Day 45 - Imagine Yourself as God

Just in case you think God might strike you down with lightning if you think of yourself as God, don't worry.  I have already thought of this, and survived.  Just remember that when you 'think it', just casually move a few feet to the left or right, God couldn't hit a barn door.

Seriously...

What would you think of yourself to have created such a world full of greed?

Would you even CARE about your creation?  

Being all powerful, what would you do with your time? 

What would your laws/commandments be, and how would you enforce them?

What would your plan be and HOW would you execute it? 

Would you permit liars and rapists and abusers of life to do as they please?  

Or, would it be INSTANT KARMA for everyone - One act of rape and go directly to hell?

Does it not sound rather ridiculous, that an all powerful God would sit back and do NOTHING, while tremendous amounts of abuse happen in our world?  How could anyone call themselves GOD and let such a horrifying, disgusting, and disgraceful existence EXIST?  If God has the power to stop it, and does not - is he/she then not Equally responsible as the PERPETRATOR?  What possible excuse would there be to permit such atrocities and disregard for life?  There is NO excuse!

Some would say it is to teach us, however that does not hold water, the only lesson here is dishonesty and suffering!  And seriously, all a person needs is 5 minutes of extreme agony, and one understands quite well the full nature of suffering - it is awful - THAT'S IT! There is no need for a lifetime of pain to understand that it hurts! Absolutely unnecessary!


Surely as God, you could directly experience the agony of all the suffering in this world, thus SURELY, any CARING God would WANT to change it.

Would you only care about yourself and your Godly family?  Rather selfish and inconsiderate for God isn't it? ?

Would you have a plan to bring about total destruction of the planet so everyone could see how great you are?  Isn't that like the biggest EGO TRIP ever?!!?  So is God an egotistical, bullying, big shot then? 

When we imagine ourselves as God, it can help to give us perspective on what the hell is going on in our world - and realize that the idea of God isn't so great after all.  Who would want to be a slave for eternity anyhow?

The reality is, you ARE God, yet you have separated and diminished yourself through spite and lust for power - to the extent that you are now virtually powerless - because we feared who we are as God.  In our desire for power, and thus the fear of powerlessness, we have created false power - as MONEY.  This false power seeks to protect us from taking responsibility for facing the absolute DISGRACE we have created in this world.  We are ALL the vengeful, cruel, abusive, lying and merciless PERPETRATOR GODS living out our own spiteful and barbaric creation.  All because we cannot see how we have done it to ourselves, and that there is a SIMPLE SOLUTION to stop all this cruelty and deceit.

The solution is simply Equality and an Equal Money System that supports everyone.  Living self-honestly, in taking responsibility for life and standing within the principle of what is best for all.  Even a child can understand that!

To fully understand what we have done, we have to walk a process of becoming honest with ourselves and applying self-forgiveness.  This is offered through the Desteni-I-Process course.  It is the only course of such nature where we can learn what it really means to live as Equals in our world.  Equality is the magnificent solution to every problem we have ever faced, to end all abuse of life.  Consider looking into it for yourself... you will be amazed and astounded, to say the least.

Day 44 - Walking Unaware

I reacted to a situation today while working.  I had bought a cable that turned out to be too short so I was not able to complete the task and in realizing this, my programmed mind kicked in and directed me to say "Jesus Christ" in frustration.  I realize that by me allowing this simple point of frustration within me, I compromised myself in the mind-fear projection that I would have to go back to the store 1/2 an hour drive and get a new cable.  The customer was also standing beside me when I said this.

