Day 60 - Times and Seasons

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be subject to energy fluctuations based on the time of day.  I realize that consciousness attempts to dictate my moods and feelings based on the programmed idea of how I should feel like at certain times of the day. My physical body has no preference for time of day, therefore any preference such as 'morning person' or 'night owl' is of the mind.  I realize that any time of day is equal in nature and there are no moods connected and determined by time of day by my physical body.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be subject to energy fluctuations based on the day of the week.  My physical body does not function by the day of the week, but supports me unconditionally as it supports itself to be here in the present moment as the physical expression of me.  Therefore I am not limited to feeling the ups and downs based on the day of the week.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be subject to energy fluctuations based on the seasons or the time of the year.  I realize that while my physical body may feel more comfortable in warm temperatures as opposed to cold, I am equally able to express myself within cold temperatures as well as warm. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be influenced and controlled by feelings based on traditional holidays and celebrations.  I realize that my physical body has no preference for any mind created idea of separation wherein a 'holiday' is created.  All days are equally here as I am here as my physical body.  I direct myself to express myself without having or allowing myself to be directed and controlled by a system of beliefs which seek to determine my moods (as doom) and expression - that would be self-deception.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that any day that I am here, I am able to express myself in supporting all life equally.  Through supporting all life as what is best for all, I am supporting myself and bringing myself back to the starting point of myself so that life can be born from the physical as actual real expression of self - not controlled by a system of beliefs and deception.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in celebrations.  I realize that while my world as me is in tremendous agony - celebration is inconsideration and spiteful towards myself as my world.  How can I celebrate the suffering of billions of people, animals, plants and the entirety of existence?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create times and seasons in separation of myself as the physical.  In doing so I have attempted to understand myself within a definition of myself in separation, when I am here and I have been here all along.  I do not need a definition of myself to exist, as that only diminishes me.  All I need is for me to be honest with myself and to live as Equal to all as what is best for all in all ways always, and I will realize myself and birth myself as life here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value on times and seasons and holy-days out of fear of facing and expressing myself.  I realize that all I have to do to realize myself is to take responsibility to face my fears in self-honesty, and if I find I am not being honest with myself, I simply forgive myself, and change myself to live as an Equal in every way.  Living in self-interest is HELL, and I hate it through and through.

I commit myself to direct myself in every moment, as each moment being equal - no time separation.

I commit myself to mess with the system through getting up in the middle of the night and waking someone up... just for the fuck of it.

I commit myself to being equal to my physical body in every way, directing myself in what is here, and changing whatever needs to be changed to align with what is best for all in all ways.

I commit myself to realize that I am the directive principle of myself here, and in so I direct all life as me in what is best for all

I commit myself to expose the deception of the system which has enslaved

I commit myself to take responsibility to express myself as here, as birthing myself in the physical.

I commit myself to assisting everyone I meet, because naturally, if my only reason for living is equality, as what is best for all, every thing I do and say will be directed to support life as Equality until it is done, and no more ignorance, fear or senseless suffering exists within me as my world.

Artwork by hibbary
http://hibbary.deviantart.com/art/Four-Seasons-82254728

Day 15 - Each Moment is New

The Past is Passed - Dead - as no longer existing within the physical reality, but only in our minds as pictures (non physical).  There is only the consequences of the past here, and what we choose to create ourselves as in the future.  If all of humanity simply let go of the past - as knowledge and pre conceived ideas - and lived what is best for all, we could end all enslavement completely.  Self forgiveness is the antidote and Self realization is the cure to the evil or re-cycling the past.

Each moment is new.  New moment... New moment... New moment.   Unlike Christianity, where one is only 'born (rather dead) again' once.  In Equality as Self realization one is able to rebirth oneself in each moment as changing and becoming the living expression of what is best for all. Self realization is to see that we are equal as the physical, yet we only torture ourselves because we fear taking responsibility to face ourselves as who we are and allowed ourselves to become.

Each moment carries with it opportunity to transcend our enslavement to systems/cycles of the past.   And if we choose what is best for all in each moment, we resonate that decision to others and in so assist all humanity and existence, no mater how small or seemingly insignificant the decision. 

For example, today I was very tired and had a headache.  As I was working, thoughts and feelings of frustration came up within me, so I applied self-forgiveness to stop myself from creating them.  I could feel frustration as energy within my physical body, yet I did not yield to it, as to allow it to influence and control me.  If I had done so, I would have resonated that to the customer, and so he too would have resonated a similar emotion in reaction to my frustration.  Additionally, I could have possibly lost work with him in the future as well as the job with the neighbor across the street. 

It is to consider all existence in all of our decision making, because all life is here.  Just because we do not see it with our physical eyes, does not mean that it does not exist.  It is as if we have laid a trap for ourselves, and when we do not consider everything as ourselves, we have fallen into our own trap through only considering what we see with our eyes. 

If everyone considered all life in every decision, all decisions would be made in the best interest of all as opposed to self-interest, fear and greed. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fall for my own trap in believing that I am only responsible for making decisions that support myself as opposed to decisions that support all life.

 I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deceive myself in thinking that my decisions only affect myself and not others as well. In so, I realize that each decision matters in how I accept and allow myself to exist as someone who supports all life, or someone who only supports fear of facing who I am as the physical.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take sides as polarized ideas of winning/losing in attempting to gain power over others so I can soothe my fears rather than get to the root of the issue and stop fears and delusions entirely. 

I de-side to stand for all life, in no longer taking sides and giving my fear and self-interest the 'choice' to make decisions, but I always choose what is best for all life in every way so that I no longer have a choice. 

I choose Life.  

The above pictures are the vegetables I am growing this year.  Zucchini, radish, onion, spinach, beans and tomato.