Day 122–The Revised Alchemical Process of Self-Perfection

Alchemy was an influential philosophical tradition whose early practitioners' claimed profound powers which were known from antiquity. The defining objectives of alchemy are varied; these include the creation of the fabled philosopher's stone possessing powers including the capability of turning base metals into the noble metals gold or silver, as well as an elixir of life conferring youth and longevity.
The problem was, Alchemists never fully understood the nature of the problem they worked so hard to resolve, and so, without having a proper starting point, all efforts were in vain.
Here is a relative description of different stages of the alchemical processes and how they can relate and assist self in the process of self-realization and self-discovery.

1. Ablation
The separation of a component by removing the upper part, sometimes by skimming it off the surface.
The realization that we have separated ourselves through belief systems and thinking we are better than the physical reality, not realizing the consequences of such or who we are.
 
2. Stratification
An operation which produces layers in the substance in the flask.
The realization that we have separated ourselves into many layers of thought, space, and time.

3. Albification
The making of the matter in the alchemical work become white.
Trying to purify ourselves through self-righteous thoughts, beliefs and valuations in thinking we are ‘better than’ ourselves as the physical.

4. Ascension
When the active or subtle part rises up in the flask, usually by heating.
The attempt to escape oneself through raising ones vibration and creating make believe fantasies of the mind.  This erroneous belief only leads to diminishment, as one believes the fallacy that energy can exist forever, while energy feeds off and thus requires the physical to exist.

5. Conjunction
The joining of two opposite components, often seen as the union of the male and female, the subtle and gross, or even the elements.
The realization that thoughts and judgements exist in polarities (conflict) with one another which create energy, which depletes the physical.

6. Cineration
The reduction of a substance to ashes by heating.
The realization that our physical bodies are composed of physical elements of the earth, and as such are subject to return to the earth at any given moment at which time all our personalities, beliefs and memories will cease to exist.

7. Crystallization
The formation of crystals out of a solution of the substance usually in water, either by their gradual formation from the liquid, or by evaporation of the liquid.
The realization that ones thoughts, feelings, and emotions crystalize within ones physical body and are thus used to keep us enslaved to patterns of the past.

8. Decrepitation
The crackling and splitting apart of substances, for example common salt, on heating.
Investigating and dissecting ones belief systems through research to simplify and test whether they actually contain any real value.

9. Division
The separation of a substance into its elements.
The realization that thought is not composed of any physical elements.

10. Corrosion
The eating up of a substance by an acid, alkali or corrosive material.
The acid test of self-honesty one applies within oneself to test whether or not one’s beliefs are valid in that they support life, or they are corrosive and/or destructive to oneself and others.

11. Dissolution
The dissolving or transforming of a substance into a liquid.
Dissolving ones belief systems to become physical.

12. Descension
When the subtle or active part of a substance is made to go down to the bottom of a flask, rather than ascend as a vapour.
Seeing the truth of oneself as having participated in creating hell on earth, as placing oneself in the shoes of the lowest, most reviling existence, thus realizing ones responsibility to change.

13. Exhalation
The release of a gas or air from a substance.
Applying oneself within breathing (including inhalation) as the key to supporting oneself in transcending the mind.

14. Digestion
The slow modification of a substance by means of a gentle heat.
Grasping the truth of oneself through slowing oneself down in process.

15. Elaboration
The general term for the process of separating the pure from the impure, and leading a substance towards perfection.
Self-purification through eliminating that which does not support life (thoughts, beliefs, opinions, judgements etc.) and changing oneself to become that which does support life, as the physical.

16. Incineration
The conversion of a substance to ashes by means of a powerful fire.
Incinerating ones thought patterns and memories through the process of self-forgiveness.

17. Maturation
A general term applied to identify the appearance of a degree of perfection in the work.
Becoming stable in ones process of taking responsibility to change oneself in applying oneself to live what is best for all.

18. Mortification
Here the substance undergoes a kind of death, usually through a putrefaction
Facing the fact of one’s created consequential death, and thus using the current opportunity to create oneself as Life.
 
19. Purgation
The purging or purifying of a substance by it casting forth a gross part.
Applying oneself within self-forgiveness and self-correction to purge thoughts, memories and patterns of the past so that one can change to support oneself and others as an Equal.

