Day 75 - The Ultimate Root of All Evil - FamiLIES

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to - when I was a child, give in to fear as believing it to be greater and more powerful than myself, and in so create the belief that my Parents were God, and so I Worshiped them and perceived them as something I had to attain to, as 'Higher', and 'Better Than' myself, and so I allowed them to teach and Program me that - they were always Right, Just and honest.  Yet what I did not realize was that my Parents were Imposters of God, and this was a reflection of me, of how I imposed fear on myself, with the resultant consequence of me caving in to the Fear of Death, as the memories of trauma and pain I experienced at birth. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create myself as a Parent - as an Imposter of God - with the appearance of goodness, while in reality I was a Wicked Deceiver of Life, because I only cared about my Characters Limited Perception of Reality in Selfishness, as the false belief that I am 'Better Than' my child, and so I refused to be honest with myself and take responsibility for all Life as Equal as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do good deeds and promote 'good' causes, to hide and cover up my Selfishness, as the Desire for Power and Higher Status in my family system.  I realize that I was reluctant to For-Give myself due to fear - not realizing that this manifested and fueled the abuse of Life, as my personal Revenge on myself, through self-deception in the false beliefs of who I AM as separate from my world and reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest myself in the character and role of a Pay-Rent, so that I could feel good about myself within my Secret desire to Dominate Life, as Revenge for the pain I felt because I had accepted and allowed myself to suppress myself through being Dominated by my own Pay-Rents.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize the consequences of imposing my will as Vengeance on physically weaker and defenseless children through me programming them in my belief systems - through using my own crafty fear based system of reward and punishment - to re-enforce their fear for their survival, and so forcing my children to believe that they have to deceive themselves in creating for themselves a False Morality System, if they want to avoid suffering and survive in life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, as a Parent, create the false idea of Heaven, wherein if my child Obeys my Holy Command(ment)s as a good Servant and Slave, they will be rewarded peace, comfort, rest, food, Television and Games. 


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Force my children through reward and punishment, to believe that if they don't follow my Rules and Serve my Holy Opinions as a Self-Righteous Parent God, they will go through a life of Hell, as Fear, Anger, and Suffering that I projected and created for them in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a Grand Parent, to portray the Care-actor of myself as a form of Supreme Righteousness and Holiness through my perfected Art of Deception and Subversion, as the appearance of gentleness, kindness and false love so that I could in fear, Win the Favor of the child as a Favorite, in order to re-enforce their belief in the system of Lies as the FamiLIE.  As the Grand Parent, I am often the one who smLIES the most.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become an Evil Dictator of Life as a Parent, as I am the first and primary influence on a child when it is born, therefore I am directly responsible for the creation and development of a child, thus I am directly responsible for making sure that the child creates and accepts Characteristics as Personalities for him/herself, as suppression of self, rather than live the True Expression of self in self-honesty, as a physical expression of Equality, as what is Best for All.

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Hierarchy, Dictatorship and Control as The Fam-I-LIE 

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Belief Systems, False Hopes, and False Dreams - FamiLIES

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Pride, Valuation, and Ownership - FamiLIES

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Competition, Greed, and Lust for Power - FamiLIES

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Secrets, Pretentiousness, and Hate  - FamiLIES

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Rejection, Fear, and Loneliness - FamiLIES

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Domination, Submission and Predation - FamiLIES

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Imposters, Characters, and False Gods - FamiLIES
 
I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Wickedness, Deception and Lies - FamiLIES

I commit myself to expose the root and starting point of Fakeness, Fuckedness, and Evil Suppression of Life - FamiLIES

I commit myself to Reveal what is Real as Self - Here, as Equality - In that all must Change to no longer be Enslaved to False Fears which are Hosted and Bred through - FamiLIES. 


I commit myself to See/Realize/Understand that without FamiLIES, Each Being would have no choice but to become Self-Responsible to Life, and so Life would be born in the Physical For Real.

