Showing posts with label astrology. Show all posts
Showing posts with label astrology. Show all posts

Wednesday, 21 November 2012

Day 112–Astrological Alignment


Astrology Aries

I have found astrology quite supportive in pointing out different aspects of my individual programmed design, although I have found that not every prescribed definition outlined is pronounced within my behaviour.  I have made myself aware of the inherent systems of my birth sign, in the attempt to transcend what ‘traits’ imposed a limitation on myself, and so attempt to use my traits or ‘talents’ to focus and align myself in ways that support me aligning myself with Equality, and living what is best for all. 

However due to the nature of the system as a whole, my personal systems, and various aspects of my current situation, I have for the most part, been unable to be substantially effective in positively focusing and aligning these traits to the best of my abilities.   

According to my astrological sign (Aries - program) I am predisposed to the following traits…

Adventurous and energetic
Pioneering and courageous
Enthusiastic and confident
Dynamic and quick-witted


On the dark side...

Selfish and quick-tempered

Impulsive and impatient

Foolhardy and daredevil


It’s interesting, the ‘dark side’ traits are obvious points that require work –  specifically selfishness, which I have been working on over the past little while. (Obviously selfishness does not support what is best for all.)
The positive traits, once aligned with equality, could effectively be used for the benefit of all.     
I realize that I must transcend (the limitations and definitions of) all of the astrological signs, however starting with my own sign seems like a good starting point.

During my brief research into Alchemy and Kabbalah, reading some books and so on, I recall some interesting perspectives with regards to the balancing and alignment of myself – to myself - from the mind system’s starting point of self-interest and energy of course, (becoming my own god in the imaginary land in my mind).

One book in particular outlined a series of imaginations where I would see myself within my own kingdom, with a central tower, where each level was a part of myself.

One portion of the imaginations I found particularly interesting was on the ground level of the tower, I would sit at a large round table with the selected members of my council. Each member was of a different astrological sign, so as to compliment me of course (haha) and so to grant me a balanced perspective in dealing with matters of interest or concern within my magical kingdom in my mind.

I see this (practical Astrology, no imagination required) as a good starting point in assisting myself through transcending all of the designated and limited characterizations outlined within the astrological chart, so that I can understand and realize different aspects of myself through changing myself, and in so approach challenges with the ultimate goal of transcending all limitation and fear of self, so that best for all can be realized within myself, here.

Taking responsibility for myself as all is the greatest relief.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as selfish, and in so shrivel up into the shell of my mind rather than change and expand myself in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow myself to be directed and controlled by anger, as the energetic response to frustration, as my mind not getting what it selfishly wants immediately.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to impulsive, in that I have allowed myself to be directed and controlled by external impulses, rather than be the starting point of myself, as directing myself and living in the best interest of all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to impatient.  I realize that patience essential to my process so that I can learn to slow myself down and not jump to conclusions based on ideas, frustration or anger in selfish desire to get more for me, because I fear for my own survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the foolhardy and daredevil characters in vain attempt for personal glory and or excitement, risking life and limb.  I realize that this type of behavior does not serve the interest of all, but is also selfish and thus foolish in nature. 


I commit myself to realize that aligning myself to Equality as what is best for all is the only way that I can transcend all of my selfish desires and so find true self-enjoyment and fulfillment with myself and my world.

Saturday, 30 June 2012

Day 63 - Big Bang Theory


Reflecting on conversation I had with a young christian man yesterday, he curiously wanted to know how the universe as existence came into being - How did it happen?  He was very persistent, and held onto the belief that he had to KNOW what 'IT' was that caused existence.  He claimed it had to be some intelligent life-form/being - as 'God' that created us - as the source of all life.   So in looking at the question from a christian perspective, we can see there is an obvious conundrum.  If God created us and the universe as it says in the bible, then he must have had a form of intelligence to do so - so who created God - and his (apparent) intelligence? The bible says that in the beginning was the word, and the word was God.  So for the purpose of explanation, we can simplify this to - 'in the beginning was sound, and sound was existence as a whole'.  So where did the sound come from?  What caused the sound? - Because all we know of and are apparently able to understand in our limited mind/ego based existence, is cause and effect.

Firstly, let's say we found 'the answer', something that could be put into a plausible explanation such as a strange cosmic burp of some sort.  The very searching for the answer to this question, while it is interesting to consider - does not actually serve to help the situation on our planet in any way besides helping people to understand - so that we can each individually change ourselves to support life.

