Day 90 - Parents Suffocating Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create myself as a Parent, as a Bully of Life - and so allow deception myself as a Parent, believing myself to be 'good', 'loving' and 'caring', when clearly all the apparent goodness, love and caring of myself as a parent is actually suppression and oppression of Life, as a Parent only considers and cares for its own ego and self-interest, and so we inject our fears and beliefs into our children with the audacity to call it Love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a Parent to bring a child into this world without understanding the very foundation upon which I am creating life, thus allowing life to proliferate in absolute disregard, negligence, self-hate, and spite of myself and All of existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a Parent to bring a child into this world so I could feel worshiped as a God by the child that I created in absolute self-dishonesty and abuse of Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a Parent to bring a child into this world knowing full well I was doing it out of fear of being judged by others and my own self-judgement, and so wanting to hide myself behind the systems perception of innocence of being a Parent.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a Parent to bring a child into this world so that I could get money as a handout from the government.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a Parent to bring a child into this world so that I could fulfill my own selfish desire to be a Parent - In spite of living and doing what is best for All.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a Parent to believe that I am somehow better than others who are not Parents because I am able to raise a child in a corrupt and abusive money system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a Parent to enjoy the energetic thrill of suppressing Life by programming 'MY?' children through a system of punishment and reward  through MY personal belief systems as MY apparent pattern of parental wisdom, which is only MY perception of wisdom in MY own selfish and fearful opinion of MYself.  My, my, my, my, mynd. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a Parent to abuse Life within the excuse that I am just doing what is natural, when I know full well there is no excuse for abusing Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a Parent to believe I can hoard Life in the justification that I am the protector of my children, and if MY children interact with others whom I do not like, I become exceedingly fearful and protective of my children so that they too learn to become fearful of interacting with others and want to hide themselves in fear.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a Parent to extensively judge people in that I have allowed myself to be controlled by the fear that everyone is a kidnapper just waiting to steal my child from me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a Parent to be so spiteful in my egotistical view of myself that I would flaunt my parenthood right in people's faces so that they can see that 'I am special' and 'God has blessed me with children'.

I commit myself to realize that parents are responsible for sustaining a system of Lies and Fear.

I commit myself to realize that Parents who deliberately do not take responsibility to change and stand for what is best for all Life - are perpetuating abuse and choosing to support their programmed fears 'over' Life.

I commit myself to understand that Parents are the God Imposters, the Bullying Bouncers and the Wolves in Sheep's clothing who hoard and consume Life through using children as an excuse why the current abusive system should not change to support all Life Equally.

I commit myself to see/realize/understand how InEquality begins when a child comes into the world and is programmed to be a total slave by and to parents.

I commit myself to show that life has become the product of fearful, lustful, deceitful, abusive consumers - parents.  

I commit myself to show that parents must be held accountable to Life, so Life can be born in the physical without the restrictions of Parents.

Chained - Day 85

  I remember hearing this story when I was a child.  A long time ago, there was a man who lived with his family in a cabin.  One afternoon, the man was in the woods working and was bitten by a wild animal.  So he went to see a doctor to treat the wound and prevent infection.  The doctor informed him that he had contracted rabies.  The man and his family were all very sad about the news, as there was no known cure for rabies.  They understood that the virus would make him go mad - to the extent that he would go into a rage, and not be able to control himself and so possibly injure and even kill his family.  

     Then one day, the family was waiting for the man to come home from work, but he did not show up.  They all became worried, and went out to search for him, but they did not find him.  They asked all around, but no-one had seen him or knew where the man was. 

     A week later, the man’s daughter was walking in the woods and found her father chained to a tree… dead.  The man cared about his family, and the last thing he wanted was to see them get infected, or hurt by his inevitable madness.  So he made a decision.  He went out into the woods, chained himself to a tree, and threw away the key into the woods as far as he could so that it would not be found, and he would not be able to free himself. 

This story resembles very closely what we have all done to ourselves.  We have all done things in the past that we feel guilty about.  Yet through our continued self-judgement, we have diagnosed ourselves as having an in-curable disease.  And so we have ran into the ‘woods of our minds’, chained, hidden, and condemned ourselves, throwing away the key in the belief that there is no cure, or solution in fear of what we will become. There may not have been a known cure for rabies at the time, however this does not automatically imply that the man’s body could not have fought off and overcome the virus.  Also the idea that he would attack and kill his family is a fear of losing self-control, and so a justification and excuse to not face consequence.

Was what this man did honourable? 

The man trusted the doctors diagnosis, and so assumed that he would go mad, rather than trusting himself and dealing with the situation if, when, and how it actually manifested.  So his life was lost, and his family was left without him. 

