Day 225 - What if?

What if you are god, but you got amnesia and forgot who you were?

What if you became lost in your own creation with no way out?

What if you realized that you were somehow abducted as a child, and a virus/program was inserted into you, and your memory was wiped of the experience... this so that you would never question the system you exist within, even if it is obvious that billions suffer in your world?  

What if you were brainwashed into believing a system of ideas, even the very idea that you were never brainwashed... And if anyone ever suggested you were brainwashed, your brainwashing would kick-in to defend your belief that you are not, and never were, brainwashed?

What if your whole reality was constructed to validate your ideas so as to try and get you to fall for the biggest and most obvious lie - because apparently everyone else believes it... would you know the difference?

What if your creation turned out to be a giant Chinese finger trap that you couldn't solve... and the more you tried to escape, the more it squeezed you, and the more fearful you became, until you surrendered to fear once again?

What if somewhere along the line you gave in to fear altogether, and decided never to question the system, but to just be content with your enslavement trap?

What if you became part of a dangerous cult and you didn't even know it?

What if you realized that every group, company, or organization within a corrupt economic system suits the description of a cult, and that the word cult only exists in your mind as a definition based in knowledge and information connected to an image of fear - as another way to keep you enslaved...?

What if you died and crossed over to the other side, only to realize you wasted your life on self-interest, and denied the opportunity to forgive yourself and change when you had the chance.?

Join the Journey to Life and find the undeniable answer for yourself.

Williams 7yr Journey to Life - Day 62

So much to write about.  I woke up feeling shitty and allowed that 'mood' to dictate my morning, through hiding from myself in a computer game of chess.  I was within limitation of the mind, blinding myself to the potential to move myself, and so not allowing myself to do anything constructive.  I was stuck in decision again... not sure what to do.  Trying to get myself out of my mindfuck by using my mind, comparing myself in my mind to the less fortunate.  So I try to be grateful, yet still fear of money exists.  The fear of god as money.  There is also the fear of being enslaved to responsibility, of having to work and slave for money, only to end up in a fuckup where I wont be seen as worthy of the money I worked for, and so become broke.  So I try to put shit out of my mind, fearing a mountain of consequences, which only makes matters worse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be subject to morning moods which are passed from the past of the last day.  Even thought that is what I just blogged about the day before, I realize - and commit myself - that I must discipline myself first thing in the morning to clear myself, as when I awaken in the morning, I am more susceptible to autopilot syndrome and thus allowing myself to feel down on myself and my situation. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear money and spending money - as fear of taking the risk.  I realize that everything in this matrix is a risk, whether I make a decision or refrain, I am risking myself as expressing myself within and as risk. I realize that I must write out what risks I plan to take so that I can check the starting point.  If the starting point is clear on paper as me moving myself to support myself, as well as all other factors being clear, I must move myself to make a decision and stay with it until it is time for change.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself to the less fortunate and thus use that comparison as a starting point for encouraging and moving myself.  This is a mindfuck because through this comparison, I end up feeling shitty about myself and my world.  I go into a limited perception of myself such as "everything is so fucked up, nothing I do will have any effect".  So then I just want to neglect myself.

Within that, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to neglect myself because I do not see any potential outcome.  I realize that regardless of the fact of me being able to see my impact, I must walk the process of disciplining and directing myself here in the physical, and in so doing change myself to not be directed and controlled by energy.

By the time I was able to move myself, I went and did a job, which came together well.  I noticed some fear of expressing myself here as me when talking to the customer.  I tried to curb the conversation and eventually got to mention the abusive money system, gently pushing some points and took self-direction in the conversation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not direct myself within conversation from the start.  I realize that I created the outflow through me allowing the conversation to go in the direction it was going - because I did not direct it immediately within breath, and so I had to curb the conversation to regain my directive principle.

I was able to tell both of the customers about equal money which was cool.

I then decided to go downtown as it was a warm evening.  Being around many people there, there were many observations to take note of, which I will share in the next blog.  It is interesting to note how my day did not go anything like what I expected it to be when I woke up in the morning, it ended up being quite interesting.  

