Day 209

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be specific enough with myself - as I acted on an idea I had, yet it did not materialize because I did not fully consider how to apply it, laying out each step in specificity before I went ahead with it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed and controlled by the mind as the feeling of tiredness when I begin to write self forgiveness statements.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed and controlled by the positively charged energetic feeling of relief as having completed a long and arduous task, and so within that allow my mind to seek another positive experience of myself as a reward.  In that, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to - when I catch my mind wandering in search of the comfort of positive energy - attempt to blame myself rather than immediately apply self forgiveness and corrective application on the spot/point.  Within that,  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that me - seeing the starting point/corresponding consequence - and thus stopping the thought is sufficient - when in fact I must fully address each point through self forgiveness and self-correction, so that I am fully here within complete awareness and responsibility to myself and my commitment to stand in each breath as Life as what is best for all.  Me desiring/wanting a reward of comfort or relief does not relieve or solve the deception and suffering that exists in this world.

Feeling of tiredness persisted - took a walk outside and it has passed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and do too much and over step my practical responsibilities/alignment points in the belief that I can do everything by myself.  In that,  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed and controlled by the feeling of guilt for not having been as effective as possible in the past.

I commit myself to continue to push my resistances of consistently establishing and directing my breath - as the trap I have set to catch my mind before consequence is created.

I commit myself to be specific with planning my days so that I do not allow any points of justification to hide beneath good ideas or good intentions.

I commit myself  to fully realize that while my body must rest - to 'rest' as who I am is to abdicate myself to the control of the mind - is unacceptable.   I must breathe every breath as me, and stand Equal to the physical as all that is here.

Within that I realize that the times which seem more difficult to direct my breathing (typically between noon and 4pm) it is essential that I push myself specifically during these times so as to maintain consistency and continuity of my application.

Day 181 - What is Accomplished

ac·com·plish·ment (-kmplsh-mnt)

n.

1. The act of accomplishing or the state of being accomplished; completion.

2. Something completed successfully; an achievement.

3. An acquired skill or expertise: a singer known for his accomplishment in vocal technique.

4. Social poise and grace.

What have we accomplished, if we have not stood Equal to Life?

What is completed, if our world is being destroyed?

What is achieved, if Life is sacrificed?

What is a reward, if Life is not realized?

What is success, within the delusion of separation?

What is greatness, if it cannot be given?

What is power, if it is used solely to harm and abuse?

What is wealth, when all it creates is poverty?

What is the purpose of status, but to keep us divided?

What is the value of skill, when it kills self-expression and limits expansion?

What is the value of love, if it stems from fear and spite?

What is security, but a feeble attempt to prolong the inevitable?

What is the value of beauty, when it is subject to changing opinion?

What is worthy of celebration, when all is enslaved?

What is worthy of honor, when all is a disgrace?

What is the value of truth, when it is based in a lie?

What is the value of money, when it promotes greed, war, and destruction?

What is the value of knowledge, when it creates the illusion of superiority?

What is the value of understanding, if it is not actualized?

What is the value of authority, when it serves and protects deception?

What is the value of justice, when laws are subject to interpretation, wealth, and false morality?

Life, in Equality, is the only real value. Until we change and truly stand for Life as Equals, we will face the growing product and consequence of all our false attributions and valuations, which is cruelty, suffering, and shame. 

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