Afraid?

All your life you have been Afraid. Afraid of the dark. Afraid of monsters. Afraid of the boogeyman. Afraid of pain. Afraid of death. Afraid of living. Afraid of dying. Afraid of the unknown. Afraid of suffocation. Afraid of elevators. Afraid of embarrassment. Afraid of not getting what you want. Afraid of getting what you want. Afraid of failing. Afraid of not being good enough. Afraid no-one will want you. Maybe you're Afraid of going to hell.

Maybe you are Afraid you will condemn yourself the same way you have condemned others? Then that creates more fear because now you are Afraid you will go into depression, or Afraid you will want to kill yourself, or do something harmful to yourself. God dammit hurry up and make up another fear so you don't do anything stupid like that. Now you need to create another really big ass fear so that nobody sees that you're Afraid that someone might find out you are Afraid!!!

So now remember... an extra heavy layer of fear that makes you look all happy all the time is a good disguise to all this fear. Kinda like icing on a big fat fear cake. Hmmm.. This is kinda becoming a problem.

Have you ever considered wearing a disguise? Lets see... Maybe you would like the funny man disguise. Thats a real good one. Everyone likes a funny man. This is how that one goes. You ALWAYS have a hilarious joke ready. Its a bit tricky cuz you ALWAYS have to be ready with a joke. Takes a lot of practice, but its ok, cuz you're Afraid anyway, so all this fear energy helps you be ready with a good joke. And the best part is... people will laugh at your joke, and you don't have to talk about anything that may expose your fears!!! Cuz its so freakin HILARIOUS!!! WAAAAHAHAHAHAAAA... !!!!

Maybe you like the serious, educated man disguise. That's a good one too. All you have to do is constantly think that 'you're the best' and talk all serious about important things. Almost everyone uses this one, so you really have to work at it to win. Helps to get some kind of higher education so you have a paper to show people how smart you are. Then you can use the disguise to get friends that can help you get money, so you can make your disguise even more awesome looking!! The more money you get, the better the disguise will be!

Here's a real clever disguise for you. Oh this one is sooo good you even fool yourself! No-one will ever know... Its the ultimate ... its the 'I'm so humble and caring' disguise. Haaaaaahaha Ya its awesome! You can wear it a number of different ways. You can pretend to be caring about something like uhhh.. the earth, just say a few things here and there... or recycle some stuff and you're in... really, simple eh.

Or you can act like you care about the animals, just join a club or something, may have to give a couple bucks to a charity or something like that... no biggy. Or you can pretend that you just live a simple life, you're so humble, and you know you cant do much..., so you just do what you can... little acts of kindness... to help someone... here and there, because you are so humble and wise. Its kinda like a double-layer disguise. Many people use this one, I'd say its by far the most used disguise of all. So good for hiding that one, like a total camouflage!

Oh and of course there's the religious disguise. That's an old one, but a goody. Ol' faithful, just throw it on and head out to church on Sunday once in a while. Toss in a few prayers here and there and you're good to go. The best part about this one is, you can make yourself believe you're special! So you get to go to heaven in your head sometimes!! Bon-us!

There's tonnes of other disguises... all kinds of belief disguises, career disguises, family disguises, addiction disguises, group disguises, beautiful and ugly disguises, talented disguises, strong and weak disguises... you name it, their out there.

So just F***The World and choose your favorite disguise!!!! Everybody's doin it!!

I mean, I don't think there's any problem with it. Ya ya, I know bout the billion starvin people, an the plastic garbage in the ocean, an the corruption, an wars an animal abuse, an chemicals, an factory farms, an slave labor an all that stuff... I dont worry bout that... that's not my problem. I didn't do it!! Its not me!!! Its not like 'Total Annihilation' or something lol. Someone will figure it out... some day.

Construction - All for Appearances...

In my work as a general contractor/handyman, I assist people wanting to renovate their homes. I enjoy building things which is why I got into construction. However, there are some realities in this trade which I have become more aware of over the past few years. I would like to post about this to share my perspective.

Firstly, I would like to say, that I don't have a lot of money at this point, and I would really like to stop what I am doing, but I need money to support myself in this world. The enjoyment of construction has become less and less, due to the nature of this business. That being of renovating peoples homes for the sake of appearances.

