Day 140 – Nature Lover

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a Nature Lover which I realize is only a character personality I made up in my mind which serves to re-enforce the belief in my mind that I am someone special – which conveniently hides the fear of facing and seeing myself for who I really am - as Equal as the physical.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take on the character role of the Nature Lover when i am in a natural environment, acting differently than I would otherwise if I were in an urban setting, not realizing that I am not fooling anyone but myself, actually trying to hide myself from myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine seeing myself in Nature in my mind, and so believe that I am at peace with myself when I am in Nature.  I realize this is only the minds idea of peace, and is not real peace, because I am aware that the systems we have created which cause so much harm and exploitation of Life, still continue to exist and create terrible consequence, while I am enjoying myself in the feeble bubble of my mind as consciousness. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that Nature seems peaceful because Nature does not judge me as humans do, all the while the source of the judgements is within myself in fear of who I am.  In so I have fooled myself within the belief that Nature is a place where I can escape to, when in fact there is no escape from myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am ‘more sensitive’ and thus ‘better than’ others because I can sense an awareness in Nature while others cannot, and justify myself as a good person, while the world system that I helped to create is busy destroying and exploiting the natural environment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to formulate a love relationship with Nature, as believing Nature to be ‘special’ and in so denying the Equality of life which exists in all things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to portray nature as ‘beautiful’ in polarity to the ‘ugliness’ and ‘nastiness’ of the world system. I realize that thoughts such as this only serve to create further conflict within participation in the judgemental beauty system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I am gaining any kind of value for myself while interacting with nature or doing charitable work such as ‘saving the rain forest’.  I realize that charitable work such as this only serves to fuel and support the system of fear through conflict and disagreement.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my experience in nature as the awe and inspiring feeling is actually derived from me not understanding the nature of my reality – as how I have come to be as separate from nature, and thus I am in awe because I am in fear of Nature, as the fear of the unknown, and the fear of who I am as Nature.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the ‘loneliness’ feeling that comes over me when I am in Nature is a reflection of my own diminishment through separation of myself from Nature, by means of supporting and participating in consciousness.



I commit myself to create an actual agreement with myself to stand Equal and One with Nature, as I equally stand to create an Equal and One agreement with all of the systems of the world we have created, so that all Life may be Equal and One, and we may together return to physical Life in agreement, and so stop all abuse of Life forever.

I commit myself to realize that Nature is assisting and supporting me to realize who I am here as a physical being.

I commit myself to understand why I have created myself as separate from nature and so work to change myself to reverse the cause of separation within myself.

I commit myself to embrace myself here as what I have created myself as, and in so dissolve all fears of myself so that I may stop my mind and re-integrate to an Equal and One relationship with the physical world and Nature.