Day 69 - The Rebel

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to observe the obvious deception in the world, and judge it as 'evil', in an attempt to separate myself from the world system, and in so define myself as a rebel, and 'good' as its opposite polarity, secretly thinking that I am better than the system, because I saw the inherent lies and abuse.   In seeing the system as evil in separation from myself, I decided that the best way to beat the system and stop the abuse, was for me to become a rebel and fight against it, as my personal war with the system, as a spiteful rebel against the system.  In so I claimed victory within myself in my mind, having beaten the system through not allowing it to enslave me to its ideas.  What I did not realize is that, I myself, created the system through my acceptances and allowances throughout my life and many past lives.  And so my mind-victory was in vain, as it did nothing to change the system to which I am still subject and enslaved to within and as my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to observe the deception in the world, and judge it as 'good', in an attempt to separate myself from the world system, and in so define myself as a rebel, and 'evil' as its opposite polarity, secretly thinking that I am better than the system, because I was able to face a point of fear which others were unable to face - as the fear of defining myself as evil.  In so doing, I further perpetuated the polarity war of good vs evil, which only fueled the system I was rebelling against in my character definition of myself, and thus I actually created a war within myself in spite of myself as the system I created.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to secretly define myself as a brave and rebellious, hero character in my mind - as a positive energy experience of myself - through self-righteous judgement of the system as being evil - as a negative energy experience - without realizing that I was being irresponsible to myself as my world and reality, as, in order to address, solve and change the system, I have to stand within it and as it.  Therefore becoming the rebel character did nothing to support the actual solution to change the system as what I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny the actuality of myself here as a physical being.  Through my constant attempts to validate my brave, rebellious hero-character of the mind/ego, I realize that I portrayed my character as openly defiant, in thinking I was doing good by calling out perceived injustices in the system.  Yet I did not allow myself to realize, that abstaining from participating in system based functions such as the education system only put me deeper in debt to myself and life.  I realize that this abstinence, as me attempting to escape the system, in no way assisted and supported stopping the abuse of the system, but merely allowed it to persist as, hierarchical, mind-control and deception.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to validate the hero character of my mind through granting him mental attributes of other hero's extracted from my memories of movies and books.  In that, I realize that the hero's in my mind were not real, but glorified, positively charged ideas I had created about what it must be like to be a real hero so that I can get glory for myself, in my war against myself, not realizing I was actually sacrificing myself as life, and the consequences of being enslaved to consequence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to validate my character through deliberately defining myself as 'crazy' so that I could strengthen the false perception of fearlessness as an attribute of my rebel character, and so design my character as 'free' in opposition to all the injustice represented in the system.  What I did not realize, is that in defining myself, as my  character, as 'crazy', I was enslaving myself even further, because my character was never free in any way, as it was completely make-believe within a false perception of myself as separate within my mind. In addition to that, I was clearly still dependent on the system for my survival, thus making my claim of being free based on my limited idea of myself - as a character in my mind - utterly foolish and altogether ridiculous.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use activism for causes as a means whereby I can further separate myself and define my multiple characters in opposition to the system.  I realize that these attempts to judge the system is me judging myself, to which the outflow is more abuse, more war, more suffering and more deception.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that my perception of myself as my character, as being a brave rebel, was actually a cover for the fear I had of the system, as being too hard to understand and too powerful to stop or change.   I realize that this was a false perception that I accepted through not understanding myself as part of the system.  When I realize who I am as an equal, I can take responsibility to first understand myself, and in doing so, I can understand how the system functions and in so change myself to put myself in a position with a group that supports life, where my contribution actually supports the solution - as Equal Money for All - through a group effort, which is the only way the system can change.

I commit myself to a process of birthing myself as life in the physical, which will stop the mind system within me, which will stop supporting the polarity war of good vs evil within me, so that I can begin to understand who I am as a physical being to understand and live what it means to stand for life as what is best for all.

