7yr Journey to Life - Day 11 - My Physical Body

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be uncaring within my life experience where my physical body was screaming to me as pain that something was wrong - and so I would just suck up the pain in the belief that I was tough and that everyone else was able to 'tough out' the pains of existence and that it did not really mean anything.  In that I realize my dishonesty within suppressing myself - and so I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if I would express myself as the physical as pain that others would think that I was a wimp that couldn't handle it. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ignore the fact that physical pain in and throughout my physical body is a manifestation of me as what I have accepted and allowed within my existence as fear of death, pain and suffering due to separation from the physical.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deceive myself within not considering and fully understanding why I was experiencing physical pain in my body, and in that not realizing that my physical body was communicating to me what I was doing to myself and how I was being dishonest with myself as not standing Equal and one as the physical - where if we were standing Equal to ourselves as the physical as Life, pain would not be necessary, nor death.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lose communication ability with my physical body as myself as the physical where at times I am uncertain as to what my physical body is telling me and what is specifically required by my physical body in order for me to assist and support it in supporting me as supporting life as Equality and what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to put extra strains on my physical body as a cruel tyrant god who brutally forces his slaves to work harder, faster and longer in grueling conditions.  A tyrant god who does not consider the fact that he/she is supported by the existence of all.  A tyrant god who believes he/she is better than the rest of existence in the delusional conscious state of mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to push my physical body to a point of exhaustion because I have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled by fear of not having enough money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to push my physical body to a point of exhaustion, suffering and pain because I accepted and allowed myself to be controlled by fear of death, and fear of losing status and/or reputation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blind myself to the fact that my physical body is me as my opportunity to express myself in becoming life as the living example of what is best for all, and in so, I have a limited time-frame and window of opportunity in which I am able to correct myself, change myself, change my words and change my actions into an expression that supports all life Equally in and as each breath here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deceive myself through following after delusions and pictures programmed and created in my mind whereby I have allowed myself to become deluded by false ideas of who I am and who I should be based on a system of enslavement that in no way supports life, but only supports destructive self-interest.  In so, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to punish my physical body in an act of submission to false gods and false beliefs whereby I allowed myself to be led astray as a scared and lost sheep, and so sought revenge against those whom I blamed, neglecting the fact that I allowed all of this to happen because I accepted spitefulness to become real within me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ignore the impact of spitefulness on my physical body to the minute detail, wherein I have accepted and allowed energetic charges to shock my physical body into submission through me accepting and allowing thoughts/feelings/and emotions as fears and memories and pictures that are not physically here as me, but energy based systems of enslavement. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away as my expression/physical body to desires for feelings that are not what is best for all in all ways, but only serve self-interest and subject to fluctuating and deceptive moods of the mind.

I commit myself to stand in and as my physical body in supporting myself as becoming life as what is best for all.

I commit myself to stand and attend to the needs of my physical body in open communication in caring for my physical body

I commit myself to stand in complete union with my physical body where I no longer accept and allow myself to be deluded by thought, feelings and emotions as temporary energetic experiences that only serve to destroy my physical body

I commit myself to stand and embrace my physical body as my unconditional expression so that together we may serve only that which serves life as what is best for all in every way.

I commit myself to stand and no longer give my power away to delusions of spitefulness, fear, and false desires which are subject to the limitation of time. 

7yr Journey to Life - Day 10 - Cowards

If I were God, the first plan of action in fixing this grand delusional existence of mine and establishing Life as Equality - as any real God would do - would not be to go after the deliberate self-deceivers, no.  I would leave them till the end.  The first item on the agenda would be to flesh out all the cowards.

After all, it is the cowards who secretly support the delusion.  The last thing I would want in the perfection of life is a coward. A coward is someone who is not only riddled with fear, but is so fearful that they are willing to disguise themselves as 'good' at the expense of others.   I would create a plan to trap and expose all cowards in their own shame so they could have a real, close look at themselves.  Once they have seen what they exist as, then it would be plain for all to see whether they are willing to self forgive and stand for Life, or not.

It is simple to spot a coward, as a coward is one who cowers behind something for protection, safety and cover.  They are ruled by fear, and fear is a system just like any machine with buttons, knobs and switches.  Flick the switch and you get a reaction.  So really, one just has to mention Equality or Equal Money for All.  Most cowards will 'cleverly' (a very, very loose term) try to hide their reactions so as not to be exposed.  Not to worry, all is being exposed.  If there is no reaction at all, then the machine is essentially broken.  The person has either found their courage and supports Life as Equality, or is a complete zombie - as the living dead. If there is a strong reaction, then the fear machine is fully in control and needs deprogramming.

Cowards willingly punish themselves.  They learned how to do that from their pay-rents of course.  What more evidence do we need that we do not live when we have pay-rents?  Do we exist simply to pay the rent?  Do we merely rent our existence?

The secret mind of a delusional coward. 