What do I mean by 'appearances'. Not helping people for practical living, but helping people look 'good' as in, making the mask look better. To give an example, a lady asked me to demolish some tile - perfectly good floor tile - so she could replace it with a different color. This kind of thing amazes me. To me, this is evidence that our lives are so pathetic, that we are actually concerned with the color of our floors. There is so much to explore and experience within ourselves, yet, we are worried about the color of our floors. Many people dont even have homes, yet we are adamant about our renovations to make ourselves appear better. God for bid your floor is dirty. Seriously.

Others ask me to demolish and/or trash perfectly good and useful materials such as lights, sinks, toilets, counters, accessories etc. Why? Because it doesn't visually appeal to them. Or sometimes they would like to sell their house for a higher price.

This reflects how separated we are from ourselves as the physical reality. We have become so self-centered, wasteful and blind in our world, that we don't even realize what we are doing and the effects we are having.

There is a solution that will solve everything fortunately that will be implemented soon. That is Equal Money for All. That will solve everything from war, to cancer, to starvation, to poverty, to pollution to child abuse to child trafficking to slave labor - you name it. In an Equal Money System everyone has equal responsibility in the world to do what is best for all.

Im sure we are all sick of this corporate run, capitalistic, diabolical, pollution ridden and war ravaged world on the verge of annihilating humanity. Equal Money is the manifestation of heaven on earth. This is our only home so its time to stand up and support a system that actually supports life. No more ego. No more excuses. Lets just get it done.

www.equalmoney.org
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Alcohol is Abuse - My Experience and How I stopped

I remember when I was young I would have sips of my Dads beer. I loved the taste of it. My parents thought that was strange. I thought it was strange that they thought that was strange. My parents drank occasionally, nothing excessive.

Once the door was open at around age 16 at high school parties people were bringing alcohol. I was able to get it at the time as I looked above the legal age. So me, not knowing what to expect, just went along with the crowd and began drinking. My tolerance wasn't high, and I would drink really fast, and end up hugging the toilet bowl "praying to god to stop the awful feeling" and telling myself "I'm NEVER going to drink again for the rest of my life.

Reflecting on those experiences now (that scenario happened quite a few times) I see that my body was reacting to the poison of the alcohol, and telling me that it did not like the experience. Even now just writing about it I feel a little nauseous. Yet, I did not listen to my body, I listened to my friends say "lets go get some beer" or "lets party" or whatever. Why was I so stupid as to listen to them over my own body??

Eventually my tolerance became higher, and I could drink a 6 pack without puking my guts out. Then a 12 pack, and then a 24 in a day. My father did tell me once "why do people drink so much beer, imagine drinking 24 Pepsi's." But that didn't really help me to understand the whole thing much, as-in what was the big fascination with alcohol. I mean, really after all the puking I did.. I really did hate it... But I was doing it anyway.. wth??

Upon looking back I see that I was doing it for a few reasons.

1. To be and appear more "Adult"
2. To hang out and have fun with my friends
3. It seemed like the only thing to do at the time

Looking at these points, I see that they are totally based on bogus starting points

1. I didnt feel accepted as who I am as a teenager, therefore I had to "prove" myself as being "as good/strong/macho/tolerant/experienced as" an adult. Therefore the responsibility lies with me for not standing as this point. As if everyone stood in this point, then society would not have the problem of teenagers not feeling accepted.

I forgive myself for not accepting myself and defining myself as weak, bad, and inexperienced.


2. Again, me needing to feel accepted by my friends and do what they do. Why didnt I explore the option of just being myself? Why did I give in so easily? Why didnt I stop when I had the awful experiences I did? Answer - feeling less than others, thus the need to attain some form of acceptance. What I really needed to do was accept myself unconditionally for who I am here and learn how to express myself.

I forgive myself for not allowing myself to explore my own expression

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think of myself as less than others

I forgive myself for not listening to my body when it was telling me that it didn't like alcohol.


3. Why did I not explore my options? My options are infinite!!! Why did I just "fall in line with the crowd?" I think there was a fear construct going on there. I was afraid a little of losing my friends whom I really associated with myself as buddies. People that were like me and I liked being around. I did like being around others as well, but the friends I had seemed to be accepting of me somewhat, at least tolerant anyway. One thing I have really begun to understand is exploring my options... there are always options and you don't have to do the first thing that comes to mind.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to just follow the crowd without exploring the options available to me which are infinite

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear losing my friends



I see now in my 40's that people are still within the same old constructs with alcohol. Its pretty sad really. Still needing to be accepted. Now its more of a self-interested addiction thing. A way to try and escape, meanwhile supressing yourself from what really needs to be done. Theres tonnes of things that need to be done within the process of self-realization. A lot of people think that they arent any good at anything. Thats a really bad excuse if I ever heard one. The whole point of the process is to "find" your expression, like going on a treasure hunt. It takes time to develop self trust within this. Self-honesty=Self-trust=Self-expression. Thats the formula.