I commit myself to stand as who I am as my physical body, as taking responsibility as an Equal, and in so doing stop the characterization of myself which only deludes me further into the mind as the polarity war with myself and the system, resulting in all the raging wars in our world and reality.

I commit myself to realize who I am here through understanding my physical body, and myself within breath, so that I no longer participate in mental judgements of myself, of the system, or of others.  In so doing, I can get myself to a point of clarity, where I can actually assist and support making real, physical change within my world and reality

I commit myself to realize that in order for me to be effective and change myself and the system to that which supports life, I must stand with the group that supports life as what is best for all.  And in so doing, I can contribute my efforts which will have exponential impact through collectively assisting and supporting each other to change our world and create heaven on earth.

I commit myself to face and embrace myself as what I have accepted and allowed myself to become, so that I may face the hidden fears and false characters I have created through cycles of the past, to no longer accept and allow any abuse of life within myself.  In that way, by accumulation factor and the equality equation of 1+1=2, we can eventually change the world system as a whole to that which supports life as what is best for all in all ways. 

The Con of The Education System - Day 59

Take math for an example.  Many people claim that math is difficult.  Why?  All math ever is - is 1+1=2.  It is never more complicated than that. Math, (and all education based on knowledge for that matter) is a system of letters, numbers, and symbols, when combined in different ways and placed together, gives us values - as knowledge and information.  It is simply a matter of following the STEPS and RULES of the system, and, given enough time, you will get the 'correct'/desired answer.

So all one has to do to be good at math, is to MEMORIZE the steps and rules.  It's interesting that our education system judges people on their ability to understand knowledge and information in a predetermined fashion.  Rather than allow people to express for themselves unconditionally, we are graded on how well we can MEMORIZE the steps and rules, and regurgitate what we are force-fed by the education system. 

Why is memory - and the use of memory, through repetition and emulation - then given such high value in the education system?  It is because memory, is used as a tool to force us into submission and enslavement.  The more memory you use, the more knowledge you store in your brain (and body), thus you are attributed more value in the eyes of the system.

Memory is not physical, but energy, based on the past, which keeps us repeating cycles of the past in a continual, infinite loop.  In keeping us enslaved to cycles of the past, we remain trapped in the illusion - believing that all the answers are found in our memories.  But memories are actually the DENIAL of what is here as ourselves as physical beings.  Memories are how we have separated ourselves as - ENERGY vs PHYSICAL.  The energy of memories, CONSUMES the physical, and is the manifestation of fear of facing the totality of ourselves here, in each new moment. Memory is used in direct contradiction to common sense in living what is best for all.

This is just one of the many ways the education system functions to subdue and control humanity.  Another contributing factor to the problem is lack of individual responsibility, as people seeing themselves as separate from their reality.

How are people fooled into thinking and believing they are separate from their world and reality?

The answer to that is, they are trained to think that way - first by their parents, followed by the education system.
 
People calculate in their minds what will grant themselves the most fulfillment in their life experience, based on the indoctrination of competition by parents within a child's early years. Rather than experiencing and expressing Life for themselves, children are conditioned/tought/programmed and punished, into an imposed IDEA of how life is supposed to be. 

Parents train children in their own fears and limitations of mind, in that, early on in a child's life, many things are strictly forbidden for children.  This inherently creates a strong desire within a child's mind to understand, and experience those things that were forbidden to them, because within this oppression by parents, the child inevitably feels EXCLUDED and 'less than' the parent.  There are also many other emotions and consequences of this parental oppression - such as anger, fear, resentment, rebellion, distrust etc.  All culminating in the child's enslavement to such emotions and ideas of who they are and what life is.

What is interesting is that, by the time a child enters into the education system, they are immediately judged and given VALUES, as grades, marks, or scores, which translate to further inequality, separation, suppression and consequential emotions.  A child then begins to value his/herself 'higher' or 'lower' than ones fellow classmates, and so, competition is fueled through the release of suppressed emotions, reactions, and desire for validation, which is all traced back to the parental oppression in the formative years.