This is what we often tend to do in our experience.  We trust the judgement of others rather than trust ourselves, we run from ourselves in fear of what we ‘assume or believe will happen.


Fortunately, there is a cure for what we have all allowed ourselves to become – as rabid, warring, judgemental, consumers chained to the tree of our mind in ego and self-interest.  The cure is Equality, and the medicine is self-honesty and self-forgiveness.  This medicine sets us free from the delusion that hiding and suppressing ourselves to death is the answer.   All we need to do is take the medicine and learn to trust ourselves to walk the solution. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is no cure for what I have allowed myself and my world to become, when the cure is right here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge and diagnose myself as evil in self-condemnation, justifying why I must run away from myself into my mind as the alternate reality where I think I can hide from myself and my responsibility to Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on myself because ‘a doctor’ told me what would happen to me in the future.   Not to say ‘don’t trust doctors’, but rather self-honestly look at my situation and learn to communicate with my body and support my body through what my body is telling me.  I realize that getting multiple perspectives is also helpful in understanding what is best for my body and best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the future rather than face the consequences of what I have accepted and allowed so that I realize that I must change myself to no longer accept and allow dishonesty within myself and my world.

I commit myself to embrace my situation as whatever presents itself in the moment, so that I can walk the correction of what I have created to realize what I am doing to myself

I commit myself to realize that beliefs are not cures, but rather deceptive pacifiers which allow projections into the future which only serve to complicate and confuse matters.  To be here requires no beliefs.

I commit myself to trust myself so that I can support myself in what my body requires

I commit myself to my agreement with my body to live without hiding in my mind as ego/personalities/characters/opinions/beliefs/thoughts/feelings and emotions, so that I can become Equal to all as a physical being in my reality that does not form judgements about myself or others.

I commit myself to realize that the only honourable way to live is to live as Equal to all, as the physical, and so bring about change in myself and my world to create a world based on the principle of what is best for all Life, rather than existing within a system of self-judgement and self-denial.

Day 75 - The Ultimate Root of All Evil - FamiLIES

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to - when I was a child, give in to fear as believing it to be greater and more powerful than myself, and in so create the belief that my Parents were God, and so I Worshiped them and perceived them as something I had to attain to, as 'Higher', and 'Better Than' myself, and so I allowed them to teach and Program me that - they were always Right, Just and honest.  Yet what I did not realize was that my Parents were Imposters of God, and this was a reflection of me, of how I imposed fear on myself, with the resultant consequence of me caving in to the Fear of Death, as the memories of trauma and pain I experienced at birth. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create myself as a Parent - as an Imposter of God - with the appearance of goodness, while in reality I was a Wicked Deceiver of Life, because I only cared about my Characters Limited Perception of Reality in Selfishness, as the false belief that I am 'Better Than' my child, and so I refused to be honest with myself and take responsibility for all Life as Equal as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do good deeds and promote 'good' causes, to hide and cover up my Selfishness, as the Desire for Power and Higher Status in my family system.  I realize that I was reluctant to For-Give myself due to fear - not realizing that this manifested and fueled the abuse of Life, as my personal Revenge on myself, through self-deception in the false beliefs of who I AM as separate from my world and reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest myself in the character and role of a Pay-Rent, so that I could feel good about myself within my Secret desire to Dominate Life, as Revenge for the pain I felt because I had accepted and allowed myself to suppress myself through being Dominated by my own Pay-Rents.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize the consequences of imposing my will as Vengeance on physically weaker and defenseless children through me programming them in my belief systems - through using my own crafty fear based system of reward and punishment - to re-enforce their fear for their survival, and so forcing my children to believe that they have to deceive themselves in creating for themselves a False Morality System, if they want to avoid suffering and survive in life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, as a Parent, create the false idea of Heaven, wherein if my child Obeys my Holy Command(ment)s as a good Servant and Slave, they will be rewarded peace, comfort, rest, food, Television and Games. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Force my children through reward and punishment, to believe that if they don't follow my Rules and Serve my Holy Opinions as a Self-Righteous Parent God, they will go through a life of Hell, as Fear, Anger, and Suffering that I projected and created for them in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a Grand Parent, to portray the Care-actor of myself as a form of Supreme Righteousness and Holiness through my perfected Art of Deception and Subversion, as the appearance of gentleness, kindness and false love so that I could in fear, Win the Favor of the child as a Favorite, in order to re-enforce their belief in the system of Lies as the FamiLIE.  As the Grand Parent, I am often the one who smLIES the most.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become an Evil Dictator of Life as a Parent, as I am the first and primary influence on a child when it is born, therefore I am directly responsible for the creation and development of a child, thus I am directly responsible for making sure that the child creates and accepts Characteristics as Personalities for him/herself, as suppression of self, rather than live the True Expression of self in self-honesty, as a physical expression of Equality, as what is Best for All.

