Simple Definition of frustrate
: to cause (someone) to feel angry, discouraged, or upset because of not being able to do something
: to prevent (efforts, plans, etc.) from succeeding : to keep (someone) from doing something
Anagrams - Sounding - Spelling
For us to rate - To define, limit, and judge within the mental rating system
Trust rate - How do I value my trust, and the trust of another = distrust
Trust r ate - Self Consumption
Rust rate - Entropy, fear of death.
It would appear that, rather than trust
myself, I go into a reaction of self-valuation (rate), whereby I
believe I can 'win' the mental war in my mind by way of revenge in
punishing myself in order to get back at others indirectly.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to compare myself with others in fear, rather than
see myself as an Equal, worthy of the life that was given to me.
I at times get frustrated with problems
because I do not see the solution, and so fear failure, ridicule,
being blamed, losing, and rejection. Even writing this now I feel
anger within myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to embody the emotion of frustration, as the
consequence of fear of failure, where in the back of my mind I
forecast what could potentially happen, and upon seeing a possibility
that I may be blamed or seen as a failure, my defense mechanism goes
up and I go into a reaction of frustration where I become tense,
agitated, and angry within myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed the emotion of Anger build into a rage when I feel I do
not have any means of expressing or understanding it, so I then
channel the anger into suppressing myself and withdrawing myself.
When and as I see myself withdrawing in anger, I slow down and
breathe so that I may allow myself to address and diffuse the point
within self forgiveness and corrective application, applying the
simple solution that is best for all.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to value myself and therefore others within the
inferiority/superiority construct of less than better than. I
realize that my anger can also stem from this point of valuation,
where I fear that I will be seen as 'not good enough', or not taking my responsibility - thus stupid, invalid, insufficient,
unwanted.
In looking at this, I see that I did
not take responsibility to see and understand this point for myself
when I was a child. I see my internal desire to be seen as worthy,
valid or perhaps even special in some way. I recall saying to my
parents specifically 'I want to be gifted', and they laughed at that,
but I did not understand why they were laughing. Why? I realize this question is me wanting to (immediately and greedily) know myself... what is my power? What is my expression? What is the meaning for me being here? Was I fearful
that I was not good?... No, I simply wanted to share something of myself... do something cool, as the desire to realize myself and participate.
I forgive myself for not taking
responsibility for myself to understand my internal desire to be seen
as worthy or valid. Within this I forgive myself that I have
accepted and allowed myself to fear that I was unworthy, not good
enough, insufficient.
I forgive myself that I have accepted
and allowed myself to try to win the competition through withdrawing
myself from it, rather than participating and finding a working
solution where, instead of competing, we are working together to
support the creation of what is Best for All Life, as within this, there is no Guilt.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed and controlled by the fear of death within the words 'Frustrate/Frustration/Frustrating' where I see that my mind is preventing me from being here through Diverting my attention and Channeling me into and through a Desire to do what I 'think' is best for me in Self Interest, rather than me accepting my physical limitations, and stopping myself from reacting, so that I can stand for Life here in Self Honesty.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall into a system based on a false belief that consumption is necessary for survival, when this is actually not the case.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will not be able to find a solution to the problem I am working on, thus I will be seen and judged as a failure. I realize that this is a state of mind within a Limited Awareness, and that all I have to do is step back for a moment and Reconsider my Options within a Broader Perspective so that a Solution or different way of doing the task may be found.
Redefinition
Frustration - Opportunity to Slow myself down and take a break, until such a time as I am ready to Transcend my limitations and programming so that I may move forward in my process of becoming Self Aware.
Practical Support - When I see myself going into a state of Frustration, I realize that this is my mind diverting me into channeling myself into anger and self suppression, preventing me from realizing myself here. Therefore I stop myself and my thoughts, slow myself down, and breathe until I reach a point that I am stable within breath. At this point I am able to slowly move myself in common sense - as opposed to reacting in anger - so that I may move myself through the point of frustration, and into a point of stronger Self Trust.
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