Dicitionary Definition
dis·ci·pline
n.
1. Training expected to
produce a specific character or pattern of behavior, especially
training that produces moral or mental improvement.
2. Controlled behavior
resulting from disciplinary training; self-control.
3.
a. Control obtained by
enforcing compliance or order.
b. A systematic method
to obtain obedience: a military discipline.
c. A state of order
based on submission to rules and authority: a teacher who demanded
discipline in the classroom.
4. Punishment intended
to correct or train.
5. A set of rules or
methods, as those regulating the practice of a church or monastic
order.
6. A branch of
knowledge or teaching.
Redefinition
I have defined the word
discipline as within the context of 'being disciplined' or 'punished'
by a parent or teacher, and so attaching a negative energetic
response within myself – relating the word to past belittling and
humiliating experiences of 'being disciplined' by parents and
teachers – as well as the extreme definition of the word in the
context of the militaristic system of subservience and/or submission.
Other interpretations/definitions/relations to the word are;
- Loss of self-control
- loss of personal freedom
- submitting myself to a hierarchy or system of control
Another context of the
word I have defined is 'disciple' or 'follower', where I have a
negative energetic reaction/response triggering the rebellious system
within myself. I realize that rebellion actually an act of
self-sabotage.
Therefore it is
necessary to redefine Self-discipline within myself, so that no
energetic response occurs, but rather 'making the connection' within
myself in the realization that Self-discipline is a matter of moving
and directing myself so that I can manage and prevent
undesirable/unpleasant consequences from occurring now and in the
future, and so inevitably resulting in sequences of events that are
best for myself as what is best for all.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to neglect moving and directing
myself due to the interpretation of my mind as defining discipline
within the context of a negative energetic memory/past experience of
myself.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to define self-discipline within the
context of memories of being bullied, humiliated, belittled and
punished by parents, coaches, law-enforcement, judges, bosses, friends, enemies, and teachers.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to define self-discipline within the
context of being a follower, and therefore believing that I am
subjecting myself to a process of enslavement and loss of control,
when in actuality learning to direct myself is the means by which I
regain authority of and for myself so that I may direct myself in
changing myself and living what is best for all.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to believe and associate discipline within the negative energetic polarity as
torture, slavery, submission, boring, humiliating, belittling or
unpleasant.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to deny self-discipline in the
belief that I can allow consequences to play out so that I can gain
momentum from the accumulated anger/pain/frustration/resentment as me
desiring to be moved by energetic reactions as opposed to me moving
myself in realization of how the system functions within myself.
I forgive myself that I
have not accepted and allowed myself to see the rewards of
self-discipline and self-control as being giving myself back to
myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that self-discipline as subjecting myself to a set of mindless rules and/or self-righteous moral and/or cultural beliefs.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that self-discipline was only a means of achieving an elevated egotistical belief of seeing oneself as 'better than others', and so neglecting to discipline or 'assist' myself in fear and distrust of myself and ultimately rebellion to this self created belief. I realize self-discipline is a tool to assist and support myself to pro-actively face my problems and so prevent consequences, and create myself as self-responsible, as Life, as Equality.
Cool share - Thanks Will
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