Day 114 – Intelligence is Fear

Fascinating, yet repulsive, how we as human beings have attributed such high value to intelligence in our world.  Yet we have deliberately neglected to realize that, this great worship of intelligence (As most believe that intelligence is the ultimate attainment in the Universe), inherently and simultaneously manifests the polar opposite – stupidity - on a massive scale.

Look in self-honesty.  If you adhere to the virtue of intelligence, as giving it ‘value’, or claim to be ‘intelligent’, do you not judge others as ‘unintelligent’… or ‘less intelligent’, and thus of ‘less value’ than yourself?  Have we ever considered who created this ‘Intelligence God’ in our minds, who judges others so that we can believe we are better, or more deserving of life?

It is really quite simple to understand.  The word Intelligence is programmed into the system and automatically given ‘high value’ so as to justify itself as real – but it is NOT REAL in any way. That is to say that, it is merely a minute perception of reality, an IDEA, an OPINION, and a LIMITED DEFINITION of what actually IS REAL.  Thus it is a FALSIFIED PERCEPTION of reality, formed out of the desire for power and control over the physical reality… and it is used to generate one thing – FEAR.

This IDEA of ‘Intelligence’ is derived from knowledge and information – which is force fed through the education system, and those who, in fear and submission, store and regurgitate the best, are given higher value.  Thus knowledge and information is manipulated and controlled for the purpose of deceiving humanity into BELIEVING the false perception of who we are.  This is done so that some beings can have power and control - while many suffer. 

We are programmed to believe this is ‘just the way it is’, and ‘it will never change’, because if we were to change, and realize ourselves for who we really are within and as the physical reality, we would never allow such deception, ever.  

We can see with our computers and information systems, knowledge and information can be broken down to a Binary system.  A combination of 1’s and 0’s, in essence, which can be arranged in a multitude of ways to produce a desired outcome.

So, why is it that we give higher/lower value to our fellow man, purely based on the configuration/or how many 1’s and 0’s ‘the system’ has attributed to them?  Especially when we have a justice system that is absolutely controlled by the very same manipulative and corrupt value system.  If you have enough 1’s and 0’s, you can literally get out of any situation.  That, is a farce. Yet that, is what we have allowed to exist. Foolishness. 

We have neglected the simplicity of living common sense as what is best for all, in favour of claiming the belief that some beings have ‘more sense’ because they have more 1’s and 0’s than others???  
Meanwhile the actual real root of the problem is fear – allowing ourselves to be controlled by the idea that we must live in, and obey Fear, and every action we take MUST be done in compliance with the ‘Great God of Fear’ - so that we can ensure our survival and the selfish energy highs of ‘good experiences’, for a limited  time.

Just look at how much we have evolved – thanks to intelligence - we have justified every possible form of cruelty, abuse, destruction, and harm imaginable, all so that we can lay claim to a selfish experience of ourselves, in absolute ignorance of what is actually happening in our world.   

Intelligence should be to support Life in common sense and living what is best for all life –  and to NOT allow ourselves to be controlled by FEAR.  How simple is that really?… It is literally a matter of 1+1=2.  

Day 68 - The Comedian

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to identify myself as a comedian, and so believe that my soul purpose in life is to always be funny and make people laugh.  I realize that this is an attempt to make people believe that I'm a happy and fun person to be with, meanwhile the reality is, that I have secret thoughts, fantasies and desires in which I fear what others would think of me if they found out what was really going on in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my comedic character is actually a cover for my hidden character as the MASTER MANIPULATOR.  Through which I use my cover as comedian as an energetic vampire, falsely preaching that laughter is bliss and happiness, in the denial of who I really am - as a clever deceiver of myself and others, in that I can effortlessly play them like a flute - thus validating both of my characters through my secret competition of having won over the crowd.  

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize, that I secretly think that through my ability and talent to manipulate words, timings and expressions - I am therefore also a GENIUS character, because everyone loves my personality and my jokes, not seeing or realizing that the primary reason people laugh at my jokes is because they are also afraid to face themselves, and thus seeking to escape from themselves through the instructions of the master escape artist, so that they too may avoid having to face what they have allowed themselves to become - as characters.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that through my belief that I am a genius, I am simultaneously presenting myself as the RETARDED character within the inescapable nature of energetically charged, polar opposites. Not realizing the one-dimensionality of the characters I have created as my mind/ego are all just a mask of myself as jokers and clowns all with funny faces.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that all the personality characters I have created in order to deceive myself and others have an accumulated effect, where I am forced to maintain my image as these characters through the desire of others to see my character, even when I do not want to play the characters - and within my compliance, I am proving that I am enslaved to my characters, and not able to be real with myself. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize, that my character as a comedian is limited - as the tunnel vision, and one-dimensional perception of myself as my mind/ego, which explains why I feel it necessary to make multiple one dimensional characters, so that I may fool myself into believing that I am special, unique, crazy and weird - as additional one-dimensional false characterizations and false attributes of myself, in my continuous attempts to validate myself as characters.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled by the desire for the emotional experience of comedy, in that I see comedy and laughter as the best medicine, and in so using that phrase as an excuse to perpetuate manipulation through characters I play - Not realizing that this is actually FEAR of facing and changing myself in self-honesty, as a physical being that requires no characters to function and exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to constantly and continuously fantasize about making jokes, in so that I seek opportunities in every situation to hide and cover up the real points to be faced in my addiction to energize, evaluate, and validate my characters humor.  In doing so, I am insanely repeating the same cycles over and over,  as evidence of my insecurity and my inability to walk in self-trust and stability within who I am as a physical being.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the fact that I have automated responses, go to's, safe bets, and guaranteed laughs - not necessarily with the same words because that would be easily detectable, but with any variety and combination of words expressed through the personality traits of my characters - proves that I am not being myself, but rather accessing a character program I have created for and as myself. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my humor is used as a drug, and that me as the comedian character, and my audience characters are both addicted to laughter as positive energy experience, in seeking to escape the negative energy experience.  I realize that comedy is used as a release agent of accumulated stress and anxiety resulting from irresponsibility to deal with the real issues in my life, which I have neglected through suppressing my actual expression as a physical being without characters. 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that self-suppression does not stand for life as what is best for all. In that, I realize that I have become the unwilling tyrant and slave of my mind, that has deceived myself in the attempt to place blame on others for my accepted and allowed dishonesty to myself.  I realize that to live as an Equal in unconditionally expressing myself requires that I must learn how to change myself and align myself to living what is best for all.  



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that constant and forced comedy in a world full of atrocity is blatantly ignorant and inconsiderate of ones fellow man.

I commit myself to have the courage to face myself in self-honesty so that I may transcend the belief that I am not just a character in my mind, but a multidimensional physical being, here.

I commit myself to investigate the Desteni-I-Process course so that I may remove my false characters and learn what it is to live what is best for all.

I commit myself to support Equality as myself, and in so realize that unconditional self-expression is not limited to just one character attribute, but unlimited, thus freeing myself from the one-dimensional characters I have enslaved myself to.

I commit myself to full awareness of who I am, so that I may use this opportunity to change myself to become an Equal in every way.