20. Rectification
The purification of the matter by means of repeated distillations, the distillate being again distilled.
Repeated self-correction through cross-referencing with others walking the process.

22. Reiteration
The repetition of a process, particularly applied to circular distillation, in which the distillate is returned to the vessel, and the process continued for many cycles.
Consistent application and commitment so that one does not repeat the cycles and patterns of the mind, and so can break and/or transcend the limitations of such patterns.

23. Transmutation
The action of changing or the state of being changed.
The realization that self-change is possible and not confined to the limitations and belief systems of the mind.

24. Resolution
This occurs when substances which are mixed together become violently separated by being placed into a solution.
When one no longer participates in patterns of self-sabotage

25. Restinction
Here a substance at white heat is brought to perfection by being quenched in an exalting liquid.
The white heat representing the realization of the cruelty that we currently exist as, and so the exalting liquid is the realization of the possibility of self redemption through becoming the living example of Equality as physically living what is Best for All.

26. Revivification
The bringing of a mortified matter back to life, or reactivating it.
Undertaking the 7 year Journey to Life.

27. Conception
The marriage or union of the male and female aspects of substances.
Birthing Life in the physical for the first time ever in existence.

Day 64 - Relaxing, Moments, Boredom and Excitement

Relaxing
Fear of slowing down/desire to go fast. Desire to live in self interest, as doing what I want for myself.  Defining responsibility as 'work'/slavery/drudgery within my mind and not being free to relax.  While relaxation exists within current consequence, as our physical bodies eventually require rest at some point in the day, relaxation can be an acceptance of neglect and ignorance. Through perceiving my life experience as 'long and arduous', relaxation can be a stimulus of the mind through the energetic charge in the positive polarity, where work is the negative.  Working has become slavery, rather than the act of giving myself, through and as self-responsibility and supporting all life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feed off the positive energy charge within and as the word 'relaxation' as seeing and defining relaxation as a stimulus point where I think of relaxation as a means of acquiring energy of the mind, as an escape from taking responsibility for myself as all in directing every breath.

I no longer accept and allow myself to participate in the energetic charge of the word relaxation, as seeing it as a positive stimulus to charge the energy systems of the mind, but rather change myself to see that relaxation - when rest is not actually necessary for the physical body - is an acceptance of ignorance in the desire to live in self interest, as passing off my responsibility to the mind to direct me, instead of me directing myself here in each breath, moment by moment.

Moments
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have created moments as separations in time, where I/we have created mo-ments - as the desire for 'more mental energy', I perceive that each moment appears to be a monumental task - the created monument in the mind - the graven image of myself in separation.  Perceiving life as a long arduous struggle, everything is fucked up, dangerous, fearful, abusive and a big lie - based on the perspective of me, seeing myself through the eyes of my mind/ego.

Yet the actuality of life as source is so incredibly simple - being here in taking responsibility for directing myself within breath - I can enjoy myself in slowing myself down - within the realization that in taking responsibility for myself as breath, I am taking responsibility for ALL LIFE as me - thus removing the guilt and blame associated through relationship, as each is now self-responsible.

Through that realization and application - each moment is equal and one, and the moment is no longer monotonous or monumental, as 'mon-u-mental' being the mental projection of me, as I have moaned about not getting my selfish desires, and so created hierarchy/inequality/slavery. Monotony, or mono-tone, a sound without variety or variation - boring and dull.

Boredom
We are bored-dumb.  The fear of being 'bored' creates the experience of boredom within the mind.  Life is not boring, because life is not defined by boredom - if I am bored, it is because I have created the idea of boredom and subject myself to the con-fines of that belief, thus having to serve the sentence and the fine, where I have 'sent' myself into broken moments of 'tense', clinging to the past 'tense' and creating a future 'tense' based on the past 'tense', where I am always 'tense' in fear of facing the inevitable consequence for what I have accepted and allowed as me.

Boredom is false perception as desiring to be 'someone else' or be with 'someone more exciting' - seeing oneself as boring - to bore, or drill a hole through - thus the definition is given a negative energy charge - seeing boredom as 'monotonous', 'painful' and 'slow'.  Yet boredom is created  through participation in the idea of limitation, due to false perception and irresponsibility, not seeing or realizing the opportunities and potential to share myself.  In fear of the idea of boredom, we often find 'work' to preoccupy ourselves to make ourselves busy with work.  Trying to fake ourselves out, pretend responsibility we have created more and more work to do, rather than simply living and expressing ourselves as life.   Thus wurk has become urk, as we urk ourselves through enforced movement from the starting point of servitude, as one is forced into serving the hierarchy of the mind, as the self-created system.