Later on that day, she found a suitable chain that would enable me to do the job without needing another cable.  Additionally, I did not even have time to get the job done, as I was busy working on other projects on the site.  This goes to show how my projection was not based in reality at all, but rash, unnecessary, and completely false based on my fear of having to spend the time and money to get a new cable.   This fear also came from past experiences where I have lost time and money due to situations where unanticipated circumstances arose - as they always do to test our self-honesty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react in frustration to a situation based on my past experiences where I have lost money in the past.  I realize that this fear of 'not making money' is based on my programmed personality system which I am responsible to stop and change as changing myself to no longer accept and allow myself to be directed and controlled by fear and/or frustration of any kind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be subject to frustration by not being aware of myself - as breath - in each moment.  As if I had fallen asleep - sleep walking, I allowed a system of frustration to infiltrate my physical body and mind-control me into doing something that I did not wish to do.  I realize that frustration is a form of demonic possession that is my responsibility to stop and not allow such situations to have an opportunity to occur in the first place.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compromise myself and others through not immediately recognizing and taking responsibility to correct my actions through speaking self-forgiveness as a self-correction in the moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try and hide from myself the fact that I had allowed myself to be controlled by a programmed energy frustration system.  When and as I see such situations occur within my walking process, I stop myself and recognize the pattern playing out in myself and correct myself so that I do not incur further consequence for myself and others through dishonesty as hiding.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see realize and understand that what I allow within me as thought projections has consequences - regardless of my situation - I am responsible to stop any and all system mind manifestations from taking control and directing me and my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be unprepared in a moment to face myself in self-honesty where I allowed myself to 'sleep walk' and so fall prey to a system energy demon of frustration so that I could see what I was allowing within myself.

I commit myself to stand aware at all times and be prepared to face myself in self-honesty so that I am ready to immediately place the correction when i recognize any movement within myself that is not self-directed.

I commit myself to catch myself at times when I am not in my breath and not directing myself moment to moment.

I commit myself to slow myself down whenever I see that I am susceptible to situations where I am not aware of myself as directing every action and outflow as to take responsibility for everything I do in absolute self-honesty

I commit myself to realize the absolute necessity of directing myself in every moment so that I do not miss myself and thus miss my opportunity to transcend and change the bullshit programming of what I have created myself as in this world.

Day 43 - Fear of Death

I recall a few experiences when I was younger where fear had become almost unbearable to me.  Some would look at you as 'weak' if you expose the point that you are afraid of something, however in actuality, confronting and/or expressing fears requires self-honesty and courage - as opposed to hiding them and pretending that they don't exist - which only prolongs the inevitable and creates further consequence for oneself. 

Here I will share some of the fears I had, they may sound strange, but they were real points I had to face.  It was very difficult to deal with fears when I did not understand the cause, nor did I understand how I was feeding and creating them or how to stop them - because I did not understand myself.

Once we understand how the mind works and that we are responsible for what we create, we can begin deconstructing our fears - which are based in our mind reality of thoughts, perceptions, and desires.  Once we find the cause through understanding how we have created ourselves in our reality, we can then get to the source, and so stop the effect, because we ultimately find that it is not real, and not who we are.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that 'I AM EVIL' because of pictures flashing in my mind of all kinds of torture, suffering, and abuse.  I realize that the reality we exist in is collectively evil because we have all accepted and allowed this, however that does not mean that I am inherently evil as the source of who I am.  I realize that I can take responsibility to change myself here through self-forgiveness and self-honesty, to no longer accepting and allowing myself to be influenced by pictures in my mind.  I take responsibility to direct myself here in what is best for all, therefore I am not evil, but I commit myself to stand to support all life as Equal to and as the physical, until all of this evil reality is changed to an expression of LIFE that actually CARES.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear going insane if I stop my mind.  I realize that this fear exists solely to keep me ENSLAVED to the mind system of consciousness, which conveniently allowed me to remain irresponsible to myself and/as all in stopping my mind - as the delusion mental reality I was living in my own self-interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear myself in the fear that I was going to suddenly DIE for no reason.  I realize this fear was a reflection of the entire world system we exist in and as, where fears were channeled throughout the subconscious/unconscious mind. I realize that I was aware of these fears and did not know how to deal with them at the time, so now that I understand that these fears are NOT ME - and that my responsibility is to stop these fears from controlling me, I am able to do so here and so I am able to do something to actually support all life as what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that I had NOTHING TO OFFER life because I thought I was evil.  I realize that through not understanding myself as who I was, and the fact that I had very little money in a world run by money - the obvious conclusion is that I will not see any value in myself, and so end up with all kinds of fears, ANGER and AGGRESSION toward my world and reality.  I now realize how an abusive society that professes a FALSE morality and is ruled by FEAR and GREED actually abuses life, and the physical reality.  This motivates me to stop the abusive money system and support an Equal Money System so that all may be supported to stop fear, greed, and the abuse of Life.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear myself being unable to grasp my reality and that I would suddenly lose control of myself at any moment.   I realize that this fear existed within me because of me fearing myself as - the unknown.  I understood that I was harming myself through alcohol and drugs, yet I seemed unable to stop myself because I could not see a reason, because I hated the world so much (which was a reflection of me hating myself).  In seeing this point, I realize that a world that promotes false love, class separation, exclusivity and consumerism is doomed through its own deceptive devices.  Therefore I take responsibility for myself and my world to support Equality until it is established so that we can end all forms of self-abuse and harm.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the vastness of existence and the universe as me being unable to grasp the fact that I seemed so small, insignificant, and powerless.  In this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear 'falling into the sky' - to the extent that I had to look down at the ground for months because of this fear.  I realize that this fear was of me not trusting myself, NOT KNOWING MYSELF and fearing death - because I did not understand myself and why I lived in a world of such blatant IGNORANCE and INCONSIDERATION for others.  I realize that these fears were existent because I did not take responsibility to understand myself in absolute self-honesty.  If I had lived self-honesty, I would have seen through these fears as not being real as me.  Therefore I commit myself to live self-honesty as breath so that I can no longer be subject to and controlled by fears.  I direct me - and I stand for what is best for all.

