Tuesday September 1, 2020
Dentist today. They measured every nook and cranny in my mouth, took a bunch of x-rays, charged me $400 and literally did nothing to address any of the problems I have. Welcome to the machine.
I feel so far from potential it seems absurd to even attempt anything. The best I can do is bluff according to tarot. I count my 21 day period over as of tomorrow. Stopping my thoughts is fine for a while, until senseless boredom kicks in, it seems as if there is nothing to do, nothing worth doing, nothing that can be done... utterly disenchanted. Suppose I were grateful for disenchantment, and I can say that I am glad for the absence of the illusion, however, what is it that must be done? I don't sense any unique ability, aside from exaggerated and empty enthusiasm. Likely I feel down from all of the deaf and blind zombified sheep I see. This sounds toxic, and I realize I have drastic misalignments, I feel angry with myself, so karma is a bitch.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in anger towards myself, I realize that the solution to anger is to correct the source of the problem being misalignment's
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see others only as deaf and blind zombified sheep, I realize that there are some in existence who have an expanded awareness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to misunderstand myself in what I am capable of doing and what must be done to correct misalignments
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