Day 207 - Consequence and Money

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get myself into a situation where I am enslaved to consequence as money, where money dictates how I experience and express myself.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel trapped by money and by those who enforce the money system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a money system to exist where life has been neglected and existence relegated to meaningless and careless actors in a horrific play of shameless ignorance and disgrace.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that consequence always existed as me, and only appears extreme and negative because I accepted and allowed myself to put it off for so long.  I realize that I must embrace consequence as myself as consequence assists me to face myself in realizing what I have done to myself and all - so that I can stop allowing abuse in myself and my world, and change to stop harmful consequence for ever.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that desire - as the desire to get or achieve - that which I have not fully taken responsibility for, creates consequences for myself and all through desiring that which is in separation and therefore does not support Life as Equality.

I commit myself to embrace consequence as embracing myself so that I can learn to change myself and stand unconditionally, no longer enslaved to systems and/or fears of the mind.

I commit myself to do what is necessary to be done in order - to create myself in what is best for all - and to stop the mind which only creates consequences of pain, suffering, and death.

I commit myself to do what must be done to support  Equal Money Capitalism and the Equal Life Foundation so that we can work together to make life worth living on this planet for Everyone.

Day 206 - Self Movement as Breath

This morning was a time where my self-directed breathing seemed easy and constant, as compared to other times when I have to constantly bring myself back to breath and it doesn't 'stick'.  I find it most challenging when I am working to stick to breath awareness, as I get caught up in figuring out how to complete a task - which seems to take up all the memory and cpu cycles lol.  So that is the point I am working on for myself - directing every breath at work, multitasking breath awareness and problem solving.

A point that did assist me in sharpening my breathing is seeing self-movement as breath, meaning that I move my body in accordance with or in rhythm with my breathing

Self-movement as Breath

Applying this, I find myself moving more slowly.  I do not waste energy on thoughts/feelings/emotions, I am more aware of myself and prepared.  I am able to work with more precision, which helps me focus myself and as a result of that, I make less errors in my work - which leads to getting more work done despite the appearance of working slowly.   Errors in my job are costly as they can cost me a lot of lost time and effort, so breathing is very supportive in many ways.


I enjoy challenging myself to direct my breath as I realize that I am changing, developing, and taking responsibility for myself in preparation to face and correct self-created consequences derived from the past.  There is also the point of remaining aware of inevitable mind distractions that come up which seek to blame, discourage, or possess me into the mind of emotions and feelings.

Self-movement as Breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget to direct myself as breath in some moments.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to - in some moments - forget to direct myself as my physical body as breath.

I commit myself to becoming effective at multitasking where I focus myself on breathing, slowing myself down, moving myself in awareness and at the same time address problems that come up which I must carefully think through so that I can complete tasks in the most efficient and effective manner.  

I commit myself to constantly challenging myself to direct my breathing within the realization that this is the solution to all the problems within myself and my world and reality.

Day 205 - Is Freedom a Human Right?

To understand this, we must place the word Freedom into context. 'Freedom' as the vague and broad term often used is not a Human Right in itself, as many people have different definitions and interpretations of what Freedom actually means - predominantly that of being able to do 'whatever one wants' within the bounds of one's own moral judgement and/or financial capacity.  This is a fallacy and blatant dishonesty to say the least, as personal moralities are easily manipulated, changed, or adapted to suit ones situation or fears.

Example - Is Person A 'Free' to take a walk in the park?

This action would be dependent upon many factors, such as;

- What is the purpose/intent of the walk?  Is it for simple exercise, or perhaps Person A has something more sinister in mind?
- Does this person have responsibilities that must be taken care of before taking a walk?  Is there young children at home?  Was something left cooking on the stove unattended?

We can see that our current system is highly dependent on law enforcement to provide security and come to our rescue when help is needed. Yet this system is highly ineffective and altogether lacking the ability to stop the problem(s) at the source, for a number of reasons;

Primarily, the legal system is subject to a corrupt monetary system, therefore judgement is not based on justice, but rather on how much money one has access to in order to purchase bail, lawyers, witnesses, and/or judges decisions.  Not to mention the ingenuity on the part of wealthy corporations and/or individuals in the act of prevention of legal altercations, as well as the utilization of shady tactics such as bribery, or blackmail in order to fly under the radar of the legal system.