Day 42 - The Cold, Hard Truth

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to hide from the illusion of this world through creating personalities and false ideas that 'I am in love' or 'I love someone' or 'someone is special to me'.  I realize that in doing this, I am further separating myself into and as energetic identities which feed off my physical body ultimately resulting in diminishment and death.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to follow the crowd without investigating for myself what is really going on in my world and reality.  I realize that in not taking the time to research for myself, I am placing my trust in others so I can live my life in self-interest within the assumption that I will have someone to blame in the end.  I realize that the belief that I can blame someone for my own self-dishonesty is actually self-sabotage to which there is no escaping myself as I know exactly what I have been doing all along.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deliberately deny the abuse and suffering going on in my world in the belief that 'as long as I can have fun and do what I want' - purely living for myself, not caring or considering the fate of all as me.  I realize that this denial of myself can only lead to my disillusionment and my complete non-existence, because I proved that I was unworthy of life through my living experience through denial and did not take heed to forgive and change myself when the opportunity was here as me.  I realize there is no excuse that will save me from the truth of who I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that I will have a chance to change someday in the future, not realizing that my life could end at any moment, and I would have to face the truth of myself as a deceiver, as someone who denied myself and the true nature of my existence, because I allowed myself to fall into the trap I set for myself as the belief I had free choice to do whatever I wanted - based on my false personality which I believed to be me, when it is not me at all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear standing up and making a visible statement of who I am as Equal and in so work with self-honesty and self-forgiveness to change myself to a physical being that supports all life Equally.  I realize that fear of standing up and being visible is me being a slave to fear, thus not being real with myself and therefore I cannot be life if I cannot even be real with myself by standing up and living the truth of who I am - through participating with the group that supports Life and the principle of what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear what others will think of me if I say something that is contrary to my personality system or the system in general.  In that, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by fear instead of facing the fear - how can I be life if I am controlled by fear?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to be worshiped and honored by others as being seen as special, so I can charge up the belief in my mind that I am a good person and deserve to be treated as special and 'better than' others.  I realize that me desiring to be seen/treated as special or good or loving or caring is self-deception, and in this desire I am creating an alternate personality of myself rather than honestly expressing myself as a physical being that is no more or less important than anyone/anything in the physical reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in conversations in my head where I think less of others and more of myself so I can 'win' in my mind and thus feel better about myself through energy.  I realize that this secret mind I am expressing is mining my body of energy through/into/as my mind which I give power to through the spitefulness.  I realize that I believe that I am powerless to change because I am addicted to the 'feel good' high of energy as thoughts and emotions, and I believe I don't have the guts to face myself as who I really am - which is a deceptive, programmed belief to keep me enslaved to the mind as energy.

I commit myself to STAND UP within myself and become a living statement of Equality and what is best for all through having the courage to face my fears which are merely the tools of enslavement.

I commit myself to OPEN MY EYES in no longer following the crowd, but develop my own self-honesty through self-intimacy as into-me-I-see and have insight as to how I have allowed myself to deceive myself in the past so that I can stop all participation in that which perpetuates abuse in my world and reality.

