is supposed to be. 

Parents train children in their own fears and limitations of mind, in that, early on in a child's life, many things are strictly forbidden for children.  This inherently creates a strong desire within a child's mind to understand, and experience those things that were forbidden to them, because within this oppression by parents, the child inevitably feels EXCLUDED and 'less than' the parent.  There are also many other emotions and consequences of this parental oppression - such as anger, fear, resentment, rebellion, distrust etc.  All culminating in the child's enslavement to such emotions and ideas of who they are and what life is.

What is interesting is that, by the time a child enters into the education system, they are immediately judged and given VALUES, as grades, marks, or scores, which translate to further inequality, separation, suppression and consequential emotions.  A child then begins to value his/herself 'higher' or 'lower' than ones fellow classmates, and so, competition is fueled through the release of suppressed emotions, reactions, and desire for validation, which is all traced back to the parental oppression in the formative years.

We must then ask ourselves the following;


Question;
1.  Why does society give higher value to those who have higher education - When the starting point for these valuations is CLEARLY to based in competition (as fear), and limited ideas (as memories)?

Answer:
Because society - as the system - as all of the minds (egos) of humanity, seeks to replicate itself, through our collective negligence to take responsibility for life, we have all allowed a system of abuse.


Question;
2.  Why does the education system NOT consider ALL factors of life, but merely a small, limited fraction?

Answer;
The factors which are used are predetermined within the context of the preeminence of society, and therefore based on COMPETITION.  So the education system is not educating children how to live their lives and express themselves, but rather PROGRAMMING children how to function as organic robots within society - as a system.


Question;
3.  Why are students graded, and what are the factors for grading?

Answer;
Grades in the education system are based on three primary factors.

a. One's perceived ability to learn knowledge and information, and solve problems.

b. Ones DESIRE to acquire and assimilate knowledge and information 

c. The SPEED at which one is able to solve the problems.

I have explained how the use of stored knowledge and information is a tool of leverage, and therefore spitefully used to gain power over others as opposed to seeing eachother as physical equals.  One's desire can be attributed to competition.  It is fascinating how speed is a factor - which is also a typical component of competition. 



Question;
4.  What are the attributes of competition?

Answer;
a.  FEAR (energy based and non physical) - As fear of survival

b. GREED (energy based and non physical) - As lust for power and control.



Question;
How then are grades judged, and determined, and what are the factors involved in grading students?

Answer;
If a student is fearful of getting bad grades, this fear could likely cause one to work hard, (assuming they do not give up or drop out) then one may achieve good grades through the motivation of fear.  So we can see here from this example, that the education system can actually REWARD FEAR!  In doing so, it rewards the use of ENERGY to charge the illusion in spite of the physical being.

One may claim that a person is 'naturally talented' in a given subject.  Interestingly though, this argument falls on its face, as the education system does not investigate or consider the starting point of how a student became 'naturally good' or adept in a given subject. 

- Did he/she desire to be seen as better than others?  If so, then that is ego/mind/energy based, as seeing oneself as 'better than' the physical, and thus spiteful.

- Did he/she see the subject as an opportunity to get revenge on others, through leveraging education to get a high value/grade, and thus use this valuation to justify living a life of greed and self interest?  If so, then that is ego/mind/energy based, as seeing oneself as 'better than' the physical, and thus spiteful.

- Did the student simply want to help all of humanity?  If so, then what a great tragedy that this student is still subject to a system of control and bureaucracy, and therefore will not be able to use his/her 'talents' to their full capacity.



How can society and the education system pass out judgements as grades and valuations, without considering the STARTING POINT of why a person is, or is not, adept at a certain subject?  Why is it that society and the education system actually rewards SPITEFULNESS?  The system would defend itself by saying 'there is no way to know a persons intentions'.

That defense is unacceptable, and can only have one possible reason - the system itself, as all of humanity collectively - is irresponsible and spiteful.  That is why society and the education system rewards spite - because it is itself, spiteful by the illusion of free choice.  All choices have consequences that affect everyone.  Therefore Free choice does not support life, but supports SELF-INTEREST and abuse of Life!  Free choice supports FEAR as ENERGY and manipulation.  Free choice is not true freedom, but rather the opposite - complete ENSLAVEMENT to the system.

The only way to solve the oppression by society, the education system and the problems in our world is to stop free choice.  Each person must take self responsibility to support Equality of Life, so that all Life can be honored Equally, and each person can contribute to life in whatever way they are able.  If we do not value all Life as Equal, then we are deceiving ourselves, and there is no way we can stop the inevitable destruction of ourselves and our planet.  We need to all work together, to serve life in doing what is best for all! That is the only way... there is no other way.  Join Desteni, and take self-responsibility to change yourself, so that we can all stand together to change our world into a place worth living.