Perceptions of injustice - unwilling to accept , tied to emotions.
Creates Distrust, Betrayal, Wall of Protection, Victim (Right), Ego, Justification
Resentment supports feeling like a good person
Was I unfairly treated? I feel people were irresponsible in assisting me with my false perceptions (religion, fears, lack of scope, lack of direction etc).
Trying to gain safety by placing myself in a superior position.
What specifics am I resentful about?
Is there self-resentful? yes.
What is the impact this resentment is having on my life? What are the direct consequences? Relationships
Solution: Letting go and Acceptance
Why am I Unwilling to accept that?
Resentment is trying to kill other people by drinking poison.
What really bad thing would happen if I were to let go of the resentment? Fear of Repetition.
Deal with powerlessness by focusing on solutions.
Look at the worst case scenario.
Anger/Rage from Powerlessness spiral
How can I empower myself?
Acknowledge victim mentality (powerlessness)
Feeling Fearing like I failed to take responsibility (self blame)
Seek silver lining in resentment scenarios.
Correct how I have taken things personally.
Feelings internalized through what I did not express - fearful of rejection
Clarify what the expectations were/are.
Create the resolution.
What would I do if I could do something with my life?
Create an Adventure. Maybe a short story would help to outline it. Then perhaps I could record it as a narrative, or make a video. Need sounds and fantasy drawings. Fairie Tale type of things, with a kind of moral supporting theme such as stopping judgments or some depiction of value.
Headaches as a consequence of me applying quick fixes in my life. Fear of failure - quick fix - destructive consequence. I want to say that I did not understand the scope of my life. At the same time, I must admit to self dishonesty as all is here evident. At the same time I must not condemn myself in that I am within the process of understanding the multidimensional aspects of myself.
Questioning myself as to whether the point of correcting my past abandonment complex. Is it simply a desire to fulfill a fantasy to make myself feel better? Is it harmful, abusive or destructive, or dishonest? Am I subjecting myself to energetic stimuli? Am I using another as an object? What if I am assisting and supporting another to realize... is that self interest? Am I being spiteful to the rest of existence? Is there a fear of rejection? What are the consequences I am not seeing?
Practice seeing deeply into multidimensional self with questions such as how can I change myself to be what is needed most by all? How has the (believed/assumed/projected) perceptions of myself by others affected my expression?