I commit myself to WILL MYSELF to face my fears and change through the Desteni-I-Process of self-change where I will learn what it really is to face myself in self-honesty rather than continuing to live the lie of my self-created personality in fear of survival and death.

I commit myself to CATCH myself when I find that I am having spiteful backchat conversations within my mind that I am deliberately using to make myself feel better in fear that if I stop my mind, I will not exist, so I commit myself to face myself in self-honesty in every moment of every breath so I can be here with myself, and stop searching for myself in delusions of love and friendship.

I commit myself to Self-love, where I stand as an Equal in my world, no longer seeking to vaunt myself into a blissful mind-state for the sake of temporary comfort, but support myself in common sense in what is necessary to be done, and changing myself into a living example so I can assist others and so assist all life in self-realization. 

7yr Journey to Life Day 41 - Aligning the Compass

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as definitions of being less than, whereby I limit myself and punish myself in not embracing and accepting myself here, where I can change myself in each moment.  I realize I have allowed this because I have held onto the belief (of being less than the physical as me) and that I was subject/slave to systems of my mind that I have accepted and allowed in my life through self-imposed fear of myself. 

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to realize that by me embracing myself here and realizing that I am fully capable and responsible to change myself to direct myself in each moment, I am making the only logical decision to stop myself from being enslaved to a spiteful program which professes the absurdity that abuse and suffering is 'just the way it is', and such is life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget how utterly detestable this existence actually is, and in so realizing I can use this knowledge to push myself, change myself and realize myself as Equal, and stand as a physical being not influenced by the mind of the make believe world of consciousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to pity myself or my world as I realize that each must take responsibility for self, and that I cannot help myself or anyone through pity, as this only stems from false perceptions and ideas of the mind as the desire to be a savior and/or to fuel a belief that I am in some way good in the polarity game of good/evil.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the future.  I realize that my responsibility lies here in each moment as breath, and therefore future consequences only play out as a result of me not taking responsibility here in each moment.  I realize I am limited in my ability to change already existent consequences in my world, yet that does not excuse me from taking responsibility to do what I am able here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to procrastinate on getting things done because I fear making decisions.  I realize that if I take too long in making decisions then I am making the decision to 'not make a decision' and therefore sabotaging myself through stagnation as not moving myself effectively.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to have more responsibility that what is here as what I have created for myself.  I realize that for me to have more responsibility, I must first take responsibility for what is here as me, and so become responsible to myself in my agreement with myself to become absolutely Equal in every way within and as myself in this life.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to realize that in order to get things done that are priorities in my life, it is necessary to sacrifice that which is not necessary, and in so I must prioritize myself and discipline myself to not accept and allow myself to fall victim to consequence of lack of responsibility to prioritize things in my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear taking risks.  I realize that everything I do entails some risk, therefore I must carefully calculate the risks I take so that all outflows are considered and in so I can make responsible decisions that are common sense and best for all.

I commit myself to embracing myself within developing self-trust as myself - this I can do through taking responsibility for myself in each moment as doing what is necessary to be done, therefore proving and establishing self-trust here as myself where self-judgement is no longer necessary, as I stand Equal to all as myself.

I commit myself share my realizations with others unconditionally - to those that will hear. Those that do not hear, I will not waste my words. 

I commit myself to stand Equal to each moment and situation that arises within my experience of myself here, and in so take responsibility through accountability and accumulation within the Equality equation 1+1=2...

I commit myself establish myself as self-trust and self-responsibility and self-honesty through walking each layer of myself back to the starting point of how it was created and thereby deconstructing the illusions and beliefs I allowed through my participation in fear and self-sabotage.

Day 40 - Context and Definitions of Love

Love is destructive because it is deliberately taken out of context so people can use and abuse life in the name of Love.

Contexts of Love

1. Epithumia
- a strong desire of many sorts.
- Many times it is associated with lust or to covet
- desire to have or to own.
- controlling


This form of love is self-sabotage because;
- It exists as selfishness within fear of loss
- It is based in jealousy - as the fear of seeing oneself as 'less than'
- has the expression of "I dont care about what others want, I want this for myself, even at the expense of others"


2. Eros
- associated with romance,
- head-over-heals feeling
- feeling you've found your Soul mate
- Your world and mind circles about your loved one and they are always on your mind.