We must then ask ourselves the following;


Question;
1.  Why does society give higher value to those who have higher education - When the starting point for these valuations is CLEARLY to based in competition (as fear), and limited ideas (as memories)?

Answer:
Because society - as the system - as all of the minds (egos) of humanity, seeks to replicate itself, through our collective negligence to take responsibility for life, we have all allowed a system of abuse.


Question;
2.  Why does the education system NOT consider ALL factors of life, but merely a small, limited fraction?

Answer;
The factors which are used are predetermined within the context of the preeminence of society, and therefore based on COMPETITION.  So the education system is not educating children how to live their lives and express themselves, but rather PROGRAMMING children how to function as organic robots within society - as a system.


Question;
3.  Why are students graded, and what are the factors for grading?

Answer;
Grades in the education system are based on three primary factors.

a. One's perceived ability to learn knowledge and information, and solve problems.

b. Ones DESIRE to acquire and assimilate knowledge and information 

c. The SPEED at which one is able to solve the problems.

I have explained how the use of stored knowledge and information is a tool of leverage, and therefore spitefully used to gain power over others as opposed to seeing eachother as physical equals.  One's desire can be attributed to competition.  It is fascinating how speed is a factor - which is also a typical component of competition. 



Question;
4.  What are the attributes of competition?

Answer;
a.  FEAR (energy based and non physical) - As fear of survival

b. GREED (energy based and non physical) - As lust for power and control.



Question;
How then are grades judged, and determined, and what are the factors involved in grading students?

Answer;
If a student is fearful of getting bad grades, this fear could likely cause one to work hard, (assuming they do not give up or drop out) then one may achieve good grades through the motivation of fear.  So we can see here from this example, that the education system can actually REWARD FEAR!  In doing so, it rewards the use of ENERGY to charge the illusion in spite of the physical being.

One may claim that a person is 'naturally talented' in a given subject.  Interestingly though, this argument falls on its face, as the education system does not investigate or consider the starting point of how a student became 'naturally good' or adept in a given subject. 

- Did he/she desire to be seen as better than others?  If so, then that is ego/mind/energy based, as seeing oneself as 'better than' the physical, and thus spiteful.

- Did he/she see the subject as an opportunity to get revenge on others, through leveraging education to get a high value/grade, and thus use this valuation to justify living a life of greed and self interest?  If so, then that is ego/mind/energy based, as seeing oneself as 'better than' the physical, and thus spiteful.

- Did the student simply want to help all of humanity?  If so, then what a great tragedy that this student is still subject to a system of control and bureaucracy, and therefore will not be able to use his/her 'talents' to their full capacity.



How can society and the education system pass out judgements as grades and valuations, without considering the STARTING POINT of why a person is, or is not, adept at a certain subject?  Why is it that society and the education system actually rewards SPITEFULNESS?  The system would defend itself by saying 'there is no way to know a persons intentions'.

That defense is unacceptable, and can only have one possible reason - the system itself, as all of humanity collectively - is irresponsible and spiteful.  That is why society and the education system rewards spite - because it is itself, spiteful by the illusion of free choice.  All choices have consequences that affect everyone.  Therefore Free choice does not support life, but supports SELF-INTEREST and abuse of Life!  Free choice supports FEAR as ENERGY and manipulation.  Free choice is not true freedom, but rather the opposite - complete ENSLAVEMENT to the system.

The only way to solve the oppression by society, the education system and the problems in our world is to stop free choice.  Each person must take self responsibility to support Equality of Life, so that all Life can be honored Equally, and each person can contribute to life in whatever way they are able.  If we do not value all Life as Equal, then we are deceiving ourselves, and there is no way we can stop the inevitable destruction of ourselves and our planet.  We need to all work together, to serve life in doing what is best for all! That is the only way... there is no other way.  Join Desteni, and take self-responsibility to change yourself, so that we can all stand together to change our world into a place worth living.