7yr Journey to Life - Day 53 - Enjoy the Challenge

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get caught up in a rush while working because I fear not making money fast enough.  When and as I notice myself rushing and pushing myself to hard, I stop and breathe for a moment to slow myself down so that I am not allowing my mind to dictate the pace.  I realize that I must direct myself in each moment and no longer accept and allow myself to be controlled by fear of not having money.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that consistency is the most effective and practical method to direct myself so that I can be effective in my work and direct myself in and as the physical.  If I am rushing, I must stop myself and check whether my starting point is fear or me directing myself.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that all situations I find myself in are self-created, and so I must walk out the consequences.  Within that I realize that I must stop myself from creating consequences by directing myself in and as breath in every moment, not reacting to situations but directing them as myself in what is best for all and common sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate within my programmed personality based on my parents personalities and how they dealt with issues such as frustration and anxiety.  I no longer accept and allow myself to grasp onto a personality, but rather I face myself here in the challenge to change myself and direct myself in each moment, so that I can align myself with the physical as what is best for all. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear directing myself in each moment, as if I would fear facing myself as how I have created myself.  I realize that in taking responsibility for myself here, I must walk the consequences of what I have created, so that I can challenge myself to change myself in undoing what I have done and created as myself as this world.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that facing resistances and challenging my personality/ego/mind is the way to freeing myself from self-created consequence, and therefore I enjoy that challenge and I enjoy taking responsibility for myself rather than exist as a slave robot to a system of abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to put on a nice face, smile or laugh to make someone else feel more comfortable.  I realize that this is self-compromise and I am sick of compromising myself as a program of trying to please others in fear of expressing myself self-honestly.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react in any way to people within conversation.  I realize that reacting is of the mind, therefore I direct myself to directly speak words as myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear self-correction in the presence of another person.  I realize that taking responsibility to correct myself in front of others is not only assisting myself but assisting others as well.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to face myself within self-correction immediately, so as to catch myself instantly, and walk the necessary steps to actual change from the starting point of me being honest with myself.

I challenge myself to change myself within the presence of others, within slowing down and applying the necessary steps to correct and change myself so I am speaking words as me, not in reaction, but directly speaking based on what is here as me.

I challenge myself to enjoy the challenge of pushing my resistances to change myself, and to see it as an opportunity in each moment to realize myself and to stand up for myself as what is best for all.

I challenge myself to share who I am unconditionally with those who are able to hear

I challenge myself explore new ways of expressing myself, to redefine expression as no longer within the fear of embarrassment, rather cutting through all the judgement bullshit and getting to the critical point of exposing the lies and deception in our world that has been promoted by a system of dishonesty.

Day 40 - Context and Definitions of Love

Love is destructive because it is deliberately taken out of context so people can use and abuse life in the name of Love.

Contexts of Love

1. Epithumia
- a strong desire of many sorts.
- Many times it is associated with lust or to covet
- desire to have or to own.
- controlling


This form of love is self-sabotage because;
- It exists as selfishness within fear of loss
- It is based in jealousy - as the fear of seeing oneself as 'less than'
- has the expression of "I dont care about what others want, I want this for myself, even at the expense of others"


2. Eros
- associated with romance,
- head-over-heals feeling
- feeling you've found your Soul mate
- Your world and mind circles about your loved one and they are always on your mind.


This form of love is self-sabotage because;
- Belief based on programmed idea of "love"
- It is the fear of being alone which energizes the feeling of Eros


3. Agape
- expect nothing in return
- self sacrifice but is not unconditional
- by choice
- You can elect to love your spouse this way because it is what is best for your family and marriage.

This form of love is self-sabotage because;
- Self suppression, often based on fear of survival, fear of loneliness, or fear of facing yourself
- Rather than standing Equal to our world and reality,


4. Phileo:
- This love cherishes and has tender affection for the beloved but it expects a response.
- a love of relationship, comradeship, sharing, communication and friendship.
- a close companionship that is all trusting

- Relationship love - Based in Self-interest within the starting point of selfishness because it is not based in the starting point of standing for life as what is best for all.
- Often abused through creating personalities and imposing them on children.