If one is to claim that all of existence is a dream or 'not actually real' - consider the fact that we experience (preventable and unnecessary) pain, suffering and ultimately death as proof enough that there is a problem that must be solved here.  Fascinatingly, the solution is rather simple, yet at the same time so extensive as to make it appear difficult.  We just need to remove the false perception so that we may begin to understand, and learn to apply ourselves in walking out the solution.

So to find the first cause of existence/the universe/everything, lets put this question to a kind of allegorical test.  For example, lets say the first sound - sounded something like 'boom'.  So the first cause/intonation was 'b(uh)' as the sound of the letter b.  If I am sounding that for myself, I have to use the muscles in my face to form the expression, in which I flex my muscles within my body to then vibrate the sound.  So to create the sound 'b(uh)', I have to first 'will' the sound.  If one believes in some higher power/god is controlling me to resonate this sound, then that would fall within the belief that we are not existing, we are completely non-existent and/or completely controlled robots. 

Thus I contend that the actual cause of the sound - comes from self, in this case me - as my 'will' or desire to express the sound I created and expressed with my physical body.  So within the sounding of 'b(uh)', I realize that I AM the source of the sound, as self-will, as my desire to express myself within and as sound. 

Fascinatingly, I do not need a reason to form and express the sound - 'b(uh)'.  I can do it for NO REASON WHATSOEVER.  Alternatively, one might say - I can create the sound from NOTHING.  One might say that I made the sound because 'I am trying to find the cause of the universe'. No - I can simply create the sound for no reason, no purpose, but myself being here expressing sound.  Try it for yourself if you still don't believe me.

Interestingly, it is only when we create a sound for a REASON that we are acting within a controlled system, and thereby locked within the confines and definition of that reason, as the sound that is created is based on the reason, and not unconditional self-expression.  For example, lets say I am hungry and want something to eat, yet I do not have any food.  So I ask for some food from someone that has food.  I create the sounds "May I have some food?"  My reason or cause for expressing is that I am hungry.  So my expression is not unconditional, rather it is limited to the consequence of the cause, and so becomes the directly related effect, tied to the cause/necessity and desire for something I want and do not have.  Therefore I must convey the message accurately, so that the other person will understand me, and I can acquire the food, otherwise I will go hungry.  Hence my expression is conditional and limited to my ability to articulate my desire. 

So getting back to the point, in concluding that 'nothing' is the starting point of my sound creation, we must then go on to ask ourselves, but what is the cause of nothing?  The answer to that would be - there does not need to be a cause of 'nothing', as 'nothing' simply IS...  It is source as self, which defies definition, abstract of the limitation we currently find ourselves in.   It is a starting point, thus all attempts to define it through knowledge are useless.   Our very existence as being here experiencing ourselves is adequate proof that 'it' or 'nothingness' exists.

The real problem is that we do not understand ourselves and our existence, and WHY such atrocities exist in our world and reality.  Through our lack of understanding source(nothingness) - as self - as us here, we have separated ourselves from source through false ideas and perceptions created about our reality and thus we exist within a delusional fear-ridden reality... culminating in a disgraceful existence on a one way track to our ultimate doom.  This is essential to be understood so that we can stop abuse of life and implement a solution that would correct our starting point, as it is not aligned with what is best for all - which in itself is the ONLY way in which life can be free of limitation and the evident abuse of life.

The concept is not difficult to grasp, it is only when a person is trapped within the limitation of mind/ego that they will have a problem, because likely one is either hoping for heaven, or fearing hell. Whether it be a religious belief, or merely the religion of self - as self-interest, either way it is blatant denial for which there is no excuse, because no one can deny the physical, as we are all here, supposedly sharing it, yet it is not being shared Equally as it should be.

For a person that believes in a 'higher power' or 'god' as an intelligent being that is separate from self as source,  one must carefully consider, and beware of the limitations imposed by belief systems such as this - as they are extensive and delude one into self-deception - because one does not see the actual starting point of their self-created belief system - which is fear.  This delusional fear blinds one to the common sense and practical solutions of what is here.  If fear(delusion) is the starting point, then that fear is accepted and allowed through self-dishonesty, and carries with it inevitable consequence equal and one to the starting point of fear - that is to say - fear creates fearful consequence, not only for oneself, but for all.

That is why we at Desteni are diligently applying self-forgiveness and corrective application so that we can remove the fear that we have allowed within ourselves, so we can change ourselves to align with source - as what is best for all - as best for all supports life, AND source, as unconditional expression.  I challenge everyone to investigate Desteni and to take the Desteni-I-Process course - if you have the courage to take self-responsibility, the fears and delusional belief systems we have all allowed to exist.