From Thurs Nov 24 2016
Blockage last night. That is what it tested as. Point of suppression. Have not defended myself effectively. Allowed myself to be taken advantage of. Quite a rude awakening. Very aware of this point now. I feel I have finally passed this misalignment milestone. Now for reprisal and correction.
False Humility in all of my actions. Humility from the wrong starting point.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be falsely humble from the starting point of fear and seeking to please others. I realize I have accepted and allowed this sick and twisted character to sabotage me for a very long time, with much consequence. I will address this head on within myself through observing my participation, watching my thoughts, words, and behaviors.
How can I discipline myself? Alignment with Goals, Talisman.
How can I move myself? Develop consistency and effectiveness.
How can I prevent suppression? Address it and expose it directly, with tenacity.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled by the belief that I am not being effective enough.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I am not being effective enough.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I do not fit in, or that I do not know my place in this life.
Watched Avatar again tonight. Navi - Naive.
Tested, I will recover.