It was pretty easy for me to quit alcohol. I didnt really like it lol. I saw that it was abusive. Not to mention I hated the hangovers... blaaah. When you really see what you are doing to yourself from that perspective, the addiction just falls away.

So until everyone is able to prove by living, that we are equally able to take responsibility for ourselves as life... until that time, alcolol is meerely a false escape route that leads to disaster.
Therefore there is only one common sense solution that is best for all.


Ban Alcohol

Thanks

William Cuff

Canada Votes

So we are having an election here in Canada. People say if you don't vote, you don't have the right to complain. Well, that seems to be a flawed system when none of the parties represented in the election support a system whereby all are treated equally, with dignity and respect. All parties in Canada currently represent an ABUSIVE, hierarchical money system. It is a system that actually rewards and feeds greed, ignorance, suppression, pollution, and all kinds of deceitfulness for profit and power.

I am not complaining. I am simply stating the facts. Look at the world around you... really look.. in the streets, in the dark corners... in peoples eyes, and you will find more than enough examples of how we have failed to take responsibility to honor life. It is a complete and utter disgrace, a disgusting hell-hole with a clever veneer. The consequences of our dishonesty are going to be severe, terrifying and unavoidable. There is no escaping ourselves.

I am using my opportunity here, to use my voice, my writing, whatever I can...to manifest a system that supports ALL life, whereby everyone is treated equally, a system where everyone has equal opportunity. A system that has the potential to solve ALL... get that ALL the worlds problems when implemented. I am ONE VOICE. I am ONE VOTE for an EQUAL MONEY SYSTEM.

I'm sick of struggling to survive when there is more than enough resources to feed everyone on the planet many times over. I'm sick of living in a corrupt system of enslavement. I'm sick of the mistreatment of people and animals in this world because no-one has the guts to stand up and stand for life. Sick of a fake and cowardly world. Its time to stop the b.s. and stand for what really matters. Equality is the only way, so lets get it done.

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What is Self-Honesty

To answer this we must first discover what is Self. Look at it from this perspective. Ever since we were born into this world, we have been 'taught' by our parents/siblings etc how to act, what is right and wrong, what to do and not to do, essentially how to be a good little girl or boy.

Then further 'teachings' continued in school through teachers and friends and eventually into our jobs we are continually molded by our bosses and co-workers and integrated into the current system as how it exists. The point is we really never had a chance to express ourselves without judgement. Everything we think ourselves to be has been taught or copied from someone else. Therefore we cannot define Self by our programmed personalities.

What we do know is that the world around us affects us directly. The company goes bankrupt, we lose our job. A tornado hits our house, we lose it. We cannot just leave the world - suicide is not an acceptable option - we are stuck here to face ouselves.

So to skip along to the point, if you really honestly look at it... this world is a total disaster. Starvation(while theres plenty of food to go around), homelessness, war, murder, child slavery, child abuse, animal abuse, oppression, corruption, fraud etc etc etc... Who is responsible - Man. No-one else. If it werent for man, we would not have this mess.

What is is about man that desires to create this living hell for his fellow man? For the purpose of brevity, I will simplify it to one root cause. Dishonesty. Dishonesty about what? Self.

Man simply does not know himself.

Lets skip all the religious banter and make the logical assumption that man or 'self' is life. Now, does it make sense that life is killing itself? Certainly not. Why does life abuse itself? Would it not be a heaven on earth if every man supported his fellow man unconditionally to the fullest extent? What if all men treated eachother as equals? What if life actually supported itself instead of abusing itself?

Man, I tell ya... it would be awesome. But man doesnt see it. Man just accepts things as 'this is just the way it is". He does not consider that change is possible. Common sense is possible. Freedom from enslavement is possible. What will it take to be free? Self-honesty. Which is simply knowing yourself.

