Day 206 - Self Movement as Breath

This morning was a time where my self-directed breathing seemed easy and constant, as compared to other times when I have to constantly bring myself back to breath and it doesn't 'stick'.  I find it most challenging when I am working to stick to breath awareness, as I get caught up in figuring out how to complete a task - which seems to take up all the memory and cpu cycles lol.  So that is the point I am working on for myself - directing every breath at work, multitasking breath awareness and problem solving.

A point that did assist me in sharpening my breathing is seeing self-movement as breath, meaning that I move my body in accordance with or in rhythm with my breathing

Self-movement as Breath

Applying this, I find myself moving more slowly.  I do not waste energy on thoughts/feelings/emotions, I am more aware of myself and prepared.  I am able to work with more precision, which helps me focus myself and as a result of that, I make less errors in my work - which leads to getting more work done despite the appearance of working slowly.   Errors in my job are costly as they can cost me a lot of lost time and effort, so breathing is very supportive in many ways.


I enjoy challenging myself to direct my breath as I realize that I am changing, developing, and taking responsibility for myself in preparation to face and correct self-created consequences derived from the past.  There is also the point of remaining aware of inevitable mind distractions that come up which seek to blame, discourage, or possess me into the mind of emotions and feelings.

Self-movement as Breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget to direct myself as breath in some moments.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to - in some moments - forget to direct myself as my physical body as breath.

I commit myself to becoming effective at multitasking where I focus myself on breathing, slowing myself down, moving myself in awareness and at the same time address problems that come up which I must carefully think through so that I can complete tasks in the most efficient and effective manner.  

I commit myself to constantly challenging myself to direct my breathing within the realization that this is the solution to all the problems within myself and my world and reality.

Day 115 – Is God a Fraud? – Multiple Choice Quiz.

To see if an all powerful, superior, and intelligent being (God)exists, we can perform this simple test.  Ok, raise your right arm (if you have one and are able, otherwise any body part will suffice).  Now who was it that moved your arm?  Was it…

A. You
B. God
C. Both
D. Neither
E. Sometimes You, sometimes God

If you said A. You.
This is the best answer, and I will explain why.  If that is the case, then as you just demonstrated by your movement, God is not omnipotent (all powerful) because you moved by way of nothing but your own will to do so.  And if God is not omnipotent, then God is also fallible, untrustworthy, and a complete fraud.  In which case that would indicate that, by default, you are thereby responsible for everything you have done in your life, and thus you are also accountable for the mess you have contributed to making in this world through your self-willed participation, and/or negligence. 

If you chose B. God.
Then this would imply that God is in absolute control of your every movement, and thus your entire life – no matter what you choose to do – actually, there is no ‘you’ at all… you don’t even really exist! It’s all God…, so why would I even bother to communicate with a programmed clone?  Perhaps you would be so kind as to take me to your leader?  Oh that’s right, he only exists in your mind. 

If you chose C. Both. 
That would indicate that you are in fact God - one and the same. This also clearly illustrates that there is no separation between you and him/her/it, because you just proved that all decisions are made instantaneously without the need for any communication or debate.  If that is the case, then why don’t you manifest you’re every hearts desire… God?… And why don’t you perform miracles such as walking on water… God?  Why are you (God) unable and/or unwilling to stop all the wars and remove all the suffering in the world… God?  Unless of course you are a cruel God who just wants to see people suffer needlessly, in which case, you are rather lame to make people suffer for your own personal and selfish ‘glory’… poor excuse for a God you are.

If you chose D.  Neither.
Ok then perhaps you are Anonymous, or Satan, or bugs bunny, or whatever mysterious character your randomly generated pick-three-and-win multiple-personality-disorder system chooses to decide upon at any given moment. Regardless, for the purpose of this experiment, please choose a name so we may figure out if God really exists or not.

If you chose E.  Sometimes God, sometimes you. 
Interesting choice.  This ‘God’ entity must be able to take over your bodily functions at any time.  So, you must be kind of like… Gods Nintendo?  Isn’t that kind of a scapegoat though?  I mean, if you ever find yourself robbing a bank, or killing someone or something, you can just say oh ‘God made me do it’?… isn’t that the perfect excuse to get you off the hook?… it’s not irresponsible or inconsiderate to anyone of course nooo, because after all, God is Good… right!?…  And God owns everything!??…  Either that, or just embellish yourself in anything you wish, and then just ask God to hit the forgive all button and make it all better.  Everything will work out in the wash??
The problem is you would have to place your entire trust and life in Gods hands, because there is absolutely no way to tell if anyone else is actually being controlled by your ‘Good’ God… or something else.   Doesn’t it say in the bible that Satan disguises himself as an angel of light?  Tricky tricky… and quite the gamble I must say.  It also says in the bible that ‘God creates evil’ so obviously someone is telling so tall tales here.