Williams 7yr Journey to Life - Day 57

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed and controlled by the feeling of dullness.  I realize that dullness is of the mind/ego where my mind is attempting to dictate a mood and feeling as an experience of self-suppression.  When and as I see myself within the dullness frame of mind/limitation of mind, I stop, I breathe, and I direct myself in and as my physical body to do what is necessary to be done to take responsibility for myself and all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear directing myself as physical movement because my mind tells me that it will cost me energy.  At the same time my mind wants to consume energy for itself rather than me giving my energy to life as what is best for all, because when I do that, the mind cannot feed off of my physical body and so the mind will starve and cease to exist within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist directing myself for fear that I will be exhausted.  To exhaust myself in changing myself to become Equal to the physical is actually the great opportunity I am dedicated to giving myself so that I can honor all life with my existence rather than consume the physical through energy which depletes the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize in each moment that to desire experiences such as happiness, comfort, peace, love, joy or any feeling or emotion good or bad - only for myself - is separation and deception.  I realize that all selfish desires are fleeting, and not real if they cannot be shared Equally among ALL that exist.  That is why we must start over, from nothingness, so that all may be shared Equally by all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the tremendous gift of opportunity as the portal-to-unity as a chance to change myself and to realize myself here within self-honesty and self-responsibility in this lifetime. I am grateful for this magnificent opportunity and in so commit myself to assist in birthing life as Equality and Oneness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be 'puffed up' with knowledge and information as 'hot air' floating into the mind as consciousness, spiteful and ignorant of what is right under, in, and as my nose. My nose knows the duality/polarity of consciousness, and at the same time it is the key, the primary point where breath physically enters my body, therefore my nose is aware if I am directing my breath or not... and if not, then what is? If not, where am I? Do I exist?  Where and how can I exist if I do not direct the breath?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to polarize myself through knowledge and information, rather than directing myself as Equal to all that is here as me.  I realize that if I use knowledge and information to make myself 'appear intelligent' or 'better than' others I am only boosting the false image of myself in my mind.  In this I realize I must slow myself down when interacting with others so I can assist myself to be aware of any fears that may arise, so I can clear myself without jumping on the first thought that comes to mind.  In this I discipline myself with patience, to take responsibility to direct my words as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear appearing foolish to others because I may stumble with my corrective application as I learn how to direct myself - as a baby learning to walk for the first time.  Within this I realize that the fear of appearing foolish is actually an opportunity to enjoy the inevitable comedy of the moment.


I commit myself to continue to write out points that I have not fully integrated into and as myself until I get it and I am stable in living the application of my words.

I commit myself to push myself to take responsibility for myself in fully executing self-correction.

I commit myself to be aware of the fear of appearing foolish, where this may allow me to discover points where I have previously hidden issues from myself.

I commit myself to use this opportunity to change myself and my world so that all life can be supported physically and practically in Equality, such as would happen if we all supported an Equal Money System.

A Special Christmas

Happiness, joy, love, peace, family, friends, good food, presents, shopping, relaxing, special feelings, joy joy joy!

Tis the season to be spiteful, Fa la la la la, la la la lah

Why is Christmas centered around consumerism? Is it really necessary for us to buy gifts for eachother so we can fulfill our holiday obligation, or so we can feel 'special' because we gave a gift to someone? Are we really 'special' when the money we use to buy gifts comes from a corrupt system? So the whole reason of why we think we are special is because we have money? Obviously then you cant be special if you don't have money. Hmmm

Do we realize that our temporary 'special' feelings are at the expense the life of the planet and our lives? Isn't fulfilling of Christmas obligations dishonest self-abuse?

There is no denying that the mass consumption of products is destroying the earth. Take a look at all the plastic packaging that ends up in the ocean. Of the gifts you give and receive this year, take an honest look at what percentage you actually need. 1 of 10? 0 of 10?

Christmas is the most elaborate scheme used as a justification for abuse of ourselves and our world. We think of Christmas and we have all kinds of special feelings yet we refuse to see the consequences of what we are doing by not standing up for life. I remember the excitement I used to feel around Christmas, there were fun times of sharing with friends, but the gift giving always felt strange and awkward, though I will not deny I enjoyed getting gifts.

Here I will insert a line of self-forgiveness... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel special because of giving to or receiving gifts from people

However I have come to realize that I didn't need 'gifts' from people. Why was my life not supported unconditionally? It appears that we are born into debt. Now I need to 'be a good boy' all year long obeying my parents form of morality trying to pay back my debt to them.. .WTF? Like worship Santa and my parents and family for being so kind and loving for giving me stuff. Oh thank you oh great and invisible Santa. Thou art so kind to choose me over the poor... please.

I realized that me being dependent on someone else to make me feel special is dishonest. I am not special, rather I am equal to everyone. No one is better than me, and I am no better than anyone. Its funny that people fear realizing their equality, 'omg... you mean I'm not special!?.. what, that would mean I'm just a nobody?' Equality means standing for life, as what is the best for everyone including yourself... no secrets, living for real instead of existing as robots enslaved in a system full of fake and insincere people.

