Day 370

Feb 13

I must apologize for my lack of consistency and lack of participation. I have been struggling with a variety of issues, and I have become increasingly aware of a vast number of challenges which I must face in all areas of my life. Some of the main points in question are my lack of ability to follow through on my own directives, evasiveness, distraction, fear of letting others down, and a considerable amount of negativity in my approach to problems. There are many other points in addition to these, however these are the most obvious in the context of giving them definition as a starting point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stop short of my goals without following through thoroughly enough to see things through to my objectives. Within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to neglect to plan and plot out an effective and reasonable approach to how I will achieve my objectives.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be evasive with myself and so allow myself to escape my responsibilities to myself and others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the fear of letting others down prevent me from performing responsibilities which are required to be done.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain a considerable amount of negativity in my approach (thought, words, and deeds) to problems and life in general. I realize that this is a major point which I must work on in order to correct myself in directing myself effectively and solving problems which must be addressed and taken care of.