This form of love is self-sabotage because;
- Belief based on programmed idea of "love"
- It is the fear of being alone which energizes the feeling of Eros


3. Agape
- expect nothing in return
- self sacrifice but is not unconditional
- by choice
- You can elect to love your spouse this way because it is what is best for your family and marriage.

This form of love is self-sabotage because;
- Self suppression, often based on fear of survival, fear of loneliness, or fear of facing yourself
- Rather than standing Equal to our world and reality,


4. Phileo:
- This love cherishes and has tender affection for the beloved but it expects a response.
- a love of relationship, comradeship, sharing, communication and friendship.
- a close companionship that is all trusting

- Relationship love - Based in Self-interest within the starting point of selfishness because it is not based in the starting point of standing for life as what is best for all.
- Often abused through creating personalities and imposing them on children.


5. Storge:
- Storge love is often described as a comfortable old shoe relationship comprised of natural affection and a sense of belonging to each other.
-  represents a safe haven for couples as it is a place of acceptance, mutual respect and shelter.

 This form of love is self-sabotage because;
- Fear of not belonging, not being accepted
- often comes from childhood experiences where we feared being left out
- Desire for safety - as the desire for validation and justification as to why we are not being honest with ourselves. 
- Self-compromise


All of these forms of love exist within fear and limitation by not understanding ourselves, believing ourselves to be separate from our world and reality.   Any love that is based on fear is self-deception and therefore not standing equal to life.


The only love that is real in fact, is that which is absolutely unconditional, and not limited to personal ideas or beliefs.  Living or having an agreement within the starting point of supporting all life Equally, as the principle of what is best for all is the only real, self-honest starting point for having an agreement or relationship.  Love has not helped our world in any way, in fact, our world is is a virtual hell for many, because of dishonesty and the belief in Love.


If we stop love and decided to live as Equals and support life, we could have heaven on Earth.


Help us by supporting and Equal Money system.


See my video on Love here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAVFvuZmkEE&feature=youtu.be

7yr Journey to Life - Day 39 - Savior Syndrome

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the Savior in my life where I have attempted to save people, plants, animals and physical objects from the starting point of trying to be a good person.  I realize that this is not being honest with myself because I am attempting to play a hero in my mind when the real issue of what is necessary to be done is neglected, rendering me in-effective in the grand scale.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and save things in my life from the starting point of 'fear of death/fear of loss.  I realize that in this I am attempting to escape the consequences I have created for myself by playing the 'good person' role, in the hopes that someone will notice and promote me to a position of power.  I realize this is self-sabotage and irresponsibility to myself because I am not directing myself in the best and most effective way that I am able, and so I end up placing my trust outside of myself which is self-deception.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and save myself through saving up money as my savings account.  I realize what I am doing is hoarding and robbing myself in fear of the inevitability of facing the consequences of what I have accepted and allowed to exist within and as my world and reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to save myself from facing conflict within my world and reality, attempting to avoid responsibility in fear of creating negative consequences for myself.  .  In this I realize that I am creating further consequence through allowing myself to be directed and controlled by fear instead of me directing myself here in what is necessary to be done from the starting point of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I am doing good by giving to charities and organizations that promote good, when in fact those organizations only perpetuate and  prolong cycles of enslavement through the polarizing of good and bad people, ideas and beliefs which do not serve life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to drive myself to the brink of annihilation through trying to save myself through deliberate self-deception of what I was doing all along - as promoting my own good feelings and self-interest above what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take advantage of myself - thereby sabotaging myself - through doing good deeds from the starting point of leveraging my reputation for fame, personal glorification and monetary rewards.

I commit myself to expose all Savior syndrome constructs within myself and others so that all may be aligned in the best interest of all and not individuals.

I commit myself to change myself to be the directive principle of my life as opposed to allowing myself to be directed and controlled by fears

I commit myself to use myself and what is here in the best and most effective way possible that would serve the interest of stopping abuse in my world and so change my world to align with the principle of that which is best for all.

I commit myself to expose all 'good deeds' such as charitable organizations for what they really are - as irresponsible and greed driven in that they only perpetuate abuse through dishonest practices and derailing self-responsibility and self-accountability.