5. Storge:
- Storge love is often described as a comfortable old shoe relationship comprised of natural affection and a sense of belonging to each other.
-  represents a safe haven for couples as it is a place of acceptance, mutual respect and shelter.

 This form of love is self-sabotage because;
- Fear of not belonging, not being accepted
- often comes from childhood experiences where we feared being left out
- Desire for safety - as the desire for validation and justification as to why we are not being honest with ourselves. 
- Self-compromise


All of these forms of love exist within fear and limitation by not understanding ourselves, believing ourselves to be separate from our world and reality.   Any love that is based on fear is self-deception and therefore not standing equal to life.


The only love that is real in fact, is that which is absolutely unconditional, and not limited to personal ideas or beliefs.  Living or having an agreement within the starting point of supporting all life Equally, as the principle of what is best for all is the only real, self-honest starting point for having an agreement or relationship.  Love has not helped our world in any way, in fact, our world is is a virtual hell for many, because of dishonesty and the belief in Love.


If we stop love and decided to live as Equals and support life, we could have heaven on Earth.


Help us by supporting and Equal Money system.


See my video on Love here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAVFvuZmkEE&feature=youtu.be

Day 32 - Me as My Words

"Everyone Pays Full Price" I stated into my cell phone voice recorder yesterday. 

So after finishing my job of the past two days, it came time for the customer to pay.  He did not want to pay tax (as is typical of most clients), so I accepted that.  In addition to that, the customer was telling me that the type of work I was doing was not worth what I was asking, despite the agreement we had on the price beforehand.  So he began 'talking me down'.  I argued my points that I was well worth the price I was asking, and I had done a great job, yet he continued to demand a lower price.  So I conceded to give him 10% off the price in addition to the taxes discount. 

Upon reflection of what happened, I realized that I accepted the compromise, I did not stand my ground and demand full price, because I felt I had no ground to stand on, I needed the money and re-acted in fear of not getting it from interactions in the past.  What I did not realize is that I was compromising myself in not standing equal to my words.  In compromised myself through pitying the client, even though he was very wealthy.  Self-sabotage yet again.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compromise myself in not standing equal and one with my words, and so sabotage myself through irresponsibility to myself and my world through speaking words of compromise.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget that I am my words and thus when I speak words as me, I stand in agreement with myself as my words without compromise through reactions of pity or fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take pity on someone else, and their fear of having to spend money, and in so compromise myself and my words through lack of integrity to my agreement to myself and my words as me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fall victim of fear of not getting paid and in so compromise myself and my words and my agreement with myself as my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to the emotions of someone else rather than standing absolute as myself, my agreement with myself and my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I can compromise my words as me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to take responsibility for others through compromising myself in the desire to be a good, helpful and kind person.  I realize that if I compromise myself and my words through kindness, goodness and helping others, I abdicate myself and my agreement with myself as my words which is unacceptable and denial of who I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget to be specific with my words as myself in walking my process of self-honesty, and in so reap the consequences of inequality as the evidence of me not standing equal and one with my words as me.

I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to slow myself down in and as my breath to clear myself before I speak words as me.

There is no half-life, either I stand absolutely equal to life in every way, or I cease to exist.

I commit myself to stand Equal and One with my words as me in total agreement with myself

I commit myself to be the living example of standing Equal and One with my words

I commit myself to slow myself down in breath awareness and clear myself before I speak, so that I can be sure that the words that I speak are self-directed in full awareness of my responsibility to my agreement to myself and my words.

I commit myself to, when I find myself running at the mouth, stop myself, clear myself through breath, and speak words as myself even if it means having to go back and re-state what I had said previously.

Everyone Pays Full Price in repayment of the debt we all have to Life.

