I at times find myself doing little
things in a type of distraction, that while movement, do not move me
in the direction of my dreams/goals. Things such as looking in the
refrigerator for no reason - I recognize this as Inertia. Peering out the window as a distraction, I recognize this as Inertia.
Browsing Facebook endlessly as a mental distraction, as opposed to
self-directed responsibility, I recognize this as Inertia and distraction from my goals.
I see these issues as outflows of the
programmed mind, where I have allowed myself to
be educated into the belief that the act of self-directed creation is
'work' that should only be done in reluctance, and avoided if at all
possible, when in fact the opposite is true.
Another reason this has been allowed
within my life, is because I have lost my connection to my self, as
the ultimate realization of Equality within the physical reality. As
long as I am not in breath, this exists only as a mental talisman of
a future goal, difficult to grasp or perceive, hence I must push
myself to be here as breath in self-trust, utilizing any and all
available soil to sew and cultivate myself to Life.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to believe or think that the act of creation is
work, when in actuality, creating myself is self-movement and
exhilarating, whereas not creating myself creates more work which I
will have to do in the future!
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to look in the refrigerator for no reason other
than to distract myself from my responsibilities.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to look out the window for no reason, as distraction from myself here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to browse Facebook endlessly and mindlessly.
I commit myself to realize when I am
attempting to distract myself, and in so to observe what point lay
behind the distraction - be it fear of some sort or whatever else -
and investigate the point so that I may apply specific self forgiveness, and
corrective application so that I may focus myself more effectively on
my goals.
It is like a form of stagnation, where
I deceive myself into thinking that I am doing something, and yet no
directive action is really taking place within myself.
I realize I must allow myself to take
breaks from time to time, these too being self directed. The point
is to align all of my movements into one purposeful objective,
without sidestepping, distracting myself, or avoiding that objective.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to yield myself to restlessness within the desire
for an external form of stimulation, as opposed to me moving myself
in directive principle towards my commitments and goal. I realize
that the goal that I have created for myself is the ultimate reason
for living, and nothing else in the entire universe brings any
comparably real or lasting joy.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to become paralyzed within my reluctance to move
out of cyclical patterns of enslavement to and within the fear of
change.
I also realize a subtle form of mental
complaining as thoughts, as unproductive meandering is a form of
diversion which forms a barrier to placing myself within and as
directive principle of myself here.
I commit myself to embrace the
resistance to move myself within seeing myself in cycles of inertia,
and in so breathe, and take directive principle in focusing on my
goal.
I commit myself to break through the
repetitive patterns of inertia so that I may push myself to work more
effectively and efficiently towards my goal in each moment of breath.
I commit myself to Focus myself, so
that I do not allow foolish trivia to distract me from my goal of
Equality within myself and without in my world.
I commit myself to become and live the
expression of Self Directed Determination, and to repeat that expression as often
as necessary until it is done, and all is Equal and One as Life.
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