"Oh how I Love and Adore thee oh Great and Powerful Paper God of Existence!!!  How canst I manipulate, and multiply thine digital lights of thine Great, and Powerful Bank Machine??  Canst thou re-calculate for me?  Or shall I endure more pain and suffering in thine honor?  I will magnify thine Great and Holy Deception, if thou but leverage mine comforts with the suffering of others!

Oh Praise be to you, Omnipotent MoneyGod!! Thou savest me from myself!  Thou has brought to me riches and sweet fruits of Irresponsibility, Revenge and Blame!  I serve thee only.  I give my life for thee!!! Thine salvation is as the nectar of blood!  It is because of Thou that I exist!! I cannot live without thee!  Thine system of enslavement is perfection!  Thine hand smiteth all those that do not serve thee with Lies!  Thou uplifteth those who nuzzle and kisseth thine fattened, paper buttocks!"               

Cowards have no place in Life

    

7yr Journey to Life - Day 9 - The Final War

War is here.  Like it or not. 

There are countless wars currently going on in our world, however, there is only one war worthy to be fought.  That is the war for life - As Equality.  It is to completely eliminate all that does not stand for life as what is best for all.  All other wars are fought for selfishness, greed and fear.

It is a proven fact throughout history.  Humans cannot be trusted.   All we have ever sought is self-interest, and the desire for power and control.  Even those who appeared to be 'good' were fighting secret wars within themselves and so deceived.  We have never had a solution to the problem - until now.  The only thing that can be trusted is the principle of Equality as what is best for all, because that is the only way life can and will come into being in a way that will end all wars, self-interest, and the illusion of separation forever.

So who then stands worthy to fight this war?  Who has seen into the heart of themselves and discovered the resident evil as consciousness and self-interest there?  Who has gone so far as to remove it entirely so what remains is only the desire for life as absolute Equality?  Due to the separation we have all created, the only way to tell if a man or woman is true is by their words, their writing, their work and their actions as a living example.

So ask yourself, have you seen the utmost inner nature of existence and cleansed yourself of all evil desires as self interest?  Are you able to direct yourself as life here as what is best for all in all ways?  The actuality of the situation is that we all need help at some point in getting to the truth of ourselves and dislodging the delusions.  No one can do it alone, after all, that's what Equality is - a group effort in the birthing of life for the first time ever in the history of existence.  Life has not yet ever existed. Quite the adventure I must say.

So who then will stand when the truth of Equality gains inevitable widespread acceptance?  Who will stand equal to and as life, as the absolute principle of what is best for all? Who will have the courage to face their inner demons, expose them, and subject themselves to unconditional self-forgiveness until it is done?   Who will succumb to the will of evil as selfish desire and fear of self?  Will be interesting to see.

It is time for the fight of your life. 

Choose your side, because only cowards sit on the fence or hide in the shadows.

7yr Journey to Life Day 8 - Down with Charity

Down with Charity

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create charity as a false replacement for self-responsibility

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give to charity through my words where I am attempting to help others to realizing themselves as life, and so foolishly neglecting and prolonging my process

As if I feared you would not see.

You will see.


Down with false images

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create an image of myself in my mind and so not see for real who I am as this world and reality

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place the image of me in my mind above other images and above the physical

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create false desires based on my false image of myself, and in doing so I was not able to see that my one true desire - Becoming Life as Equal - was being neglected

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the absolute inevitability of self-realization as Equal to and one with the physical


Down with false gods

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to bow to the false god of consciousness and so allow it to be the director of me because I believed this personality was me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to submit to false gods through acts of compromising myself and my words in fear of survival

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to bow to limitation and accept it as real


Down with false rewards

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power away to energetic experience for a selfish and temporary false reward

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ignore the only path to my one true desire because I thought it to be unreachable

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to delude myself whereby I blinded myself to who I really am as equal to all as the physical

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I am too weak to direct every breath in taking responsibility to become life as Equal

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am too small and insignificant to change my world and my reality

There is only one reward that is real.

7yr Journey To Life Day 7 - Every Day Has a Point

I described the weather as "perfect" for work today when prompted by the old man as he mentioned something about the day. I immediately caught myself - there is no such thing as perfection besides that which supports life equally in all ways.  All days are Equal as the passage of time as opportunity to become life.

The weather was warm with overcast and a slight drizzle - a gray day, from the perspective of the mind it was 'dreary'.  However every day has a point of transcendence in it.  A part of ourselves that we are manifesting that must be unraveled and forgiven.

As I thought of what to write about today, nothing came to mind.  The work was so dreary and every moment felt like drudgery.  Had I missed the point?  I fell asleep in my chair after I ate supper and woke up a couple hours later.  I quickly glanced at the clock "shit, did I miss my opportunity to blog for today?"  It was 11:06... cool, I have time.

As I came back to my awareness I was doing self-forgiveness in my head.  I went to grab a few bites to eat and the point of the day clearly popped into my head.

Throughout the day I was trying to remain aware of my mind.  Everything seemed blah, blech. This slavery really sucks.  What is the point?  I should just give up.  I kept working away as a butterfly swooped right into my face and freaked me out a bit.  That brought a little smile to my face which quickly faded.