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Hierarchy, Dictatorship and Control as The Fam-I-LIE 

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Belief Systems, False Hopes, and False Dreams - FamiLIES

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Pride, Valuation, and Ownership - FamiLIES

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Competition, Greed, and Lust for Power - FamiLIES

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Secrets, Pretentiousness, and Hate  - FamiLIES

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Rejection, Fear, and Loneliness - FamiLIES

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Domination, Submission and Predation - FamiLIES

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Imposters, Characters, and False Gods - FamiLIES
 
I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Wickedness, Deception and Lies - FamiLIES

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Fakeness, Fuckedness, and Evil Suppression of Life - FamiLIES

I commit myself to Reveal what is Real as Self - Here, as Equality - In that all must Change to no longer be Enslaved to False Fears which are Hosted and Bred through - FamiLIES. 


I commit myself to See/Realize/Understand that without FamiLIES, Each Being would have no choice but to become Self-Responsible to Life, and so Life would be born in the Physical For Real.

A Special Christmas

Happiness, joy, love, peace, family, friends, good food, presents, shopping, relaxing, special feelings, joy joy joy!

Tis the season to be spiteful, Fa la la la la, la la la lah

Why is Christmas centered around consumerism? Is it really necessary for us to buy gifts for eachother so we can fulfill our holiday obligation, or so we can feel 'special' because we gave a gift to someone? Are we really 'special' when the money we use to buy gifts comes from a corrupt system? So the whole reason of why we think we are special is because we have money? Obviously then you cant be special if you don't have money. Hmmm

Do we realize that our temporary 'special' feelings are at the expense the life of the planet and our lives? Isn't fulfilling of Christmas obligations dishonest self-abuse?

There is no denying that the mass consumption of products is destroying the earth. Take a look at all the plastic packaging that ends up in the ocean. Of the gifts you give and receive this year, take an honest look at what percentage you actually need. 1 of 10? 0 of 10?

Christmas is the most elaborate scheme used as a justification for abuse of ourselves and our world. We think of Christmas and we have all kinds of special feelings yet we refuse to see the consequences of what we are doing by not standing up for life. I remember the excitement I used to feel around Christmas, there were fun times of sharing with friends, but the gift giving always felt strange and awkward, though I will not deny I enjoyed getting gifts.

Here I will insert a line of self-forgiveness... I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel special because of giving to or receiving gifts from people

However I have come to realize that I didn't need 'gifts' from people. Why was my life not supported unconditionally? It appears that we are born into debt. Now I need to 'be a good boy' all year long obeying my parents form of morality trying to pay back my debt to them.. .WTF? Like worship Santa and my parents and family for being so kind and loving for giving me stuff. Oh thank you oh great and invisible Santa. Thou art so kind to choose me over the poor... please.

I realized that me being dependent on someone else to make me feel special is dishonest. I am not special, rather I am equal to everyone. No one is better than me, and I am no better than anyone. Its funny that people fear realizing their equality, 'omg... you mean I'm not special!?.. what, that would mean I'm just a nobody?' Equality means standing for life, as what is the best for everyone including yourself... no secrets, living for real instead of existing as robots enslaved in a system full of fake and insincere people.

Christmas is a good opportunity to investigate ourselves in this self-created religious ritual where we sacrifice ourselves for our false beliefs and selfish desires. Notice that while you can lie to yourself and make yourself believe it for a while, you cannot hide from yourself and will inevitably have no choice but to face yourself as who you have allowed yourself to become. Its time to stop the abuse of life by standing for equality and equal money for all. Here is a jingle exposing what Christmas is really all about...

Oh and btw, if anyone that tells you they love you this Christmas, they are doing it either out of obligation, or because they want to manipulate you into fear and false feeling of comfort, or because they fear having to face themselves and who they really are as equal.

Deck the halls to appear less frightful,

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Tis the season to be spiteful,

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Don we now our false appearance,

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Buy more junk because its on clearance,

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

See the raging war before us

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Rape the ocean chop the forest

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Follow god and his delusion

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Media spreading mass confusion

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Fast away the earth it passes,

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Hail the system ye lads and lasses

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Drown yourselves in alcohol,

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!

Heedless to the death of all,

fa la la la la la, la la la lah!