Day 206 - Self Movement as Breath

This morning was a time where my self-directed breathing seemed easy and constant, as compared to other times when I have to constantly bring myself back to breath and it doesn't 'stick'.  I find it most challenging when I am working to stick to breath awareness, as I get caught up in figuring out how to complete a task - which seems to take up all the memory and cpu cycles lol.  So that is the point I am working on for myself - directing every breath at work, multitasking breath awareness and problem solving.

A point that did assist me in sharpening my breathing is seeing self-movement as breath, meaning that I move my body in accordance with or in rhythm with my breathing

Self-movement as Breath

Applying this, I find myself moving more slowly.  I do not waste energy on thoughts/feelings/emotions, I am more aware of myself and prepared.  I am able to work with more precision, which helps me focus myself and as a result of that, I make less errors in my work - which leads to getting more work done despite the appearance of working slowly.   Errors in my job are costly as they can cost me a lot of lost time and effort, so breathing is very supportive in many ways.


I enjoy challenging myself to direct my breath as I realize that I am changing, developing, and taking responsibility for myself in preparation to face and correct self-created consequences derived from the past.  There is also the point of remaining aware of inevitable mind distractions that come up which seek to blame, discourage, or possess me into the mind of emotions and feelings.

Self-movement as Breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget to direct myself as breath in some moments.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to - in some moments - forget to direct myself as my physical body as breath.

I commit myself to becoming effective at multitasking where I focus myself on breathing, slowing myself down, moving myself in awareness and at the same time address problems that come up which I must carefully think through so that I can complete tasks in the most efficient and effective manner.  

I commit myself to constantly challenging myself to direct my breathing within the realization that this is the solution to all the problems within myself and my world and reality.

Day 153 – Personality Systems

Working on changing some personality systems within myself today.  Thus far, I have been able to oddly enjoy the frequent resistances, and direct myself (though there may be many contributing variables).  First - breathing and stabilizing myself in the moment.  Its interesting because the moment changes so quickly, its as if a desire comes up, and then as I breathe and focus on what I am doing, the desire is gone in a few seconds, as if it never existed… yet likely to return at a later time to test me multi-dimensionally, my self-preparedness, my self-directive principle, sticking to my commitment to myself, thoughts, triggers, reactions, emotions and feelings, coping mechanisms, etc. etc. .

Another point in reference to personality systems is how I perceive myself during a particular moment – as having already transcended the point - and then I feel ‘good’ about myself.  Clearly this is not supporting me, as I inevitably deal with the ‘bad’ feeling as fear of not transcending the point. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel good about myself in the idea that I have already transcended a personality system in my mind, as opposed to walking it here within moment by moment application as myself. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project myself into the future into an alternate reality, experiencing what I would do, what new decisions I would make, how I am going to live differently because I believe myself to have now transcended a personality system, making myself my own ass-ended master, by not being here directing myself as breath.   I consider the implications in full awareness of myself here, walking the point to completion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear walking out of a personality system, as walking it out reflects me to myself.  In so, I can see my effectiveness and my ability to process the system within myself, as directing the knowledge and information.  This includes my understanding of – to a certain extent, although all consequential outflows are exponential - what the apparent consequences will be, should I allow this system to execute itself within me.  Realizing and considering the potential consequences, I realize I do not want to participate in this system, as it will allow other sabotaging or self-compromising systems to trigger energetic reactions/emotions/feelings within myself.    

At the same time, I am starting to realize the previous unrealized potential for change, as when I make the decision to stand absolute within myself, how that can change many other things, as of course I am changing myself, so my inner world should eventually be reflected in my outer world.

I commit myself to walking through these two personality systems and using this opportunity to direct myself in each moment.  Through the frequent mind ‘reminder’ requesting my permission/decision to participate in a system of self-interest, as a thought or feeling, I breathe, and stop the personality system at the established check-point within myself.

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