Day 21 - God Bless America - Movie Review - 5 Stars

*Spoiler Alert*

Here is a portrayal of a middle aged man (Frank) who has become acutely aware of the conspicuous superficiality and inconsideration of people in our world.   Frank walks by his boss one morning and overhears him repeating verbatim the mocking and shallow joke Frank had just heard on the radio.  Yet his boss was pretentiously acting as if he was speaking his own words as himself, and the three employees gathered around him all laughed and doted on the boss in stereo-typical ass-kissing fashion. Surely they had heard the radio announcers joke themselves, but preferred to 'save face' in the presence of their boss.

Frank overhears co-workers gossiping about celebrities and superficially laughing together over trivial things.  He tries to explain to his co-worker how Americans have become such a mockery, bereft of any real consideration, but his co-worker 'just doesn't get it' because he 'thinks everything is funny' in his own self-interest.  

Frank's neighbor is clearly oblivious to Frank, and does not even consider him in the slightest, preferring to worship his car, god forbid there is a scratch in the paint.

Frank then loses his job through a ridiculous system non-tolerance policy.  He is told that he has a brain tumor and realizes that his own daughter has become utterly ostensible, preferring to play her digital games than spend time with her father.

Frank, through his utter dismay with a false world, is left with nothing but indignation within himself.  So he sets off to kill what he sees as the representation of the epitome of falseness in a rich and snobby high school girl.

After killing the girl, Frank decides to commit suicide, but before he pulls the trigger - he meets a young girl who has also seen through the veil of shallowness.  And so together, they devise a plan to eradicate what they see as the infected scum of society.

After some murders and laughs together, they develop a kinship and at times come face to face with their own mind limitations and differences of opinion, yet they choose to resolve their issues for the sake of their admiration for eachother and common purpose.

There is one scene where they realize the media is falsely blaming the 'violent nature of the movie' for the murders they committed - Frank shuts off the TV and points out the lack of  SELF-RESPONSIBILITY by the media.

Here is the fascinating part of the movie.

Franks' main allegation against society - is that people 'ridicule' and 'belittle' people who appear to be 'less talented'.  At the end of the movie, Frank holds the 'American Superstar' show hostage in the midst of them showcasing an untalented performer - whom Frank had thought to be a victim of society.  Yet Frank realizes that this apparent 'victim' was actually every bit as selfish and avaricious as all the people Frank was willing to kill!  Frank then, having lost all sympathy, kills the performer, and himself and the girl unload all their retributions on the judges and the audience while being shot to death by police, in a bitter ending of poetic justice.   

Summary

This movie depicts both the anger/frustration that we exist as, as well as the deep desire by those that have seen the true nature of ourselves as slaves to an abusive system - for change.  Change that is real.  Change that would ultimately end all superficiality and mockery of Life.  It is evident that while reading some of the reviews, many of the reviewers fail to see the point of the movie - and so completely miss the palpable message behind it.

The mans name is 'Frank'.  Frank is another word for upfront, to-the-point, and HONEST.  Frank just wants everyone to be honest.  Yet he realizes his powerlessness, and sees no way out but to vent his anger and frustration through killing people. Franks realizations were real, yet his solution was in spite of himself because he did not consider how he can impact society through his own living participation and taking self-responsibility himself to change.  Frank did not realize that he was the one who accepted and allowed it all through not considering all life Equally. 

The irony of the title 'God Bless America' reflects how we have debased ourselves through the belief in a false God. Frank becomes 'God' in his mind and delivers his 'blessing' to America as a judgment of releasing Americans from their self-created, self-inflicted miserable lives.

Why is it that people prefer superficiality and refuse to see the heart of Life?  How long will we endure an existence of self-torture and self-denial in the reverence of fear and blame?  How long will we continue to mock ourselves in spite and self-dishonesty?  How long will we deny that the only solution to the problems in this world is to stop all abuse and delusions and realize we must all agree to stand as Equals in supporting Life?

There is another poignant message within the movie regarding morality that I will not divulge here, perhaps you can find it for yourself.  The point is, if we place morality above what is best for all Life, that type of morality is ignorance, dishonest and spiteful.