Secondly, our convoluted legal system cannot be traced to any one principle, or even a specific morality for that matter.  It is a dysfunctional conglomeration of ill-rooted protocols that only serves to protect the rich and/or the elite of this world.

Accountability should not be dependent on financial status, but rather absolute self-honesty, responsibility, and integrity.  Why do we abdicate and impose our responsibilities on law enforcement?  The only possible answer is that we desire more than our fair share, and fear for our own survival.  We fear being self-honest, as that would imply sharing the resources of the planet, and taking responsibility for ourselves and those around us.


Another Example - Is Business B 'Free' to conduct business?

What factors are involved in Business B's affairs, and how does it conduct business?

- What products are created, sold, consumed?  Are they best for all, or harmful for all?  (Ahem... Monsanto)
- What byproducts are created?  Does it produce chemicals that are bad for the environment (everyone), thus poisoning the earth?

We can see clearly that 'Freedom' - without specific context or foundational principles that serve the best interest of all - is nothing more than justified abuse by means of a linguistic and/or legal loophole.  This is the reason for tremendous abuse of Life on earth and therefore absolutely unacceptable.

Freedom must be clearly defined so that it can be traced back to determine if it in fact does or does not support the Equal Life Rights of All.  The Equal Life Foundation's Bill of Rights outlines each and every Human Right as being  accountable to actual Life principles, so that each and every person can see, realize and understand what it means to take Equal responsibility to support Life as Equals within our shared physical reality... Because None is Free until All is Free.

Know Your Rights.... And Stand For Them.

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Equal Life Foundation - Bill of Rights
  

Day 204

Today started off with the realization I have much more work to do on this current job than I had thought.  This has been a particular problem for me in the past where I underestimate the amount of work required to complete a job, as there is always unforeseen factors that arise throughout the job, and so end up in a situation where I don't make what I had expected to make.   I have been aware of the issue for a very long time and despite efforts to stop underestimating, the problem continues to resurface.

I am writing the point here to identify the problem for myself so that I can be more careful in considering my estimates, taking care to consider the unknown factor and not rushing myself when estimating everything that will be involved


I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to fully consider all aspects of a job while estimating, not realizing that I will be putting myself in difficult situations in the near future due to rash and hastily made decisions that I make without full consideration of all dimensions of a job.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into states of frustration while working due to
anxiety over decisions I made in the past without full consideration for what all is involved and the consequences of making poor decisions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let the mind/ego take control of me during a situation where I did not direct myself to take a break and relax when I needed a break, and so allowed myself to try and take a short cut resulting in an error, which resulted in lost time and materials and as a result of that I allowed frustration and inner conflict to arise and possess me.  I realize that I must walk through the consequence that I create for myself and use it as a means of developing self-trust, rather than fear of a hypothetical mind-created problem.

I commit myself to write down all estimates in full so that I see clearly and exactly what needs to be done and how long it will take, as well as accounting for the unknown/unforeseen factor.

I commit myself to - when and as I see myself going into frustration due to physical tiredness - slow myself down and breath, trusting myself to work the problem out through self-forgiveness and corrective application.

Day 203 - Decisions Decisions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hesitate within uncertainty as to how I should proceed with plans.  I realize that this hesitation comes from attempting to weigh and consider all the variables to make sure I am making the best possible decision, yet at the same time I am not able to see all the outflows of decisions I make - so it is a point of standing in self-trust that whatever decision I make I can stick to it through being here as breath and adjusting the decision if necessary as I move through the point.  Too much consideration for a problem leads to frustration - in attempting to solve issues which are hypothetical and derived from 'fear of making a mistake' and therefore shows me that I am not standing in self trust and thus not moving myself as effectively as I can.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to trust myself within decision making