The phrase "I am boring" is opposed to a real expression of life - as giving myself unconditionally through my expression as an Equal. To enjoy the act of giving rather than desiring to feed on the energy of others - which is seeking for self in others, thus attempting to blame life because I did not have the courage to take responsibility to express and share myself, and therefore created the consequence of me existing within and as jealousy.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am boring, or my life is boring, or that someone else is boring within definition as self-judgement.  I realize that I have not ever really considered what was the starting point of boredom which is actually do to the desire to escape responsibility, and the desire for an energy high that would stimulate my senses to make me feel alive, yet I am not alive because all of existence is enslaved to consciousness.



I commit myself to, when and as I see myself participating within the mind as 'feeling bored', to move myself in the physical to do something practical that would assist myself and others.  There are an infinite number of things that I can do in each moment to push my resistances and support life.

Excitement
The opposite polarity charge 'exciting' - as the stimulating and positive energy experience we constantly seek to escape the negative.  Constantly seeking to have an experience of ourselves.  Ex-sight-ment is the externalization of sight - as opposed to having In-sight, where we look into ourselves in self-honesty.  Ex-sight-ment is the false perception as the mental creation in denial of the negative association, thus the fuel of consciousness which produces the system as cycles in continuous polarity and enslavement.

Sex-citing.  Sex is often the most sought after experience.  Not to take away from the physical experience of sex, but when sex is used within the fantasies of the mind, it creates abuse through fueling and energizing the polarity mind systems where one is seeking power and control over another so that one can achieve personal satisfaction and good feelings for oneself in separation.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel the need for an energy high as excitement.  I realize that excitement is driven through desire to have a special experience of myself within my reality, however this desire for personal excitement carries with it the polar opposite as boredom.  Also, excitement as searching for myself outside of myself within an experience is separation.  I am not saying that I cannot do things that are 'fun', only that the addiction to excitement as energy addiction in wanting to escape responsibility to myself and all is abuse.

I commit myself to direct myself to enjoy myself in all moments equally, to stop searching for excitement outside of myself, but to work with what is here as myself so I can become life and assist all as I would like to be assisted. 

Williams 7yr Journey to Life - Day 54

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to postpone my responsibilities till the last minute.  I realize that doing this creates consequences that I will have to face as not being effective as possible within my process.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think to myself that I can relax and not push myself throughout the day even at times where I feel that I don't have much to do, there are things that I can do that will assist myself and others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give myself too much slack within my daily participation, as still not being completely effective with self-discipline.  I realize I need to develop a system for myself where I can discipline myself to direct myself in working at expanding myself and doing things that will manifest changes that will be reflected in my outer world as changes that are moving myself towards assisting others and myself to stand up and support equality and equal money for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect the primary points in my life that need to be dealt with - with regards to work and positioning myself somehow so that I am better able to support myself and others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be inconsistent with pushing my resistances, where at times if I don't feel like doing something because I feel tired or too relaxed, I have allowed myself to become ineffective through doing things that produce no real change in myself and or my world.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to consider those in my world that are in desperate situations.  Just because I do not see them right here in front of me does not mean that it is not happening - I know it is happening - and just because I am not experiencing the suffering they are going through right now does not mean it is not happening, or that I will have to face similar consequences in the future through my accepted and allowed consequences of lack of self-direction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect my responsibility to myself to motivate myself, not through fear, but through me upholding my responsibility to myself as supporting life and living the principle of what is best for all in all ways.

I commit myself to change myself in every moment and to realize that I am able to change in every moment.

I commit myself to motivating myself through constantly bringing my awareness here, as the physical, and remembering what horrors this world actually exists as so that I can change myself and my world for which I am responsibile for creating as this horrible atrocity that it is.

I commit myself to seeing, realizing and facing each point that comes up within me - and to no longer accept and allow myself to define myself with my mind as the ideas and personalities of the past which kept me enslaved to an idea of myself - as 'good' or 'funny' or 'cool' or 'intelligent'. I realize that the only way to solve the problems in our world is for each to self-realize through self-honesty so we can all contribute and work together to create a world that is best for all.