Day 155 - I Do Not Respect Your Beliefs!

Why should anyone have Secret Beliefs?  If someone has a Personal Belief about something, then there should be no fear in allowing open debate on the topic so that we can come to an agreement and remove the exact point of delusion.  This is Common Sense.  If I 'Respect your Beliefs', that is like me saying "I don't care what you think!".   The point is I do care - I care about All Life - That is why I Do Not Respect Anyone's Personal Secret Mind Beliefs, Opinions or Interpretations About physical Life - I Respect Life, as the Equal force that is in All things represented within and as the Physical Reality we all Share.  This can, and must be cross referenced so that we can Agree on what is real and what is not real.

Example being, the Ego/Mind, it is not real in the sense that it does not exist as a physical object that can be touched.  It is composed of made up ideas placed as limitations and definitions of the physical reality so that people may create pictures in their head of all kinds of deluded beliefs and opinions - and use such beliefs to spitefully seek to gain control or take advantage of others through manipulation.  This spitefulness is no longer acceptable, and will not stand as Life.

Why should I place Value as Respect, on your Beliefs?  That is exactly what one is asking when they say - "Please Respect My Beliefs" - Please Value my Secret Ego Mind.

Why should Your 'Beliefs' or 'Opinions' hold any Value?  What is the value anyway, in terms of money, I mean it must be worth something to you?  I'm certain if I offered enough money, anyone would eventually succumb to the temptation and 'spill the beans' for cash.  It happens all the time, as that is how Family and Religion functions, by conquering an individual mind through labeling the 'secret mind' as 'sinful', and then force-feeding a person the fear of Hell.  Then of course comes the Prozac, as the polarized Love of God, or the Parent, that apparently saves the child from their new fear of Hell Belief, so that they can in turn create many other positive beliefs in their mind about heaven, and God, and how they will imagine a perfect, happily-ever-after Life... Just keep the faith by your offering plate donation and continuing to support the family delusion.  Completely Mind fucked, and unable to realize the Equality of Life in the Physical reality.

What exactly makes you Believe you have the 'right' to hold Secret Beliefs about others and the universe in your head - when you exist in a shared physical reality, where thoughts, as energy, produce shared consequences?

I can understand a person not being ready to expose every detail of their life in a short period of time, but it must be dealt with sooner or later, as there is a deadline. It is especially curious when it comes to matters of economics and social policy, strange indeed that one would choose to refrain from open discussion. Why would anyone fear having your Beliefs exposed? What is the point? If they aren't real, then simply drop them and find out what is real.

Interesting how this line is handed out anytime someone feels that their 'beliefs' are being threatened, or they are unable to confront or assess what you are saying, never mind properly formulate an accurate response to what it is you are suggesting.  People, here's a tip... No one is more wise or intelligent than anyone else, so just be honest.  Just say "I don't understand, can you explain in simple terms for me?"

What is overlooked and condescendingly insinuated by someone who claims (in the typical manner) "I Respect your Beliefs...  I wish that you would please Respect mine." ???  As if one were to offer a trade of compromises... lol.

What is a person implying when they say 'Respect my beliefs'?

Respect - 'Stay away' 'do not go there' 'do not challenge my intelligence' or 'how dare you suggest that my beliefs are selfish fantasies of my mind!'

That is exactly what beliefs are - fantasies.  So un-garde, show yourself, and expose your Beliefs so they can all be shattered for the illusions that they are, because we all know that ill-usions, or BeLIEfs, do not serve the Best interest of All Life.

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Day 19 - The Trap

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to miss any opportunity within my breathing and life experience here on this planet to push myself/change/direct and manifest Equality in all ways so that I stand in every way as a living example of what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give in to fears, uncertainty and neglect as blindfolds and chains within my world and reality, where deliberate self-deception has been accepted as 'normal' and 'justifiable' and 'legal' thus inducing harm upon ourselves and preventing ourselves from seeing who we really are as Equal - as realizing ourselves as Equals we would free ourselves of all harm and enslavement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that 'there is no consequence' for the abdication and denial of individual responsibility and common sense, as each individual being responsible for the well being of ALL within considering all Life Equally.  

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deliberately scheme and configure plans to dominate, subvert and conquer my neighbor in perceiving 'them' as my enemy, all the while I was merely laying a trap to dominate, subvert and conquer myself and thus enslaving myself and all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deny that I have fallen for the trap that I laid for myself through my deliberate denial of considering all life Equally within the decisions I have made in the past, where I was aware - as all is aware - of the deception and denial of self-as-all within seeking only personal glorification as greed/selfishness/self-interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deceive myself to the extent that my only option left was to lead myself into my own trap so that I could see and face the result and consequences of my actions/in-actions through pain and suffering of all as myself - and so bring myself to the brink of annihilation in reaping what I have shamefully sown for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to permit shame, fear and guilt to stop me from facing myself and correcting myself through a process of change within applying self-forgiveness.  I realize that within doing so, I am able to assist myself and others to stop the abuse that is existing in our world through denial of facing the trap we are all in.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deny that there is only ONE way out of this trap of self-deception - that being individual self-honesty, self-forgiveness and self-correction where all may come to the ultimate realization that NONE are free until ALL are free.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit and con myself into the con of consciousness which I believed and perceived to be a valid replacement for awareness as breath - within doing so I was denying the actuality of myself being Equal to All existence through the belief that I am separate and there is some 'higher power' that is guiding all of existence and taking responsibility for my dishonesty with myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trick myself into my own trap through the illusion of fantasy, enchantment, ethereal love, light, and mystery as perceiving those to be the source of life, when in fact they were illusions as disguised fear which has lead me and all to the very precipice of existence, to come face to face with the ultimate question that will decide who we are - Will we stand as Life as Equality or not?



