Day 113 – Dream – Condemned

I was standing outside in a parking area with trees, it was winter, and very cold.  There was a young man there, emphatically accusing me of some violation that he claimed I did.  I tried to speak to defend myself, but it was no use – no matter what I said, I knew there was absolutely nothing that I could say that would make the man consider, never mind convince him of my innocence.   His facial expression became very tense and defiant.  With closed eyes he continued raising his voice louder, yelling at me in condemnation.

The next scene was of a man in his 50’s.  He had a moustache and very stern face.  I could tell he was a very ‘cold’ person, and very set in his ways.  He did not even look at me directly, nor did he yell. He acted as if I did not exist, having the very same condemnation as the younger man.  I said nothing.  Just looking at him I could tell that In his mind I was guilty, and there was absolutely nothing that I could say that would change that, I was labelled… dead in the water, and he was going to make sure that I suffered for it. 
I returned to the scene with the younger man, as he continued to yell, a crowd formed behind him, everyone yelling in condemnation.   I felt completely helpless.

I see this dream as the nature of the system that we have created.  The consequence for what we have accepted and allowed through our ignorance and self-dishonesty.  It may have started with just a snowflake of self-dishonesty, but all the same, quietly and gently it has gathered itself and grown to become this massive consequence that is here.  The men were so resolute, showing me that the price has to be paid - until it is paid in full.  Self-forgiveness in no way lets us off the hook. We must change, face the consequences, and walk through them as living proof that we have changed, so that we never again allow such horrible consequences to play out, ever.  Self-forgiveness is the key to the door, but we have to open it and walk through it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to condemn myself, not realizing what I am doing to myself in ignorance and denial of myself here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a system that is absolutely negligent, and cruel beyond comprehension because it does not see itself for what it is, or realize the possibility of forgiveness and change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others in the past, where I have in ignorance and selfishness, pleaded my self-righteous judgments over that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that punishment and revenge is something ‘good’ will help us change or improve the quality of life on this planet.  I realize that punishment, judgement and condemnation do nothing to solve the problems we all face, but they actually bring us all more guilt, shame and suffering.

I commit myself to assist myself and others to realize that we can change ourselves through self-forgiveness and seeing, realizing and understanding that we can live as equals without any horrible consequences that need to be paid in the future.

I commit myself to assist myself and others in the realization that Equality is the only way in which we are able to stand together within one principle that supports all life Equally, without the need of punishment, revenge, judgement or condemnation.

I commit myself to working with the one group that stands for the Solution to Life, as changing ourselves to free ourselves from this hell of enslavement to ideas as energy addictions which only serve to punish ourselves in our own greed and self-interest. 

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Day 96 - Dream Reflection

Dream

I was on a couch beside a TV (not watching it) 'Person A' was sitting on a chair... I Asked Person A a question regarding breathing, Person A understood and interpreted my question as me wanting to be a portal - Person A appeared to grow increasingly attractive with a growing smile as if to convey a sense of certainty and urgency. I focused intently at her right eye (which appeared as a greenish color) in attempt to understand the message she was conveying. She informed me that "111 portals are needed to solve/save myself - we are currently at 14". There was a slight fear that came up with that knowledge. I was slightly disappointed with myself, and slightly jealous that I was not yet able to leave my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as pride as the desire to leave my body, existing within the desire to 'save myself' and 'save the world' and 'do good' when what I am actually doing is seeking to escape myself and the work that I need to do on myself here, as deleting my memories, stopping energy addictions, and directing my breath. I realize this desire is actually a fear of facing myself and changing myself to take responsibility and live within and as my physical body as what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself and be disappointed with myself within my process where I have created a fear of who I am, as not being able to take full responsibility for who I am and what I have created myself as - as existing within the mind of Pride/Ego/Vanity and Fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within the beauty system where I define myself and others as beautiful or ugly. I realize that desiring beauty is existing in and as fear of myself where I am seeking a positive energy experience and so seeking to avoid the negative energy experience. I realize that hiding from ugliness is defining myself in polarity based on personal opinion and thus denying myself as who I am here as the physical. All must be taken into consideration Equally as Equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within desiring to have more knowledge of life, as if knowledge of Life would save me from myself, when knowledge is not Life. I realize this is a manifestation of the Fear of not being able to become Life myself - this rather than apply myself and push myself to realize myself in each moment HERE, through breathing and deleting memories as they come up with self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I do not have enough value - as a statistic based on knowledge - to be Life. I realize that this is a false perception within my mind which keeps me in an imaginary character of myself as the mind, which is preventing me from realizing myself and becoming the directive principle of myself as my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the act of Smiling as a stimulation and in so created the simulation of life which can only function through the stimulus of mind/energy as polarity - rather than actually living as Self-directed Equals in common sense.