To know that Man, 'I am life'. I do not wish to abuse myself. It is foolishness for me to abuse or harm my fellow man because that is the same as abusing or harming myself. My desires for my own personal comfort at the expense of others is abusing life - Me.

That is Common sense. Yet sadly man has abandoned it, and in doing so, he has abandoned himself as life. He has refused to see who he is. Preferring temporary comfort over eternal joy.

To stand up for life in this physical reality is self-honesty. To see self as equal and one with all that exists is to see who we really are. Once you see, you cannot be deSEEved.


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Transmutation of Self as Life

I asked myself a question when I was quite young. What do you want to do in life? The answer was 'help people'. Im sure many others had this same desire.

As I grew, I began to notice how superficial and wrong the world was. It was asif everyone was cheating somehow, although I could not place it exactly, I knew the price would someday have to be paid, but no-one seemed to care, or take notice.

I was separated from my mother at an early age, and my father really didnt give ashit. My sadness was supressed. I was sent to church in my youth, and indoctrinated with religion. It seemed to be the only answer to all the problems in the world - the fact that there was a better place than this gave me something to hope for. And of course there was the fear of hell.

I longed for real love, which when looking back now would be better describedas unconditional expression. I cared deeply for my friends, especially during my teens, and I remember feeling strangely jealous of everyone. Asif I wanted to be with everyone.Except the fakers and the adults of course, who to me were all hateful, inconsiderate, superficial snobs who made you feel guilty for just being alive!

I could sense the innocence of youthfulness and friendships slipping away to be forgotten, and I felt sad about that.

I began to see how everything revolved around 'how much money you have, that somehow made a person more important. I hated being around rich people, and I loved being around poor people...at least we could share and talk as equals. I refused to be rich in this life, all rich people were phonies. I loved real people, hated phonies.

Later on, I began to experience deep anger, guilt, regret and sorrow. Many times I contemplated suicide. I truly hated this world and everyone in it.

So, I took upon myself to understand what was required of me. What was the answer to allthis terrible suffering. I read the bible and it reflected the guilt, shame and disgustI had for myself. The only solution then was to 'give up myself' to god. ObviouslyI had completely fucked everything up. It seemed the only solution, with my reasoning being, that if everyone followed god, everything would become right. So I became a christian.

Years passed, I began to push the boundaries, question god and my beliefs to a point where I gained some insight. But it was not until I found the desteni videoson youtube that I could put all the pieces together into a big picture... a picturewhere every piece fit. There was great relief, among other emotional reactions, butI knew I finally had an answer... a real reason for all the suffering in the world.

The information was quite deep and profound. There were times where I had to make assumptions to 'make it fit' my understanding, but as I traced back my assumptions,I proved them to be correct within myself. This process proved helpful in transcending my ego and beliefs.

Self-forgiveness being unconditional and the key to unlocking the universe, wow...how come I didnt see that before!! Self-honesty without gods direction, that waspossible? wow... awesome. I could direct myself, god, outside of me was just a belief... so I took great pleasure in 'booting' him at the earliest possible convenience. (Haaaallelujah!). No one was going to hell? Well, I honestly still wanted a few people to go, but then I realized they were fooled just as I had been, so I guess that was acceptable with me (XD). Who could not be forgiven? And what was so bad that could not be forgiven? After all, forgiveness is unconditional, and thus only limited to belief, which is not real.

I had so completely supressed myself for so long, it was a profound relief to say the least. My mind produced so many questions, and it helped to get answers, but I soon realized that it was my responsibility to work - diligently - at getting them.

Then the responsibility of applying myself diligently in order to releasepoints of dishonesty I had accepted in myself. In the past 2 years I have progressed significantly in my process, and see many tangible results and changesin the way I direct myself. Though I still have work to do, systems to be removed.

One point I never comprehended in christianity was pre-destination. Finally, I havethe answer (Haaaallelujah!). We have allowed ourselves to be programmed - hence pre-destination, we program our future by our thoughts of the past. We exist as systems, and have separated ourselves from what is real by creating beliefs and opinions of the mind. Sacrificed the real for the unreal.

Life is unconditional expression as one and equal. We must support life, or life willnot support us. Responsibility to self as life. There is nothing more rewarding than freeing yourself, done by self-honesty, self-awareness, self-forgiveness and common sense.All must and will face self. In helping myself, I am helping others.

Life is standing up.
I take responsibility.
I stand as life.
Equal and one

Will-I-am