Day 80 - Self Forgiveness for The Activist

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hide myself within a character that pretends to care rather than become actual caring as myself in considering all life Equally and living the principle of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that an opinion is based on a limited perspective, and thus dishonest and not real.  In that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Value my Opinion Above what is best for all, and in so, I have created an opinionated character who perceives myself as being special. and better than others in my world and reality.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the consequences of what I have accepted and allowed to exist as myself in this world, and so believe that I must take up a cause so that I can redeem myself, not realizing that I am only perpetuating my characters ego, and thus not making any difference in the world because I am not addressing the starting point of the problem - myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that everything I believe about this character of mine was borrowed from others, just a copy and not original in any way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a character of Hope so that I can gain sympathy from others, so that I may further manipulate myself and others within the belief that I am fighting for a good cause, when actually, I am only denying myself, to the detriment of all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that what I am doing with my characters is in separation of myself as the physical, therefore through playing the role of my characters, I am leeching energy off the physical in order to keep my make believe characters alive - as consciousness.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use characters to justify hiding from myself and so refusing to face myself in self-honesty as who I am here as a physical being, no better and no less than anyone or anything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sacrifice my self-honesty, only to replace it with a false character of my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others do not understand my struggles, and so believe that I am better than others because I have struggles that no one sees I am going through, yet those struggles have only resulted in me creating more characters for myself in my denial of myself as a physical being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost in all my characters roles to the extent that I get fearful when at times I do not know which character to play, as the evidence that I am acting an array of characters rather than being myself as the physical which does not change roles out of fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a character in which I can believe I am Humble, and so, when appropriate, I can fall back on this character so that I may attempt to avoid responsibility to myself as all, as well as manipulate myself and others for my own self interest because I fear for my characters survival.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a character of Hope, in that I want and desire others to validate my characters as Compassionate, Loving and Caring because I have deluded myself into believing that someone or something is going to solve everything for me, and reward me for my dishonesty to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to receive a high honor, as wanting to be seen as better than others, not realizing that that is hierarchy and abuse of life as is existent within the current world system which is ready to collapse due to this system of abuse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think of others as ignorant and unaware, without placing myself in their shoes to fully understand their whole life story to find out what actually caused others to be the way they are.  In so, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others based on my opinion that I am good, because I am doing a good deed, in character, thus judging others as less than myself in self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be wiser, smarter, or more intelligent than others based on my limited point of view of myself.  In that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to falsely blame others for not taking responsibility, when I myself am not taking responsibility for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed and controlled by energy as emotions and feelings, where I will react in situations where I feel threatened, as opposed to stopping myself and clearing myself in breath so that I may speak - not in reaction, but rather speak words as myself so that I can take responsibility to direct myself in what is best for all in each situation, rather than be directed and controlled by fears and projections of the mind.

Day 79 - The Activist

Secret Mind Script:

Please Notice that I "Care" so much that I am willing to create a Care-Actor that raises Awareness to support a Good cause

It is My (Personal) Opinion, that this cause, is the BEST cause of them all, because I fear it the most.  Yes, there are other causes, but I Like this one, it was so easy to just 'copy and paste' in my mind, and I feel comfortable in this role

I Realize that all the work my character is doing will never change my cause, that's okay, because I have to keep my Hope character alive anyway... My Hope character helps me look pathetic, so others will sympathize with my Activist character 

Please Validate the role of my character I have created through your comments and support, to rejuvenate my characters energy

Please Support my character, so that I can justify in my mind why I do not have to take responsibility and Face the Truth of what I have created, and who I really AM

You don't Understand what I had to sacrifice to create this Activist Character

No, you don't understand, I have many other battles for good I am fighting, not just this one, I am Double-Worthy

Please Notice, I care so much, that I am willing to sacrifice my Main Personality Character for this Alt(alternate) character... some of the time... I hope to be able to afford to be this character most of the time, maybe even make it my main character 

My character would like to be recognized and rewarded for all the goodness I am promoting, but this character would never say that because I need to maintain my Humble character, my other Alt

Please validate my character as Loving, Compassionate, and Caring, so the Higher Power will recognize all my characters as good, and I will be rewarded a High Honor

If you don't support my character's cause, you are most likely Ignorant and Unaware of what is really going on in the world - and you are Less Than me because of this

Please Realize how much deeper my understanding of Reality is than yours, because obviously you don't understand, you don't see things the way I see them

Please Understand, that if you mock my character or my cause, I will retaliate and take revenge on you in my Secret Mind.  I will judge you and label you as evil and an abuser

I feel so Guilty.... I need a new Character to hide from myself...  Time for another Alt

Self Forgiveness for the Activist Character to follow in my next blog....

Day 76 - One Person Can Change The World

Reading Creations Journey to Life Day 91, I am the ONE that decides, caused me to consider my decision making.  What thought processes go into making decisions?  For myself and most people in the world today, the struggle to survive is the primary motivating factor, and for survival in the world system, we need money. Those with plenty will not be so concerned with their survival, and so be motivated by other (typically)selfish desires and fears.  So money, as fear and or greed, has become the primary motivational factor in our lives.  Is this necessary to live like this?  No, absolutely not.

The point I would like to make is, we are somewhat 'stuck' in the consequential outflow of what we have all accepted and allowed in our past decision to support a system of inequality.  This because, not everyone is willing and or able to grasp what is really happening in our world and why it is so abusive to life.

Therefore those of us that actually have come to realize the trap we have lead ourselves into, realize we have no choice and no escape from what we have created in the grand scale - and we also realize this abuse must stop.  So all we can do is to stand as a group and do what we can collectively to support Equality and Equal Money for All, yet until the majority realize this fact and also support it themselves, it will not happen.  Within this there is an interesting point.   We are actually doing something.  We have all committed ourselves in the decision to stand for Equality - For the first time in the History of the Universe. And within that decision, comes a responsibility to support ourselves, eachother, and those that are humble enough to inquire how we can change ourselves to support and become the directive principle of what is best for all.   In that there is no longer any question, no more deciding. 

Yet we are still faced with daily decisions, tasks that must get done, work, and individual responsibilities must still be taken care of.  Within this there are many decisions we can make.  It is all of these seemingly small yet connected decisions that must be directed in common sense to support Equality.  The way to be sure that our decisions are supporting equality is through being honest with ourselves and our participation.  As we push ourselves to walk breath by breath and step by step, we see opportunities to share ourselves and our realizations such as I am doing now within this blog.  I am assisting those who realize their responsibility to life as a whole, and that the only way to solve the massive problems within ourselves and our world is through supporting one another as Equals. 

I had to push through resistances to write this blog tonight... I did not want to do it, I made the decision to do it for Equality, because I know that in supporting others, I will in turn be supported.  That is what we are creating life to become - that of giving as you would like to receive.  So in order to create that, we must change ourselves from self-interested beings, which takes considerable effort. I do not physically see the outflow or effect I am having, I trust that which I am absolutely certain of, which is the fact that I share this world and reality with others, and if I do not assist others to realize this, I am not taking responsibility for others as myself. 

Lets stop being ruled by senseless fears, beliefs and greed.  Lets make the decision once and for all, to change ourselves for real to create a world that actually is best for all.  Lets make the decision to make the effort to get real with ourselves so we can stop the abuse of a corrupt money system. Join Desteni and the 7 year Journey to Life, if you have the courage to face yourself and change for real and for what is best for all.