The old man would come and inspect what I was doing from time to time.  I tried to ignore him as much as possible.  He was so inconsiderate of how much work I was doing and how much effort I put into the job.  All he cared about was his own ideas of how the job should go and how much money he could save on the project, despite how much money I had already saved them. 

I spoke with his son with whom I had also arranged to do the job for.  He seemed open and I was able to share some perspectives on Equality and Equal Money with him, yet it was apparent he was not interested beyond understanding any further as soon as the fear took hold of him.

At the end of the day I was carrying my tools back to my truck as I walked back and forth past the ever watchful old man.  I did not want to speak with him as I had already argued with him in my head and made every effort to stop it.

And now it has finally occurred to me, at the end of this day.  The watcher... the complaining old man - is me.  It is the manifestation of my conscious mind as 'the watcher'.  Waiting for any opportunity to pounce on a point, and file a complaint.  Any opportunity to isolate and condemn me.  The judge that has nothing else to do but nit pick and make himself out to be better than me.  Always watching, waiting for any foul up or mistake so he can feed off my guilt.  That is what the system does - feeds on guilt.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to subject myself to the judgements of the watcher as my conscious mind in attempt to isolate and condemn myself as life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blind myself to the presence of the watcher, not realizing that the watcher is me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to complain about any aspect of my life without realizing that this is what I have created and so it is my opportunity to transcend and stop the illusion of myself within my physical interaction in the world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blind myself to who I really am as life as equal and one with my world and my reality which is shared by many other beings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear facing myself and my self created consequences and in so create a constant watcher as my mind in separation of myself which is constantly waiting to sabotage me through my accepted and allowed fears and illusions as guilt.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget that every day - no matter how bleak -  has a point wherein I have an opportunity to transcend and stand equal and one as breath here.


    

7yr Journey to Life Day 6 - No Mercy

Here I find myself existing within my own self created system, virtually powerless and enslaved to those who hold the power - as money - to change the world.  It is quite ironic how comparatively little money it would actually take to change the world now that the solution is here.  All we need is for people to understand it.  And it is not hard to understand, it is common sense, even a child could understand. 

So why don't people - adults - understand?  They do not want to change.  Adults are consumed by fear.  The fear of facing themselves as who they really are.  Consumed by their fears they prefer to harbor greed, shame, personal comforts, and desire for power.  It's an inside joke - you are already exposed. Surely many have heard of self-forgiveness by now, Desteni has preached it for years... yet strangely it is feared like some kind of disease.

There is no mercy for those who deliberately refuse self-responsibility
There is no mercy for those who fear themselves
There is no mercy for those who fear self-forgiveness
There is no mercy for those who deliberately choose self interest over life
There is no mercy to be found anywhere in the universe for those who refuse to live as equals

Those that do not desire to support life, desire death, and should one choose to continue on that path, one will have ones desire.  Non-existence.  That is what you chose, that is what you worked for, that is what you wanted, wished and prayed for all your life, as self-dishonesty.


Time to face up.

Time to pay up

Time to get real. 

Time's up. 

7yr Journey to Life Day 5–Resolve and Support

 

I have created a hard road for myself through not taking into consideration the future consequences of my actions. This because I did not realize myself as Equal to and one with my world and my reality. Sometimes a hard road can strengthen our resolve.  I committed myself to life a number of years ago, yet there have been times when I lost my perspective.  I allowed myself to get lost in the fog of my mind through inconsideration, and so found myself again in the bitter swamps of sorrow.

 

The question came up “what is there to live for?”.  The best answer I can see is Sharing. Absolute Sharing.  But sharing with those who do not appreciate or consider Equality is like giving CPR to a dead fish.   How many dead fish do I have to kiss here???

 

Now I see the critical importance of being aware of all consequential outflows so that I may only create that which supports myself as life in all ways. In doing so I work myself out of undesirable consequence and towards serving only that which supports life as equality.

 

The deck I am building turned out to be ‘wobbly’.  It had four strong 6x6 posts built on cement footings which is more than enough to support the structure, however they still allowed for horizontal movement.  So I had to brace the four posts with 60 degree support posts that went into the ground embedded in concrete to solve the problem.  Lesson being the strongest post is still weak without support.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard consequential outflows of what I create through my active participation in my world.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be inconsiderate in thinking that I can do everything on my own as a hero/saviour.  I realize I need support as I support others in supporting life.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try and bring dead fish to life.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blind myself with the illusion that life does not care about me or what I do.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fuel despair with thoughts feelings and emotions in attempting to bring myself temporary comfort through the use of my mind instead of creating myself here as life as equal to and one with the physical.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to sabotage myself as life through the illusions of fearful consequences, not realizing that I am able to take responsibility in every moment and thus move myself and work to create life as infinite possibility without limitation as the enslavement to mind systems.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blind myself to the support of the physical elements through participation in mind thoughts and ideas based on pre-programmed opinion and self-interested belief.

 

I am the physical, thus I direct myself as it and move in all ways to support myself as life as what is best for all in each breath.