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to over analyze and over-consider problems, to the extent that I am creating infinite imaginary problems for myself and thus going into points of frustration and confusion because the problem then seems unsolvable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I should have all the answers and therefore be able to make all the right decisions.  I realize within this current abusive and corrupt system there are no guarantees, which is why I am supporting myself in this process of becoming self-honest so that I can stand within absolute self-trust and absolute certainty within and as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be upset with myself for not knowing the 'right' answer 'best' or 'proper' decision beforehand.  I realize that the priority for myself is within making the decision to move myself within self-honesty, not fearing an outcome one way or another as I realize that is subjecting myself to enslavement to fear of myself and/or fear of the money system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the justification that I do not understand or I don't know as a means of putting off making a decision for myself and moving myself within that decision.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the gambling game within my mind where I feel happy about myself if I made the 'right' decision and upset with myself if I made the 'wrong' decision.  I realize that each decision that I make show's me something - and so I must stop fearing to be wrong through the desire to be perfect.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be perfect from the starting point of self-interest, where I have sought to inflate my ego/mind through the idea that I was right or that I am right or I am special in some way for being such a good decision maker.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get off track when going through the decision making process.  I realize that I must consider all dimensions of a problem in an efficient and effective way so that I can move myself forward and not stagnate within uncertainty.

I commit myself to pay attention to myself within this point of decision making and move myself decisively in trusting myself and not fearing the outcome

I commit myself to step myself through the process of decision making systematically considering all dimensions and then moving myself

I commit myself to focus myself within the decision making process so that I stand by my commitment to honor Life as all decisions must align with the principle of what is best for all 

 

Day 202 - Freedom without Responsibility is Delusion

I just witnessed a video of a masked man with a woman sitting on her knees in front of him.  He was shouting something in a foreign language and waving a knife.  He then proceeded to cut the woman's throat and continued until he removed the head entirely.   In an instant, her life was over.  The woman appeared to be in her 20's or 30's. This video reveals the consequence of personal beliefs and self-righteous judgments that we have allowed to exist in our world.

What could have caused the man to do this?  What beliefs did he hold that were above this woman's existence?  What beliefs did she have that possibly could have caused her death?  What sacred rule did she break? What unforgivable, un-correctable crime against Life did she commit?  I could speculate that she did not agree or comply with the gang's cause, or mode of operation.  Perhaps she spoke out against the gang or did not wish to follow their orders.

The fact that this form of killing goes on all the time in our reality shows us that there is a problem with our existence.  I, or anyone else for that matter, could have been in her position, with no trial and no justice.  By justice, I mean accountability, where everyone is within understanding of what is our responsibility to Life, so that we are all accountable for all actions, and no 'evil' is ever permitted, and no individual is permitted to freely take another's Life unless all is in agreement that that action is in fact best for all Life.

If we continue to allow personal beliefs and self-righteous judgments in our world, we consequently create hell for ourselves, where evil - as anything that is not best for all Life - is permitted to flourish.

Consciousness is fruitless, as it does not support Life, but permits and gives our acceptance and allowance of freedom in the form of atrocity justified by the belief that there is no consequence.   Clearly freedom is deception in a shared physical reality, because none are free till all is free.  We must move ourselves realize what we are allowing and take responsibility so that no disregard for Life as what is best for all is granted authority to exist anywhere in existence.

Who has authority over our lives?  Is it us? Clearly not, as we are all subject to a corrupt money system that is constantly abused and manipulated, keeping the masses enslaved to the false hope and false idea of freedom.

Please investigate and support the Equal Life Foundation and Equal Money Capitalism so we can stop the madness of this world.

Day 201

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to extensively limit and confine myself within the fear of god/ fear of the system - which was the reflection of me fearing myself - and so I did not allow myself opportunity to expand and find fun ways of expressing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit and suppress myself in fear of myself - to the extent that I feel as if I don't even know myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to interpret 'what life is' and 'who I am' through a personality, formed through a constant barrage of fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dislike and detest who I have created myself as, and who I have allowed myself to become.  I realize that this is in part the desire to escape consequence, as well as existing in hope that someone will walk this process for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a world so completely fucked up that expressing self-honestly sounds strange or awkward and we become uncomfortable and find it necessary and acceptable to resort to a false personality character.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see future play-outs/consequences/rewards  and so I haven't trusted myself to make critical and informed decisions about how I should direct myself in consideration for myself and others in the future.  In that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to blame consequence for who and what I have accepted and allowed myself to become - as if there is an easy way to solve the problems of this world and reality.  I realize the process of changing myself can only be done breath by breath, accumulating self-honesty and self trust within myself to walk myself out of all dimensions of myself so I can be here, living what is best for all in each moment.

I commit myself to challenging my limitations of mind to see what is possible when I focus myself.

I commit myself to know myself beyond the limitations of my mind.

I commit myself to embrace myself here within the realization of my commitment to myself and my goal of becoming absolutely self-honest with myself.


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