Lets quit the make believe game, get real and take responsibility for ourselves and our world shall we.  Join the Desteniiprocess and stand with the only group that stands for real Equality in our world, as what is best for all…  And support the Equal Money System to stop the abuse that we have all created.

Day 80 - Self Forgiveness for The Activist

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide myself within a character that pretends to care rather than become actual caring as myself in considering all life Equally and living the principle of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that an opinion is based on a limited perspective, and thus dishonest and not real.  In that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Value my Opinion Above what is best for all, and in so, I have created an opinionated character who perceives myself as being special. and better than others in my world and reality.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the consequences of what I have accepted and allowed to exist as myself in this world, and so believe that I must take up a cause so that I can redeem myself, not realizing that I am only perpetuating my characters ego, and thus not making any difference in the world because I am not addressing the starting point of the problem - myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that everything I believe about this character of mine was borrowed from others, just a copy and not original in any way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a character of Hope so that I can gain sympathy from others, so that I may further manipulate myself and others within the belief that I am fighting for a good cause, when actually, I am only denying myself, to the detriment of all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that what I am doing with my characters is in separation of myself as the physical, therefore through playing the role of my characters, I am leeching energy off the physical in order to keep my make believe characters alive - as consciousness.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use characters to justify hiding from myself and so refusing to face myself in self-honesty as who I am here as a physical being, no better and no less than anyone or anything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sacrifice my self-honesty, only to replace it with a false character of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others do not understand my struggles, and so believe that I am better than others because I have struggles that no one sees I am going through, yet those struggles have only resulted in me creating more characters for myself in my denial of myself as a physical being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in all my characters roles to the extent that I get fearful when at times I do not know which character to play, as the evidence that I am acting an array of characters rather than being myself as the physical which does not change roles out of fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a character in which I can believe I am Humble, and so, when appropriate, I can fall back on this character so that I may attempt to avoid responsibility to myself as all, as well as manipulate myself and others for my own self interest because I fear for my characters survival.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a character of Hope, in that I want and desire others to validate my characters as Compassionate, Loving and Caring because I have deluded myself into believing that someone or something is going to solve everything for me, and reward me for my dishonesty to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to receive a high honor, as wanting to be seen as better than others, not realizing that that is hierarchy and abuse of life as is existent within the current world system which is ready to collapse due to this system of abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of others as ignorant and unaware, without placing myself in their shoes to fully understand their whole life story to find out what actually caused others to be the way they are.  In so, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others based on my opinion that I am good, because I am doing a good deed, in character, thus judging others as less than myself in self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be wiser, smarter, or more intelligent than others based on my limited point of view of myself.  In that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to falsely blame others for not taking responsibility, when I myself am not taking responsibility for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed and controlled by energy as emotions and feelings, where I will react in situations where I feel threatened, as opposed to stopping myself and clearing myself in breath so that I may speak - not in reaction, but rather speak words as myself so that I can take responsibility to direct myself in what is best for all in each situation, rather than be directed and controlled by fears and projections of the mind.

Williams 7yr Journey to Life - Day 54

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to postpone my responsibilities till the last minute.  I realize that doing this creates consequences that I will have to face as not being effective as possible within my process.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think to myself that I can relax and not push myself throughout the day even at times where I feel that I don't have much to do, there are things that I can do that will assist myself and others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give myself too much slack within my daily participation, as still not being completely effective with self-discipline.  I realize I need to develop a system for myself where I can discipline myself to direct myself in working at expanding myself and doing things that will manifest changes that will be reflected in my outer world as changes that are moving myself towards assisting others and myself to stand up and support equality and equal money for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect the primary points in my life that need to be dealt with - with regards to work and positioning myself somehow so that I am better able to support myself and others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be inconsistent with pushing my resistances, where at times if I don't feel like doing something because I feel tired or too relaxed, I have allowed myself to become ineffective through doing things that produce no real change in myself and or my world.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to consider those in my world that are in desperate situations.  Just because I do not see them right here in front of me does not mean that it is not happening - I know it is happening - and just because I am not experiencing the suffering they are going through right now does not mean it is not happening, or that I will have to face similar consequences in the future through my accepted and allowed consequences of lack of self-direction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect my responsibility to myself to motivate myself, not through fear, but through me upholding my responsibility to myself as supporting life and living the principle of what is best for all in all ways.

I commit myself to change myself in every moment and to realize that I am able to change in every moment.

I commit myself to motivating myself through constantly bringing my awareness here, as the physical, and remembering what horrors this world actually exists as so that I can change myself and my world for which I am responsibile for creating as this horrible atrocity that it is.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing and facing each point that comes up within me - and to no longer accept and allow myself to define myself with my mind as the ideas and personalities of the past which kept me enslaved to an idea of myself - as 'good' or 'funny' or 'cool' or 'intelligent'. I realize that the only way to solve the problems in our world is for each to self-realize through self-honesty so we can all contribute and work together to create a world that is best for all.