I commit myself to face myself as the dimensions of myself which I have created in trying to escape myself in order that I may align myself with Equality as what is best for all through stopping my mind as memories and desires/fears.

I commit myself to walk myself out of the dimensions I have created for myself so that I can live as a physical being here in applying myself to realize myself here as an Equal in every way.

I commit myself to realize that in order for me to pass through 'the eye of the needle', I must take full responsibility for who I am and all that I have created and all that I will create in the past so that all align with the principle of Equality as Best for All.

I commit myself to make breathing with myself as the director - a habit in which I am constantly pushing myself to be aware of every breath until the mind has no power over me to enslave me to a program.

I commit myself to transform myself into a person that actually cares about life for real, so much so that I become the living expression of what is best for all in every way. 

I commit myself to realize that Desteni is the only group of human beings that are actually working on a solution that would actually SOLVE every problem in the world without creating any new problems. 

I commit myself to realize that dreams are an illusion created through consciousness as a reflection of who I am as the physical, and in so dreams are able to assist me solely for the purpose of stopping my selfish desires and fears so that I can take responsibility for myself as birthing myself as Life in the physical.  

I delete the memory of the dream  

Day 20 - What would you do with a Million Dollars?

What images flashed in your head?

Would you explore the world, entertain and be entertained, buy expensive gifts for yourself and others? Would you use all your free time doing things that you enjoy, and so leverage your time to gain fame, recognition, or even more wealth!?  

Most people desire money, because in this current world system, money can buy virtually any desire we have... even love!  Look at the point - If you have money, not only can you survive, but you will have access to all the necessities and luxuries to support your life.  Additionally, you can live a clean, rich and healthy lifestyle, with lots of free time, free from life threatening stresses many without money face in our world daily.  Many people will want to be around you (especially members of the opposite sex) because you have lots of money, even if you are an ass, its really not that hard to put on a fake face and act out a likeable personality - just look around you, everyone is doing it, everyone is a faker for money.  Rather disgusting isn't it.

Oh but you're not a faker you say?   Really?  Take a moment to ask yourself if you have any personal desires such as money, happiness, friends, career, home, travel.

Do you realize that every one of your desires is actually a FEAR in disguise?

Yes, interestingly your desires are not real in fact, because you are living in denial of yourself and supporting your fears, and fear is not real - it is self-deception. 

Money not only changes who you are, but actually DICTATES who you are.  In fact, you are not true to who you really are because of money.  Money - as the manifestation of greed and self-interest - rules this world. It is utterly corrupt and abused, and since we are all subject to money, we too are greedy and corrupted, and so it ruins our lives.  Only we do not see to what extent it does so, because we have been programmed to accept the system as 'just the way it is' and 'unchangeable'.  The truth is, we only accept it as unchangeable because we do not desire to change ourselves - because we see no money in it for us!!

And so the program runs in a loop.  We program our children to be better than others so they can win and get money.  Our children then succumb to personal desires and abuse money in self-interest and fear for their survival.  Through those desires they then accept the system as unchangeable and so fear changing themselves... and so the cycle of abuse continues.  

There is only ONE desire that is not fear based, and that is EQUALITY.  Within Equality and an Equal Money System where everyone's needs are met, we can stop fear and self-interest entirely. We can change ourselves to stop abuse and corruption, and live in the best interest of all.

There is no excuse to live in fear and denial of ourselves.  No excuse for being a faker.  We all reap the consequences if we allow greed and selfish desires to persist.  This leaves only one question: 

Will you stand for all Life within Equality, and support an Equal Money System, or will you try to hide in your selfishness.   My challenge to you is to see past your ego and fears, to stop being a faker and investigate Desteni and Equal Money.