Christmas is a good opportunity to investigate ourselves in this self-created religious ritual where we sacrifice ourselves for our false beliefs and selfish desires. Notice that while you can lie to yourself and make yourself believe it for a while, you cannot hide from yourself and will inevitably have no choice but to face yourself as who you have allowed yourself to become. Its time to stop the abuse of life by standing for equality and equal money for all. Here is a jingle exposing what Christmas is really all about...

Oh and btw, if anyone that tells you they love you this Christmas, they are doing it either out of obligation, or because they want to manipulate you into fear and false feeling of comfort, or because they fear having to face themselves and who they really are as equal.

Deck the halls to appear less frightful,

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Tis the season to be spiteful,

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Don we now our false appearance,

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Buy more junk because its on clearance,

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

See the raging war before us

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Rape the ocean chop the forest

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Follow god and his delusion

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Media spreading mass confusion

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Fast away the earth it passes,

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Hail the system ye lads and lasses

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Drown yourselves in alcohol,

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Heedless to the death of all,

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Will food be varied and available for all? What about rare and presently expensive foods only presently available for the rich?

Within our current greed and profit driven money system, food production and consumption is abused to the extreme. Billions of tonnes of food every year is completely wasted reflecting our selfish greed and failure to take responsibility for ourselves and our bodies.

The Equal Money System is the only solution that would make food available to everyone in a far more practical, efficient, healthy and trustworthy manner, that will virtually eliminate all this waste.

It has been estimated that up to 40-50% of food is wasted. Appalling considering there are approximately 1 BILLION people starving in our world today. I personally estimate the percentage to be quite higher around 60-70%.

Why should anyone starve if we produce enough food to feed our planet 12 times over? Is starvation then not murder? We are ALL murderers, because we allow it to exist in our world.

Take the example of how large corporations such as Monsanto have created a monopoly (abuse through manipulation of the legal system) on seeds within the farming industry. Seeds are now genetically engineered to expire. Ridiculous.

In an EMS, deceptive soda corporations will no longer be able to seduce consumers through mass advertising and selling products that are toxic poisons to our bodies. Food will be prepared in a way that will assist ones body, thus removing much of the harmful sugar, salt and other chemicals.

Factory farms are a living hell. Why do we allow this??? It is an appalling nightmare that we have refused to consider. Animals stuck in cages, unable to see sunlight for their entire lives and frequently tortured and abused by their keepers. Day and night they suffer EXTREME abuse because of a profit driven money system. Factory farming will be totally changed to a responsible respectful way of treating animals in an EMS.

The EMS will inevitably create much far more efficient ways of distributing food so that it is available to all equally. As we look at some of the practical points, example shipping foods to other countries when the foods can be grown and consumed locally is simple common sense. Removing the competition for profit factor will allow this to naturally occur, thus making distribution far more efficient. We can eliminate the marketing of food, so that it become a practical means of supporting what the body needs, thus further reducing unnecessary vocations that merely deceive and enslave us all.

In taking responsibility for our food, we will support our bodies eating deliciously prepared meals that will be available to all in a practical fashion. Food will be prepared by those who equally consider your health as opposed to making a profit off of foods that create disease in your body.

Those types of food which are considered delicacies are often attained through cruel and wasteful killing of animals for certain "special" parts such as bear gall bladders or shark fins. Often these foods are consumed for novelty or superstition that one believes it will make them healthier. If it causes unnecessary harm to any being on your planet, then such superstition is abusive and unacceptable.

We can also take the example of Alaskan king crab, where people risk their lives to catch these animals that sell for a handsome profit. It is likely that people will be less willing to risk their lives for such a delicacy within an EMS, as one will not be forced to do so because of an abusive money system and there will be less profit in it. It is likely that some will still wish to continue this profession merely for enjoyment, which is fine, but there will be less rush to do so, and therefore less danger, as it will not be for profit, but rather for equal, practical consumption.

Food will become a practical common sense tool for supporting our bodies, as it should be. So lets take responsibility for all aspects of ourselves and the food we eat by supporting an Equal Money System.