Self forgiveness on
friends
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to create a relationship between
myself and X Where I existed within a point of competition thinking
that I needed to compete with him in order to get attention for
myself from others and girls.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to classify myself within separation
based on my friendship status with X, thus believing myself to be
better than others, and thus creating a conflicting energetic
polarity with the consequence of the devaluation of others.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I could have more
fun as more excitement if I defined myself within a friendship
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to use my friendship with X As a
point of self-manipulation and manipulating others through a
relationship based in separation.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as 'better than'
another through valuing myself as a good person based on my opinion
of how I liked my own personality better than that of others, because
it was easy to see manipulation in others, yet I did not want to face
my own self-dishonesty.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to submit my authority of myself to
the ideas, beliefs and fears of others whom I considered friends, not
realizing that those whom I considered friends were in dishonesty and
playing out characters based in fear and self-interest.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to fear the judgments of my friends
while I was growing up and in so suppress myself in standing up to
support self-honesty in what is best for all.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to create personalities around
friendships which I had developed with those around my neighborhood
while I was growing up.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to create the personality of being a
strong person and so define myself as being tougher than others, more
resilient to pain and therefore better than others in a way – so
that I could get attention for my self defined personality and avoid
facing myself in self honesty.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to be jealous of others within my
group of friends because they had developed their own personality
constructs, and so allow myself to think less of myself because I did
not meet up to the standards of my friends.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to neglect my responsibility to
myself through valuing others as 'more than' within the relationships
of being friends with me.
I forgive myself that I
have accepted and allowed myself to suppress self-honesty within
myself and thus not develop myself to my full potential because I
gave more value and attention to the opinions of my friends than I
did to my own self-honesty.
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