Artwork by Jason Zuckerman

Will you look into the Mirror?

When I was a child, I recall there was much anxiety and conflict within me, but I did not know how to express it, nor understand it. This continued throughout my childhood experience with interactions with friends, family, teachers and so on. So I ended up suppressing myself for a number of years. I could describe it now as a kind of despair combined with many fears and angers of all kinds. It was as if I was screaming inside and no-one could hear me or even wanted to listen, let alone help.

Then in my early teens, I began having strong desires, expecting that one day I would be free from all the oppressive despair and fear I felt. I fantasized of meeting the girl of my dreams and getting married, of being a hero whom everyone admired, dreams of having lots of fun with friends. I longed to be free, to be able to make decisions for myself... that I thought was real freedom, as I carried a deep hatred for the world. Yet my idea of freedom was not real.

One thing that I really longed for, was adventure. I remember having the book 'The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe' by C.S.Lewis read to me. This book totally captivated me to the extent that I actually wanted to trade my life to live in such a fantasy world. I admittedly walked into a closet one day, hoping I would be transported to that world. Lol.

In my early 20's, I read 'The Lord of The Rings' by J.R.Tolkien. That book completely enchanted me. It was so magical and wondrous... full of adventure and things to explore. There was a quest, a purpose. The difference between good and evil was clear, as was what had to be done. This highlighted the desires, and conflicts within me. I used the characters of this book as an allegory or parallel for my life. Which character was I?... And at what part in the story? Sometimes I was Frodo, sometimes Gandalf, and sometimes Aragorn. Interestingly, I never saw the Gollum, Saruman, or Sauron within me... until recently.

As I began to get older and followed religion, I thought heaven could be the escape I was looking for. Sadly and naively, I was just hoping and wishing, tossing myself like a coin into a fountain.

As the system of the world began to take over my life, the enchantment began to fade, as I slowly began to realize that there is no magical land, no enchanting place to escape, no heaven out there somewhere. No Gandalf to guide me. No friend like Aragorn. No true companion like Sam. The reality of the cruel, mundane, slave-world I existed in overpowered me.

Sure there were temporary escapes, like camping, music and playing games like 'World of Warcraft' and movies like 'Legend' and 'The Never Ending Story' to pacify my imagination while playing in the Shire. But there was nothing that was in any way a real experience even mildly comparable to what I had imagined. Friends became distant and unreliable, family, it became obvious, was a big lie.

Long and hard i pondered... why was the world like this? Why are we so dead, when we could have so easily created a world like middle-earth, full of fun, awe and adventure? Why did I allow myself to exist like this? To live in a world of mind-numbing drudgery, slave-labor, cold-hard roads leading only to bland rectangle office buildings and cookie-cutter square houses as jails, built to hide from ourselves, because we fear what others think of us.

Just like in our minds, where we hide in our definitions, degrees, titles and personalities. I guess we just give up on ourselves and figure there is no choice, but bow to all this nonsense. We might as well be comfortable if we are going to die anyway? Seems somewhat pathetic and ironic that we try to be comfortable in a dog-eat-dog world full of greed, spite and cruelty.

As I sit here typing this, it has occurred to me that I have allowed my dreams to be crushed. Anger, resentment and sadness... all useless... none of which are going to change who we are. It is all spiteful. Those who claim to be 'happy'... just as with those who claim to be in love. Please. The biggest farce in the universe. Go ahead and put on that big SM-LIE, you will see your own revolting disguise eventually, but likely by then it will be too late. You have never lived! You have never been real! You have never even seen yourself for who you really are! How can you be so ignorant as to claim to be happy or in love?

There is some relief in expressing this to myself and whomever. At least I have finally realized who I am as equality, and at least I am applying myself in learning to take responsibility for what I have allowed. This machine-driven world is a joke... a cruel joke at that, and one which has to be stopped, without question. One which I will no longer accept. It is empty of life... an absolute sickening, disgusting lie, founded in deception.

So I have looked into the mirror of Galadriel, I have seen the 'I' and therefore, I must face the long, dark halls of Moria, and take the road to Mordor. The ring of power and control has to be destroyed in the face of our mount-ing doom. Have you looked into the mirror? Have you seen it?

The Destonians shall be the fellowship.

Our mission is clear, as we have but one choice... that all rings of power as relationships of spitefulness, deception and abuse be un-made forever, so that life may become real and true and unconditional for all, here, in equality.

What will you do with the one ring?